“Jeremy,” my friend said softly, “it’s time.”
I rose and walked back toward the other room, crying all the way. I couldn’t believe it, but I knew: The moment had arrived to say goodbye to my wife.
This was 10 years ago. Ten years since I said goodbye to my wife Melissa who was dying of cancer. I’ve received so many questions since I wrote my book I Still Believe. Many have asked why it took me 10 years to write a book after going through the loss of my first wife. Why did it take so long? I asked myself that question as I was sitting down to write this book and talking to someone that helped me with my manuscript. The words that came to my mind are process and timing.
You see I realized that all that God was teaching me was through this process. I looked back on 10 years and see that I have grown so much spiritually. A decade ago I wasn’t ready to write the book, and I know it took all these years reach this point. I always knew I was going to eventually write my story. It was something that I knew God had to change my heart for me to be ready to share my story in a book. I was waiting for that time that I could look back and say God has taught me amazing things, beyond anything I could imagine. And it was just His timing…His perfect timing.
When I started writing I Still Believe, I wrote about what God has been doing now in my life and how I went through the loss and devastation of having to watch my wife suffer through cancer on her journey to go be with Jesus. I also share how I’ve come full circle now into the point where I have a beautiful family. I have three children now. I have a beautiful wife, Adrienne and my two girls Isabella and Arianne. In August, we welcomed our newborn son, Egan, who has just stolen my heart. They all have stolen my heart. It has been an amazing time, but I think a lot of our lessons in our life are really about God’s timing.
The Camp’s: Isebella, Jeremy, Egan, Arianne, and Adrienne
In my book, I share about something my friend Jon told me.
Jeremy, I know it doesn’t make sense but that is a part of the bigger picture. Through the suffering God has a greater purpose. In heaven now, Melissa’s reward is great. If we can look at things from an eternal perspective, we can see that her reward is so much greater than any earthly suffering.
The bigger picture: We all have stories to share and sometimes there are things God wants to do in our hearts, there is a process, and it is just timing for Him to teach us these lessons. There were so many things I had to learn first before I wrote my book. I’m so grateful for the process and timing.
How is God teaching you about His perfect timing?
By Jeremy Camp
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