“I’m tired of being brave.”

Have you ever felt that way?  I sure have.  There have been times where I just wonder why I have to go through yet another “thing.”  Why things have to be so hard.

I know my life is very blessed.  Yet there have always been certain areas of it that have never come easy. In fact, there have been areas where I’ve wondered what the gain was in them at all!  They just seem cursed.

The thought crossed my mind recently of feeling tired of having to be brave all of the time.  I didn’t want to be a brave warrior.  I just wanted to be protected, spared, and chosen to be sheltered.  The thing is, as soon as this thought crossed my mind, the Holy Spirit spoke to me and immediately convicted me.   He whispered the immediate thought with… “What if Jesus had grown tired of being brave?  What if He had saved Himself from all that pain and gotten down from the cross?  What then?”

Oh Lord – there is nothing like feeling immediately convicted, is there?  My thoughts are so shallow – so whiney sometimes!

I knew in that moment that I HAD been protected, spared, chosen and sheltered. God did all of this for me the very moment He laid His life down for mine on the cross.  He protected me from death.  He spared me from the price of my sin, and He chose me to die for.  There is no greater love than that.  No greater bravery.

“I can be brave again, Lord,” I thought.  I can do it.  I can do it because of my great love for you.  I can access that strength that you give to me and I can get through this because you’ve asked me to.  And I will try to remember that I have been protected at a far greater cost than what this particular trial asks for.

Fighting on His behalf is the very least I can do.

 

~ By Dionna Sanchez {Beauty In The Storm}

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