I’ve drummed my fingers on the laptop keyboard like two racing horses.
I’ve stood up and made a lap around the kitchen table a few times, thinking about and rewriting sentences in my mind.
I’ve leaned over the computer and said, “Well. Why don’t you tell me what to write?”
I ate a brownie.
All personal coping techniques I use when trying to write something deeply important.
Today, there’s a desire to tred lightly, but speak bravely.
There’s a call for honesty packaged in tenderness.
There’s fear inside worry inside self-protection. [Like a turducken, just less delicious.]
But there’s a need. And there is hope. And there is joy.
So even though I’m a little scared wrapped in worried covered in a desire to protect my emotions, here we go.
. . . . .
Hi. I’m Annie. I’m 31 and I’m still unmarried.
Being single, whether never married or single again, can be a challenge, a blessing, a curse, a joy, a disappointment. How many emotions can us single gals cover in one day? A gazillion. [That’s an appropriate use of the word there, isn’t it? ]
As we hope you know, (in)courage exists to be a beach home for the heart of every woman, married or single. So we need to take just a little time and gather all the single girls on the screened-in porch, sit cross-legged, and watch the sunset together. Once it is dark and we’re all still sitting there, we’ll get honest and talk towards the ocean, but let each other hear the words being spoken.
It doesn’t matter your age. It doesn’t matter where you live or what you do. You are welcome here.
As we twirl towards 2012, you single girls are on the heart of the (in)courage women. To say “we know how it feels” is mostly true. I mean, every (in)courage writer was single for some portion of their life. But for me personally, I definitely know how it feels. Because hello, I am still single.
I want you to know that I’m the first one sitting on that porch. I’m ready to listen, to cry with you, to laugh after the bad dates and to rejoice in answered prayers. I’m not here to teach – I certainly don’t have all the answers. Truth be told, I’m know at some point I’ll be the one spilling my guts through the tears and you’ll be the ones listening in the cool dark of a beachy summer night. And you’ll have all the answers. [I hope.]
But for now, let’s just get together and chat. You’re turn to talk… er… comment.
First of all, are you single gals out there?
How can we support you?
What do you want to talk about?
What questions would you like answered?
What do you need from the (in)courage sisters?
What do we need to talk about to make this a life-giving community for you?
Are you going to be cold out here on the porch? [Nah… we’ll have blankets and coffee and all be squeezed close on those wicker sofas. You’ll be fine. ]
I’m looking forward to what becomes of the conversation we’re starting today. Thanks for being a part of it.
(Also, by the way- in January, we’re going to be listing some new things we’re going to do as single girls in 2012. So get your list ready and we’ll all link up next month. More details coming soon….)
By Annie Downs // AnnieBlogs