a guest post by reader, Maribeth
Icame from a long line of bitter women.
And ever since my mother died of cancer when I was only nine, “Why, God?” had been the backbone of my prayers.
Though I knew Christ, my life was characterized by worry, bitterness, anger, resentment, and discontent.
I found the Gratitude Community in June and within a week I began my own gratitude journal. The Holy Spirit nudged me to begin literally counting my blessings.
And this simple practice of daily recording has radically changed my perspective.
In the months since that day, I have daily battled Satan and the ugliness of sin within. I have dealt with piles of dirty dishes and dirtier laundry. I have watched people I love make terrible choices and had relationships implode.
And I lost a dear friend and mentor to cancer on Christmas Day.
But also, in those same months…
I have recorded two thousand of His gifts. And doing so has changed my life.
Slowly, lovingly, He’s worked on my heart…and in recent days, “Thank You” has all but replaced “Why?”
As I wrote in my journal on the day after Christmas:
“The grief is intense. I’m overwhelmed. I don’t know what to do.
But here is what I am not doing: I am not giving in to bitterness.
I am not letting fear take hold.
I am not doubting God’s love for me.
How very glad and thankful I am that I began my thousand gifts list when I did!
For now…with nearly two thousand gifts before me on the page…how can I ever say that He is not good?
How can I possible give in to despair or lose my joy in Him?
How can I see anything come into my life and not receive it as a gift and believe His loving purpose, even if that purpose is hidden from my mortal eyes?”
And the book, One Thousand Gifts — I have never read anything (except His Word) that brought me so clearly face-to-face with who I truly am…and who He is. It drove me to tears. To prayer.
It drove me to action.
It is God Who has wrought this change in me, I know.
But He used this community of thanks to do it.
Thinking about radical life change? About your own One Thousand Gifts list? Come join the vibrant online community giving thanks right where they are everyday and changing their lives… and the journal that’s laying out on my counter, being tucked in my bag, to count blessings, thousands — wherever you are: Give Thanks – A Christian Gratitude Journal