Sit outside for my quiet time.
I love the cornflower blue of the morning sky, the cool summer morning air and the cacophony of bird songs. I have been journeying through 1 and 2 Samuel and was struck as I read the following:
2 Sam 6:6 finds David and his crew transporting the Ark back to Israel. They load up the cart (gasp!) and away they go. As the Ark shifts, Uzzah reaches out to steady it, touches it and instantly dies. David became angry (v8) and “was afraid of the Lord that day”. This is the same word that defined the fear Adam felt when he covered himself from the Lord (Gen 3:10) and the same fear that the Lord told Abram NOT to have as God is his shield and his exceedingly great reward (Gen 15:1).
David became immobile that day. Verse 10 says he ‘would not move’. It is curious because up until this point David has moved all along with God. Going against Goliath, engaging in countless battles, in retreat even but always moving. Just chapters before this David inquires of God regarding fighting the Philistines and God says “Go” and he indeed went! So, this is not normal behavior from David.
There is a difference between fearing God and being afraid of God.
One evokes trust and strength and the ability to defeat giants (1 Sam 17), act with integrity (1Sam 24) and love an enemy (2 Sam 1). The other renders calamity and indecision.
What does all this have to do with me?
1. All my decisions need to be evaluated in the light of God. He is purposeful and so should I be. There was a reason the Ark should have been transported with poles and not a cart. There is a reason why mercy, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience (Col 3) matter to God.
Because I am, We are His elect, holy and BELOVED!
2. If a situation seems cloudy, confused, without direction it may be that I am acting out of fear and distrust and not with fear and reverence for our God.
I tend to pray and then wait only so long.
The fear of being alone causes me to choose shallow friendships that leave me empty.
The fear of being unnoticed makes me interview for positions my family is not ready to pay the price for.
The fear of aging causes me to spend money I don’t have on things I don’t need to keep my self “relevant” to people who don’t care.
When all the while the true things that would fill my heart would come to me if I acted out of respectful, patient, fear for a God who truly knows me, loves me and longs to give me experiences, people and ministries that will not only bring Him glory but grow me to be more like Christ.
By Tonia Booker