Matthew 5 - incourage.me

There she stood.

Her skirt was a little too short.

Her heels were a little too high.

Her composure a little too confident.

Before the door could close behind her, she struck a match, and lit a flame to a cigarette. Inhaling deeply, she blew a gust of smoke into the cool, morning air.

She knew others were watching.

She walked down the steps, past the stained glass windows and white steeple, past the place that she just couldn’t understand.

She walked with no fear. She walked blindly.

Once in the car, she drove down the cobblestone, brick road. Her red old dingy Datsun hobbled over bumps and grooves until she came to her usual spot.

She walked in the musty building where the stench of alcohol and stale cigarettes from the night before still lingered.

They all knew her.

She felt accepted.

She felt known.

But she was deceived.

Flash forward fifteen years, and I can still see her there. Those wild, crazy, selfish days of instant gratification existed foolishly. Those years still sit and soak in the back of my mind.

I wish she would have driven down a different path.

Now, I sit and remember, trying hard to shake the past. It clings and follows like a ball and chain. Married with two boys, it’s all I wish I could do, forget.

I long to be like other women I see who are happy, having made the right decisions where I once failed. I know I am loved much, yet the flesh remembers, and sometimes the pain of past choices comes back to haunt you, there in your body.

Thoughts become laden with guilt and fear. The head lowers and the feet trudge.

Guilt robs me of the joy of the present moments. I cry out to God because purity was something I wanted, but believed I couldn’t have.

I desperately want to feel and believe in the purity offered as redemption from forgiveness.

Then I read Matthew 5:8,

“Blessed are the pure in heart for they will see God.”

Purity is found in the heart. It’s felt in the heart. A connection. An eternal relationship.

Purity is a desire to plunge into God, to draw near, so near, that His refining fire purifies me until His image is revealed.

The fleshly body is done away with and I am no longer a slave to sin or guilt. I am no longer bound by past sins that taunt and wring dry my thoughts, but instead I’m freed by saving grace.

My past sins can no longer plague me with worthlessness.

My past sins can no longer cause me shame.

My past sins can no longer overshadow my Savior.

Satan tried to tempt my mind to focus on past sins and poor choices. It’s what the slithering serpent echoes in ears to drag hearts away from a Savior who Saves. It’s what the serpent wants.

But past mistakes can bring us closer to God where the journey is an exodus from who we once were, to who He is calling us to be in Him. He armors us as we set our affections on Him. And He creates a clean heart within.

Keeping the Spirit alive is purity of heart.

I am pure. I am His.

I will not allow past choices to control the person I am today, but instead, I will allow the Savior, who saves me from my past choices, to be in control and reign over me.

Spring comes.

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Trees, whose roots have been resting still and cold, finally stretch bare branches high, and buds break free. God’s show of newness.

God renews our minds and hearts to see our true worth and value as daughters of the King and heirs to His never-ending Kingdom.

Remember, dear sisters, no matter the past, Christ carried and conquered the cross so that we could live burden free.

When we set our affections on God, He purifies our hearts, and we begin to see just how much He delights in us.

Related: Infuse your home with these beautiful gray-washed letters to denote the word that communicates forgiveness, hope, encouragement, and grace: REDEEMED ~ Inspirational Wooden Letters

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  • Anna

    Dear Bonnie,

    Thank you for this timely reminder that “purity is a desire to plunge into God” and cannot be marred by our failures and past sins that we have sought His forgiveness for. I am beginning this new day with a renewed “desire to plunge into” His love and His grace.

    Thank you for this blessing.

    • http://www.ahallelujahplace.com/ Bonnie Fair

      So glad to hear it, Anna! Plunging into God full strength with His love and grace, Amen!

  • http://martysmoosetracks.blogspot.com/ Marty

    I haven’t walked your path, but we ALL walk our own paths away from God…until we choose to follow Him. And doesn’t satan love to attack our minds, and use our past and mistakes against us? I love the image of plunging into God. LOVE IT. Because it sounds energetic and intentional. And deep. Thank you for sharing your insights with all of us!

    • http://www.ahallelujahplace.com/ Bonnie Fair

      Yes, we all walk our own paths, and Satan wants to pull us away from that God choice we made! Thank you, glad you love it, Marty!

  • Susan G.

    So beautiful what our God can do. It’s not where we came from, but where we are going that matters!
    Thank you for this.

    • http://www.ahallelujahplace.com/ Bonnie Fair

      Susan, yes, I love this, focus on the “where we are going”! And whom we will be with forever! Thank you for the reminder!

  • Beth Williams

    Bonnie,
    Thank you for your honesty! Everyone makes mistakes at one point in their lives no one is perfect!! Praise God He forgives and purifies our souls! Need the reminder that “purity is a desire to plunge into God”. All we need to do is plunge head long into Jesus and say I believe that you died for my sins! Hallelujah!! :)
    Have a blessed weekend :))

    • http://www.ahallelujahplace.com/ Bonnie Fair

      Thank you, Beth! You are right, no one is perfect! Thankful for a God who purifies! Now all we have to do is take the plunge and not look back in fear! Hallelujah and blessings for a beautiful weekend!

  • http://www.ahallelujahplace.com/ Bonnie Fair

    Many thanks Felisha for your kind words! Yes, it was a huge step for me to lay it all out on the table boldly. But God is gracious and good and gives us the courage to share so that we can draw others near to Him. All for His name!