We have been in a season lately of healing and redemption, but it’s not been without many trials. We reached the point where we simply could do nothing – no pro and con list, no trying to be logical, nothing – but let the Lord guide. We had blown past what made sense or what was reasonable, and found ourselves on the other side. The place where nothing makes sense.
I could share several stories with you but here is the latest one, the one that is still a bit raw and confusing to me. It’s the story of how God took us from a homeschooling family to a public school family.
We had lots of reasons for homeschooling, and they involved all kinds of things. And this isn’t to really talk about that debate (because we know how that can get, right?), I strongly believe a family has to decide what is best for everyone in their home, and what path God leads them down, and it could be one of many paths (including home or public school). This is just the story of how God surprised us with a life change we didn’t see coming, because he had already sent us in the opposite direction!
We re-evaluate every year our homeschooling choice, but the truth is we thought we would always homeschool. We never thought it would change, despite lots of other circumstances changing (where we lived, our financial state, etc.). I think doing school “differently” and to the beat of our own drum had become a part of our identity that we never saw shifting.
But then over the last month or so, a rumbling began inside of me. I started to notice some things at home and I started to wonder. We had some big changes in our house with my husband’s work and the resulting shift in our family was huge. It started a ripple effect of sorts, which was what got me thinking outside the box and asking God what I was supposed to be doing. Most of all, I knew no one was happy, and I knew something had to change.
As I prayed over what that change was, the surprising thought that the kids might be headed to public school in the fall kept coming into my mind. I cannot emphasize enough how much we thought this would never be the path we would take. Soon I realized what God was pressing into my heart: we needed to give public school a try.
So they start at public school in the fall. And save for some Montessori preschool for my first born, they have never experienced this. It’s going to be a BIG change for them, but friends are telling me that it will be harder on me than on the kids. The thought is painful but makes me soar a little bit with relief.
This decision doesn’t make sense for us for many reasons, mostly because it’s a right turn from the path God previously had us on. But we are doing it anyway. With a big leap of faith, prayers for grace and mercy, we will hop on this train and take the right turn and know that greatness is ahead.
Have you ever been on the path God sent you and then suddenly he told you to turn right? I would love to hear your stories!