Sometimes friendship is plain hard.
What should come easily, eludes…
What everyone else seems to have in bountiful supply, you lack…
Never do you feel more alone than when you’re in a crowd of women whom you like or admire or want to know, but they appear not even to notice you…
Because we’re created in the image of God, it only makes sense that we’d crave friendship…relationship. Triune God ~ Father, Son and Holy Spirit ~ His very nature is relational. Everything was good in Eden except for man’s aloneness–God never intended mankind to live a solitary life.
Friendship has been a struggle for me in recent years. The hurtful actions by a few people I valued somehow caused me to lose confidence in myself; which, in turn, had bearing in how I related to others. Sometimes I constructed walls around my heart in an attempt at self preservation, but too often I flat out consented to feeling inferior.
I b e l i e v e d a l o t o f l i e s .
But I’ve learned to see a beautiful aspect to my void and pain, important not to overlook:
It serves a purpose.
Conflict is crucial to a good story, and aren’t all our lives telling good stories? Isn’t it through the most difficult seasons that we grow and mature and change the most? If God is only good (and I believe He is) then isn’t He using all the circumstances, choices and consequences of my choices, for my good to accomplish His purposes? So when life gets hard ~ yes, through relational conflict, but also in personal crisis (health, financial, marital, etc.) ~ I have a choice to make: to follow the path of least resistance (what a worldly response dictates) or to allow my mind to be renewed and my heart to be transformed.
At midlife, I am still learning the art of friendship.
Three powerful friendship lessons are found in Proverbs–
A man who has friends must himself be friendly,
But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. (Proverbs 18:24, NKJV)
To have friends you must first BE a friend. This is one of the few times I prefer the King James or New King James translations of Scripture; all the other ones seem to say something else. Are you waiting on others to make the first move or are you willing to reach out? Of course everyone wants to be on the receiving end, to have someone else interested enough to initiate, but why not be the one to BE the one? Sure, you’re risking rejection, but I think the likely benefit outweighs that occasional cost.
A peaceful heart leads to a healthy body;
jealousy is like cancer in the bones. (Proverbs 14:30, NLT)
New Living translation packs a powerful punch; “…jealousy is like cancer….” Painful and potentially deadly. Ouch. I don’t think I’m typified by jealousy but I have a destructive inclination of comparing myself to others, particularly when it comes to writing and Accomplishing Big Things. I don’t disparage the success of my friends – I celebrate with them! – but I sometimes allow their success to make me feel “less than.”
Jealousy will hold you back, keep you down, and create chasm in your relationships; left unchecked it will destroy friendship and cultivate bitterness. Jealousy cannot co-exist with the fruit of the spirit–love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control.
As iron sharpens iron,
so a friend sharpens a friend. (Proverbs 27:17 NLT)
Recently, a friend cared enough about me to point out a blind spot; though difficult to accept, I know she had my best interest at heart. I prayed over her words and asked the Lord to reveal what He wanted me to hear. It is dulling to limit yourself only to the friends who will always agree with you or tell you what you want to hear. Allow yourself to be vulnerable enough to invite your friends to tell you what they really think, and then prayprayPRAY for discernment.
Is one of these passages particularly resonating with you today?
By Robin Dance who is especially thankful for truth spoken in love, and grateful when (in)courage readers are curious enough to drop in for a visit.
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Anonymous says
Close to home on this one, Robin. What is even harder is watching my children in this day and age try to form true friendships…
Robin Dance says
Facebook friends. Twitter followers. Texts galore.
Sometimes just an illusion :/.
hugs
Kathy says
It is hard…a neighbor/friend of mine had a disagreement about a Facebook comment I made on her site….I took it as funny…she attacked me.
This was almost a year and a half ago…after she yelled and told me exactly what she really thought of me for about 45 minutes I hung up in disbelief and emotionally shocked. We have spoken a handful of times since then and its awkward at times around the neighborhood but, I just can’t seem to forget all she said. She wants to move on and so do I so we have….but its not the same.
I am thinking some times God gives us these obstacles to show us who our true friends are and are not.
Robin Dance says
Kathy,
So true often times.
A wise friend once told me almost 20 years ago, “There’s your version of the truth, “her” version of the truth, and the REAL truth lies somewhere in between.” Ever since the circumstances that caused her to share that nugget, I’ve tried to filter every hard thing in its light with regard to relationships. Sometimes seeing the truth that wasn’t my version is the hardest.
I so hope for 100% resolution; wounds are hard to forget.
Bev says
Kathy, did you ever think to apologize to her about the comment? People can get very unnerved when something they disagree with is posted for everyone to see.
Nancy Franson says
The second thought, the one about having a peaceful heart, really struck me. I think sometimes it takes a lot of wrestling and bumping up against one another to recognize the beauty of keeping a peaceful heart. Only when I’ve learned to let things go, stop measuring and comparing, picking and criticizing, does my heart become peaceful and I become someone anybody would want to be around. Makes sense, doesn’t it? We’re all, at some level, craving peace in our lives. When my heart is peaceful, I get to offer it to another.
Robin Dance says
Nancy,
I guess we can’t give what we don’t have? All this bumping and wrestling shapes us, though, doesn’t it. Thank God there’s a reason for it!! A good one :).
Christi says
Really needed to hear this today! Thanks Robin! In the past few months my 14 year old daughter has had her character attacked by not only her bestfriends but also their mothers who are/were my bestfriends. It’s been completely heartbreaking for her and I.
Robin Dance says
Oh, Christi…so hard to endure, I know!
But I’ll keep encouraging you (and your sweet one) the way I’ve been encouraged–seek Truth, be willing to listen…trust Christ’s good intentions for you. Sometimes so much easier said than done….
xo
wanda says
I just posted last week about running into an old “friend” that wounded me (and my family) deeply. Thankfully, my flesh didn’t win out.
Friendships are hard and because we are human we make them even more messy. My prayer is that God would make me a good friend to everyone (whether they deserve it or not). 😉
http://queenieslittlekingdom.com/2012/03/15/i-dare-ya/
Robin Dance says
Yes, Wanda…what a lovely prayer! Convicting to me, too, because I don’t deserve for God to call ME friend, ya know?? 🙂
Barb says
Robin, thank you so much … again. I didn’t discover this site too long ago, but the few times I have read your words, they have truly touched me. I especially connect with “It serves a purpose…..I have a choice to make: to follow the path of least resistance (what a worldly response dictates) or to allow my mind to be renewed and my heart to be transformed.
God has allowed me to go through a seemingly endless stretch of aloneness. I’m up…I’m down…I try to see the good in it….and I also whine. Oh, I hate it when I whine. I think I can’t take it anymore. He has been impressing on me that I need to be emptied, so He can fill me. And He alone. And this is part of my faith journey….making a choice to not respond in the way the world does….doing anything (even at church) to fit in. Now realizing that to not fit in for the right reasons, sometimes means being alone. But Praise the Lord….I am not truly alone, am I? He is able to meet my needs in a way no one one earth can. And now the faith walk continues….still believing in relationships here and waiting for Him to provide the healthy ones.
Thank you so much for your honesty and sharing your heart.
Robin Dance says
Barb,
Oh, sistah-friend! How you’ve encouraged ME! Thank you!
With love from one sometimes-whiner to another. Praise be to the ONE who loves us because He loves us, thankful for Christ in you and me, our Hope.
Martha says
Funny because lately I have been recalling one thing that Dr. Charles Stanley has said in the past, that is when someone criticizes him (or attacks him)
First: he THANKS THEM for saying what they had to say,
Second, instead of becoming defensive (which is our natural inclination to do) he seriously CONSIDERS what they had to say.
He says if he can HONESTLY do that, sometimes he forgets and discounts what the person said, that it is NOT correct or right, but OFTEN he has found that their assessment is correct and God is using that person to help him see something in his life that he might need to change or make an adjustment on.
He finds it can be USEFUL and HELPFUL in his character building as sometimes people can see things we dont or refuse to see in ourselves.
Now sometimes people in hurt or anger dont always tell us what we need to hear in a nice or pleasing way, however, what they are saying might STILL BE TRUE.
If we are MATURE enough, we can handle the truth, even if it is delivered in a hurtful way. Self examination can be good for us but it takes maturity and being willing to consider that what the person has told us just might be true! OUCH!!!
Robin Dance says
Martha!! Well, if I’m anywhere near Dr. Stanley’s page, I’m in a pretty good spot. Me thinks he’s slightly wiser and more mature than the likes of me (thank you for sharing those important thoughts).
Jen (Balancing Beauty and Bedlam) says
Girl – words of wisdom, this post has. Friendship is HARD!! Thanks for being honest and sharing your heart. So many of us can relate!!
Robin Dance says
Jen,
I’m so thankful for sisters who get it, who get me. Thank you, friend.
Linda Stoll says
We’ve gotta feel safe with someone before we can open ourselves up to them, before we share who we authentically are at a deep level, and before giving them permission to speak truth into our lives. If we unveil ourselves too quickly, we’ll most likely be hurt or offended or very disappointed.
Counselor Leslie Vernick refers to this as keeping your “emotional clothes” on. I love that picture! True health means that we have some sense of wisdom as to when and what to share, to not do so too quickly, all born out of a sense that I can trust you with who I am.
http://creeksideministries.blogspot.com/2010/02/keep-your-emotional-clothes-on.html
Thanks for making those verses come alive, Robin!
Robin Dance says
Ah, Linda, thank you for sharing this! In this day and time of socially sometimes over sharing, I like the challenge to NOT GET NAKED! It’s one thing to be vulnerable, share ourselves as we are…and another to let it all hang out, before relationship is founded. Yes, we have to open ourselves up in order to get to now each other…but too quickly isn’t necessarily the right thing, either.
Thank you!
Holley says
I love you, Robin Dance, and I’m so grateful for your heart and friendship. And that you dare to find a way to dance in the waves of life.
Robin Dance says
Holley,
I’m smiling, my friend. Your words are soul balm.
xo
Beth Williams says
Robin,
Your statement “I have a destructive inclination of comparing myself to others” struck a chord with me. I am constantly comparing myself to others–in everything. I know I must learn to be content with who God made me to be and where He has planted me.
I have always had a hard time making friends, partly due to punctured ear drums, hearing loss, being shy. God has helped me overcome the shy part thankfully. I seem to be better at making friends now at almost mid life than ever before!
Loved the post Robin!
Robin Dance says
Beth,
This I’m seeing: I am a contradiction! On one hand I’ve never been more comfortable in my own skin; on the other, I struggle from missing so many cues that matter! How thankful I am for YOU, that you’re moving in the “right” direction. God is clearly at work in you :).
Mel's World with Melissa Mashburn says
Girl, you are so right on! Thanks for your insight and transparency, I think we are ALL still learning how to be good friends! Well said! ~ Melissa 🙂
Robin Dance says
Melissa,
It’s nice to now we just need to keep journeying…not actually arrive. Yet ;).
Lisa says
Proverbs 14:30 is an eye opener for sure. I mean who would want that cancer in their body? When I read that in the KJV it says, “A sound heart is the life of the flesh: but envy the rottenness of the bones.” Basically the same. I like the KJV, it is written in such beautiful language. Though it is often hard to understand, it pushes me to sit and ponder with the Word and come up with my interpretation. That means more to me…
Robin Dance says
Lisa,
With all the translations and paraphrases available to us, we’re in a favored position (compared to the world in general); if we don’t “hear” one way, we might hear another. I love parallel translations so I can look right then, right there are different versions of the same thing. THEN, sometimes the point is VERY well made :).
Kaitlin @ Perceptions & Passions says
I think the part that resonates the most with me is the “Be a Friend First.”
Robin Dance says
Yeah…that one gets me, too….
xo
Sarah Markley says
the whole friendship thing is so dang hard. thank you for writing about such a tender subject. i love you!!
Robin Dance says
Sarah Markley,
I’m so thankful for YOU.
Laurie Wallin says
Passing this along… You’ve really captured the heart here. It’s just like in marriage – if we want to have a happy marriage, it starts with us. Tough truth, but actually kind of liberating! 🙂
Robin Dance says
Laurie,
Sometimes we just need to put on our big girl pants, don’t we?!
🙂
alison says
Oh, for those college days when I was full of confidence and would assert “I want to be friends, lets go get coffee.” Now… its a push and pull of “notice me/don’t notice me” and wishing that someone would try and be my friend. But you are right, I need to try to be the friend first. So hard- especially with all the self judgement that makes me wonder why such put together women would want to be friends with me (but isn’t that just the ultimate lie?I’m realizing none of us totally have it togethet)
Robin Dance ~ PENSIEVE says
Alison,
The beginning of your comment reminded me of how little children are–all it takes is a playground and a swing and before you know it, someone is bound to say, “Wanna play?” 🙂 What we (and I mean pretty much everyone) fail to recognize is those walls aren’t as tall or thick as we think they are. I think most people are more open to relationship than we give ’em credit for. Yeah, I’m thinkin’ lies are so much easier to believe than the truth.
Let’s keep encouraging each other, k? 🙂
Deidra says
Just slipping in here to nod my head in agreement because I’ve experienced it, too. Friendship is such hard work.
Robin, thanks for the way you love us all so well. Grace and peace, friend. Grace and peace.
Robin Dance ~ PENSIEVE says
🙂
xo
Amy Payne says
These lessons are hard and true. It’s difficult to watch someone who is just sitting, waiting… waiting for everyone to pour forth friendship when there is no initial investment on her end. And yet, how do you gently communicate that?
It brings to mind that quote about how everyone is fighting a battle. Sometimes we expect others to anticipate or elevate our own personal battles and therefore serve us in our pain. And service is a wonderful part of friendship. But even when we are hurting, it’s a two-way street — because that other person has her own battles. We might not even know what they are.
Robin Dance ~ PENSIEVE says
Amy,
My MIL has often said “the telephone rings both ways.” That often comes to mind when I’m tempted to point a finger… 🙂
Carolina says
Powerful post. Frienships, especially when you are older are tough! I am the friend who ALWAYS calls, and plans get togethers, and sometimes it’s exhausting. I’d like to be called and be included in the plan. I know, I have to be the better person, but it’s still hard. And why do women have to be so mean to each other? I was in line waiting to go the bathroom before a race and as I glanced behind me, these two girls were snickering and pointing to my outfit! Really! Just had to get that off my chest! Thanks for listening.
Robin Dance ~ PENSIEVE says
Carolina,
BUT…what if you had toilet paper hanging out of your pants??? Or what if they weren’t actually laughing at you but something near you??? Maybe I’m reaching but maybe you misunderstood (I guess I’m HOPING 🙂 ). That being said, usually if people are mean, it’s because they’re wounded in some area themselves. To remember that helps to minimize the pain they inflict from careless actions. HUGS to you for being that planner; and prayers that someone reaches out to you FIRST (and soon!).
Rachel says
I’m sobbing. I have recently felt horribly betrayed by those who were supposed to be my closest.
Thank you so much for this.
Robin Dance ~ PENSIEVE says
{{hugs}}
That hurts me for you, Rachel. Praying for grace, wisdom, peace…and reconciliation, friend.
Katy says
Wonderful post, Robin! So much good advice for friendship–awesome pointers! Thank you so much! Blessings!
Rachel…I’m so sorry for the betrayal! That must be so awful! I pray that the Lord will draw you close to Him and fill you with His presence and His peace, that you might truly feel His love and faithfulness, that He would be with you and comfort you! Blessings!
Robin Dance ~ PENSIEVE says
Katy,
Thank you…that means a lot to me. Grateful (and humbled) always if *any* words I share mean something to another :).
Priya says
Wonderful and it came in exactly the right moment.Yesterday I found myself crying for no apparent reason other than I was reaching out to someone as a friend and one I didn’t get a respone quick in enough, the walls went up,, I immediately retreated and wept.I have been so long on my own after the friends I trusted for years turned their backs on me..they took away with them the sweetness of friendship.
Robin Dance ~ PENSIEVE says
Priya,
I think a woman’s weak spot is her heart in this matter; and I’m wondering if we aren’t WRONG more often than we’re right. What if what we assume is often not the right thing? Regardless, we’re still hurt, but maybe unnecessarily hurt. I’m praying that sweetness returns to you…soon.
Donna says
There was a lot of wisdom in here with the verses you used. I’m working on being a friend. I would like some people to do fun with and also be a more deep, iron sharpens iron people in my life. I’ve begun to go to a Bible Study with two other women. So maybe that will grow “friendshipwise.”
Anyway thank you for your words on friendship. I’m in need of them right now.
Robin Dance ~ PENSIEVE says
Donna, the first step of changing is always recognizing the need (or desire) to change. Look at you–you’re already well underway. Praying for those real friendships for you, and that the attraction will be Christ in you :).
Jody says
Wow, it could have been me writing this! I have been working so hard on letting go of these feelings and replacing them with truth the last couple years. It’s comforting to relate but I appreciate your tips…it’s destructive to wallow in hurt even though it’s hard to get the words, situations, or people out of your head. Thank you for sharing! So helpful!
Robin Dance ~ PENSIEVE says
Jody,
s i g h…head games are the worst! I need these words preached back to me, just as I’ve shared them with you!! 🙂
Andrea@Flourishing Mother says
your posts on friendship has been so healing for me lately. God is using your words to minister to me and I am thankful.
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Craig says
jealousy – because jealousy is an acid which eats away at love with. It to BE a friend first – that’s the thing – if someone chooses to be a friend back…well…it’s all about choices, no?
my very first post was about love involving risk – and risk involves the potential for rejection. I named last year “connect” – BIG lessons learned. And I HATE that someone injured you so – have no idea how someone could do that to YOU. Only those we allow close to our heart can truly betray us.
And, your last point – to have people who can sometimes chide you – and other times cheer you on. So valuable.
I don’t want to pick a favorite – I heart all three. Thank you Robin, and God bless and keep you and all of yours.
Lisa D says
Just talking with my husband about friendships and jealousy, so that really hit home for me today. How do you help others who compare themselves to you and keep the friendship alive?
http://www.indyarocks.com/blog/1328601/Based-on-deutschland-trikot-2013 says
On friendship: 3 proverbial thoughts