What happens when you awaken to the fact that life is not quite what you imagined it to be? When hopes and dreams are not coming to fruition and you can see no way clear that they ever will? What happens when you wake up to a tantrum and it’s your own?
These grown up temper tantrums are not the throw yourself on the ground and kick and scream, although sometimes it does seem tempting. No. Grown-up tantrums take on a grown up kind of feel. They are manifested through various ways. It could be a subtle emotional disconnect from husband, children, loved ones. It could be a checking out of the moment and living in the ‘what ifs’.
It can be listening to lies that eventually spread to reality skewing what is truth.
But no matter how the tantrum manifests itself, what we are saying is this: ‘I don’t like this—this is not what I hoped for, dreamed for, planned for and I want it changed…now!’
Surrender is one key to stopping the tantrum.
Surrender to God who breathes stars and by his voice put this world in motion and is also in control of my personal little world.
Trust is the other.
Trust that he has my back and everything I experience goes through the filter of his love—including difficulties. Especially difficulties.
Staying the course when I ride the same conflict wheel over and over again like a little hamster in a wheel makes me want to scream. Staying the course when my decisions are questioned by people who matter can grip me with indecision. Staying the course when I’m not really at the beginning and I am not at the end, but somewhere in the middle feels like an unending road trip.
Growing up on the plains of Montana I know the meaning of ‘middle of nowhere’ and up there, you have to stay the course to get to your destination. There are no pit stops. The road stretches out unendingly before you and the landscape appears to engulf you. Some have called the plains of Montana desolate and barren, but I have learned to see the beauty.
Is it possible to view this ‘staying the course’ time as beauty as well? When all seems barren and desolate and I long to turn back or take a different course, couldn’t I ask for my eyes to be opened to the beauty of this time?
I need to look for Isaiah 41:18-19: ‘I will make rivers flow on barren heights, and springs within the valleys. I will turn the desert into pools of water and parched ground into springs. I will put in the desert the cedar and the acacia, the myrtle, and the olive. I will set pines in the wasteland, the fir and the cypress together, so that people may see and know, may consider and understand, that the hand of the Lord has done this, that the Holy One has created it.’
I have learned that the Lord’s power is more majestic and amazing when it is showcased against a backdrop of a barren and desolate landscape. Could it be that during this ‘staying the course’ time, the Lord is simply waiting for me to trust Him and to trust His power in my life?
Could we agree together that no matter the landscape we will surrender and trust Him to turn barrenness into beauty? He will, my friend, and it will knock your socks off. And when he does, will you rejoice with me?