Angie Smith
About the Author

Angie is the proud wife of Todd Smith of Selah, and the blessed mommy to Abby, Ellie, Kate, Charlotte, and Audrey Caroline, who passed away the day she was born, April 7th, 2008. Angie was inspired to write Audrey's story, and began the blog in honor of her. You...

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    • We all need a safe place….the journey is rough and indeed not all know what each one goes through.
      Be thankful for those who walk along side you.
      Would love to read your book… doubt one of encouragement and insight. Thanks

    • What a relief to hear that someone else is feeling the same way I do. I know God is faithful and He is always here for me, but sometimes I need someone with skin on. Thanks for being so honest.

    • i am famous for beginning things but not finishing … including chasing God. i know he’s there, i just don’t reach out & grab him. I would love to read your book & perhaps find a way to finish … & find him.

    • I would really enjoy reading your book. I just accepted God into my heart again and I’m very interested. Still chasing God 🙂

    • Hello. Thank you so much for risking so much of yourself in writing a book-I so definitely want to read it!! I know a lot about “God chasing” and have had my share of “burrowing moments”, too. I have learned that there is nothing more precious than reading words from the heart, nothing more precious than knowing friends and being known by them, and absolutely nothing more precious than the steadfast love of God. If I don’t win a book, I will probably buy a book (but winning things is really great LOL ). Thanks again for sharing your gift in such an honest way.

    • You put into words what speaks softly in our hearts. Thank you so much. You are a gift of God; channeling his messages to us. God Bless you in all you do. I can’t wait to read your book!

  1. Love your difference between following God and chasing Him — lots of food for thought there!

  2. It’s amazing to me how He has us usually do things (i.e. write certain books) for *us* first — for our relationship with Him — and then He uses it for others. He chased you all the while. And, while you’re being humbled at how difficult it was and is to be real and raw, being vulnerable as you are, He’s blooming beauty. Such grace.

    Rich blessings of peace, dear Angie.

  3. I tried to enter the rafflecopter giveaway for your book but I couldn’t seem to get into the program.. Go figure..

    I know what you mean. Lately I’ve been feeling like a complete failure. I make a point of posting things on facebook that are close to my heart to encourage and motivate people to trust God. I post scripture verses and of course blogs or pages I follow.

    This past week didn’t at all turn out what I thought it would. I was told that I don’t live by the posts I put up. That I’m a fraud!! I think that broke me more than I’m willing to admit.

    It was like a stab with a knife, no, probably worse. I felt broken, and ashamed, a failure a fraud… So many mixed emotions going through my being, my innermost part. I never thought someone could hurt me like this.

    My heart still feels the pain. I want to be a godly person and inspire people. People who seem to view me as a fraud. People who seem to judge me without stepping a mile in my shoes.

    God knows how I try to be a better person, but I fail Him daily. What I post is the person I would like to be, the relationship id love to have with my saviour and the life I pray to live. I fail.. daily.. every minute.. every second.. Yet Gods grace is there, to cover all my shame even though I’m battling to get past this.

    The only thing that keeps me going is that God knows. I just wish I knew… All I can do is trust Him…

    Please keep me in your prayers.

    With Love always

  4. Angie you are such a sweet person! I remember my few interactions with you at church. Your family is so precious- make sure you enjoy them! Can’t wait to read your book!!

    BTW Rafflecopter is not working!!! It says “oops not a site”

  5. He reveals Himself, doesn’t He?

    I tend to be a skeptic, too. But I’m learning that – it’s almost a privilege to doubt Him sometimes….because it gives God a chance to come to us! And He does! Some of my sweetest and most intimate times with the Lord have come right after a season of dark doubting. He is faithful.

    I’d love to read the words you tapped out for this book. You’ve brought all that unbelief out into the light now….may it catapult your faith to new heights!

    Kate 🙂

  6. It’s so refreshing when people are honest and”real”! We do not help each other when we pretend or hide. Thank you for opening yourself up and sharing your “realness”! I’m looking forward to reading your book!

  7. Thanks so much for being real!! I feel this way too sometimes. Kinda reminds me of Elijah in a way. There are always mountain top experiences followed by the cave…! Keep on keeping on- I can’t wait to go look up more about your book. ♥

  8. I’m looking forward to reading this. I don’t feel like I have the right words but sometimes it seems like as I just get some momentum in my follow chase of Jesus I run smack into a wall. (Sidenote: autofill offered me percolate, nun and kindle instead of wall. Ha!) Thanks for sharing your heart again and allowing us the privilege of joining in.

  9. I have been on a faith journey myself and am thankful that God has been so loving and gracious! I look forward to reading your book!!!!

  10. Oh, Angie, I’m intrigued. I burrow too and am so thankful for the friends who pursue and point me to Christ and won’t let me “go there”.

  11. I hear you on the burrowing!! It’s hard to find a real true friend like that,glad Jess was there for you!

  12. What truth you openly share – looking forward to reading it and applying what I can to my own walk.


  13. Angie, thank you for your honesty and integrity. I, too, struggle with doubt and have always asked a lot of questions about why and how. As I’ve grown more mature in my faith, I’ve learned that having questions isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Rather, what I do with those questions — seek God until I hear His answer, or surrender to my doubts and fears — is the most important thing. I look forward to reading this book and hearing what’s on your heart!

  14. Bless you, Angie. I feel the same way when I sing publicly. Right before I step to the microphone I tell myself that I will never do this again. I’ve written a few songs, but when singing someone else’s words is so very difficult I don’t dare sing my own.

  15. Thanks Angie.
    It makes my struggles feel validated to know you
    “ladies of Bloom” struggle with the big stuff too.
    We serve a Savior who desires relationship….not us
    figuring Him out….right?
    And us Moms can’t do it all ….and have it all together…..with really full plates….
    and “just so perfect Christianity”…
    because it’s all about just Him and what He has done for us!

  16. More than anything, I’ve learned to stop filling in the gaps of my faith with religion…. that phrase alone makes me want to read this book!

  17. It sounds like this is exactly the type of book I need in my life right now. Thank you for writing it Angie. God bless.

  18. Looking forward to reading what God has been doing in your life and how He will use your challenges, struggles, “real-ness” to spur others on to follow God well.

  19. Angie, from my heart, THANK YOU for choosing vulnerability over the easier temptation to let us all think you’re “put together”. We need realness, and we need courageous women to show us how to put down the masks. I’d love a copy of your book, so even if I don’t win, I think I’ll put it on my to-read list. 🙂

  20. Girl, you definitely knocked this one out of the park, I can see where it was the hardest to write. But, it may just be your best work yet. I started it a few days ago and absolutely love your rawness and honesty.

    Thanks for opening up and sharing your heart with us all!

    Great job. 🙂

  21. Looking forward to reading your book. I have been searching myself for who God actually is vs who I’ve made him to be. It is indeed humbling.

  22. Thank you Angie for your honesty and being so real. I feel like Im chasing God.. yearn so much for a relationship but it seems all I di is chase and get lost in the journey. God Bless You


  23. I have a feeling, that just like your other books, this one will rock me to the core. You are beautiful and transparent and I am sure I will walk away changed from this book. Thank you for doing the hard work!! PS. I am really hoping to hear you in MN in March! 🙂

  24. Love your open and honest heart! I am looking forward to hearing more/reading your book – it sounds like a beautiful work between you and God! 🙂

  25. I need to start doing that…..looking at Him instead of looking for Him because isn’t he always there right in front of us, in front of me if I will just choose to look at Him? Looking forward to reading your book regardless of whether I win a copy or not. Thanks for the chance!

  26. None of us has it all together – although some of us are better at hiding it than others 🙂 I believe that we should all be continuously chasing Him, if indeed we want to grow and mature in our faith. Faith that is true, real and grounded firmly in Him is found in the trenches of life. Questioning God’s existence is very often part of the process leading to growth!

  27. Angie: Thanks for your transparency and honesty. It is always refreshing to hear when others struggle with some of the same faith walk issues I struggle with. I too feel like I’m chasing God more than following Him some days. I admire all of you ladies who have completed the task of writing a book. I am praying through doing it myself, waiting for the Spirit’s leading in timing and topic.


  28. Thanks for sharing your heart. Transparency is the key to all of us getting real about our junk. Your book about your sweet baby girl changed my life. What you do makes a difference. Keep doing it – even thru the vomit! : )

  29. You feel like my coach to get into the race and chase God. Thank you for the encouragement.

  30. It’s humbling when I find that that I fail daily. All of us do. It’s even better when you can be honest and you have friends that find you when you burrow. He. is. always. waiting.

    Looking forward to reading!

  31. Oh this book has been “to read” list. Thank you for opening your heart, tears and wounds. It must feel very vulnerable to have it all laid out to complete strangers! You are already being used in my life! To Him be all the glory and praise!

  32. It’s so good to know that those we think have it all together, struggle just as much as the rest of us! I look forward to reading your book!! Thank you for being real.

  33. Oh Angie, you have to know that it is GODS strength carrying you through these struggles…what a beautiful job you are doing at reflecting Jesus through your daily life..honesty, fragility, ….. We love you! Words can’t describe how much I appreciate all you have shown us through your writing, your vulnerability and your love for Jesus…will be buying a few of your books – I want to share your gift with others, I know that for sure. Sweet blessings…rest and be still..he’s got you covered..

  34. It’s a wonderful thing to have a friend who knows you’re burrowing, and to bring you back up. I’d love to read your new book.
    Sarah M

  35. I’m happy for u on ur journey. Transparency and honesty are more fruit bearing than falseness. Be blessed!

  36. I am almost finished reading Chasing God! It is an incredible book and I have been sharing thoughts from it with my husband and our friends. I would recommend this book to everyone! We all need to be reminded that what we do for The Lord should come from our heart, not from tradition.

  37. I have been asking for a lifeline that leads to the ” peace of God which surpasses all comprehension” especially through Christmas when I lose any previous sanity trying to keep up with my own relentless “driver.” I long for my song to be Give Me Jesus and to live for Him. Thank you for your work to share your experience.

  38. Looking forward to reading the book. I too have been chasing God instead of seeking Him. Thank you.

  39. I have no doubt this is a great book, and I’m anxious to read it. To some extent I believe that we all “chase” God. And God says, “What is the problem, I’m right here and ready for anything you bring to me.” Easier said than done!

  40. Thank you for putting yourself out there! I don’t understand why we have such a hard time admitting we don’t always fully get God. But I know that it wasn’t until I found a place that it was safe to admit that I had doubts and questions that I could feel safe enough to come back to church and explore my faith again. I look forward to reading your book : )

  41. Your words grip my heart! Oh yeah, I can say I want to read your book as I can relate to all you’ve said but I know I won’t because there are many books on my book shelf that have been thumbed through or never been opened. I appreciate how you embrace the truth and state it for all to read. May God continue to bless you and give you the desires of your heart! ☺ JJ

  42. I love and applaud your courage!!! Thankyou for sweeping past the lies, and all the other things that tried to stop your new book from getting OUT and to Us:~} Aslo grateful you have such a friend who marched right into your livingroom or kitchen after 87 unanswered calls and texts. I have been blessed by you two!

  43. as I started my fast yesterday for the new year, this was a great reminder even though I know it already. We always need to be reminded of the simple things in life as Mother Teresa lived out. I wish I could be more like her.

  44. Vulnerability is where the journey becoming real. I’m thankful you laid it out there. And I really want to win the book!:)

  45. Thank you for your honesty – and I think you are very fortunate to have friends that keep you from “burrowing” too deeply. I’m so good at it, no one even notices! Not sure if that’s good or bad but I know it must be a great blessing to be known and understood. I look forward to you words and heart.

  46. Thank you for being real. I desire a friend who would notice that I’m not coming out of the house. I just get deeper into myself because there’s no one to trust. Just my kids and I thank God for them, or I’d not even be here anymore.

  47. I’m drawn to your vulnerability, Angie. It takes great courage and humility to share your heart and journey so openly and you do that well. Your words are well spoken and beautiful. I’m looking forward to reading your book! Peace and rest and hope to you…

  48. Hi Angie,
    I have been on a quest to know God more deeply even when it seems He is not there. It was such an encouragement to me to hear that you have questioned God’s existence at times. We know He never leaves us or forsakes us, yet when we feel disappointed by God, we feel abandoned.
    Thank you for being broken~it is only when we realize that our true desire is for God and God alone, we can move into the mystery and find Him there.
    Blessings~keep shining!
    Ephesians 3:20

  49. So maybe admissions of burrowing and vomiting aren’t what most publishers hope their authors will blog about when it’s book release & promotion time… But Angie, you’re beautiful vulnerability make you approachable and real… And that makes me want to read your book! Many blessings to you. I’m praying here for God’s protection and peace over you and your family in these days…and that He will use all these words you’ve laid down – for His own glory and also to bless you in return!

  50. I look forward to reading this book. I’m too often a rule follower rather than a heart follower.

  51. I know exactly what you are saying.
    Thank you for being so open.
    I would love to have a copy of your book.
    God Bless.

  52. As I begin my first day of fast yesterday for the new year, this is a great reminder to live “for today”. Mother Teresa a great woman for this.

  53. Thank you Angie for your honesty and realness. That’s something God has been teaching me lately. God Bless.

  54. This is a timely book for me. I have been feeling the same way. I pray and spend time with God, but often wonder if He hears me, or if He is even listening, if He is there at all. I got so frustrated with my devotions today, I gave up saying, “I can’t do this right now”. I will get back to it later. sounds like this would be the book for me right now!

  55. I am a upper 50’s woman….God has never left me but I have gone astray more than I’d like to admit… in the admission there is help. I have been the proverbial good study girl thinking that would get me closer but it did not…. it was literally the hard circumstances, the oh so many losses…where your heart feels that it will never be mended again….But GOD is here and I am panting from exhaustion (hard after Him) and I sincerely believe I am in the process even as I type this of being found….

    • Awww Jan! You have articulated what so many women are afraid to admit in our season of life! Hope you will hook up with one of the (in)courage groups that will launch a new session this month!

  56. Burrowing….I call curling up in fetal position. I have been trying so hard to uncurl. Trying to figure out why something I want so bad is still out of reach for me. Then I see your post. Yes I need this book. Thank you for putting it out there for me when I need it most

  57. Angie, Thank you for being real and honest and transparent. God is already using your vulnerability to draw many to Himself. You are a blessing. I pray that in modeling this way of living as a Jesus follower, more masks will fall off as we realize how we’re all in this together.

  58. I am so excited to read this, as your words about it here and in your blog have resonated with how I have so often felt. Thank you for your obedience.

  59. Thank you for your courage and authenticity. How humbling and vulnerable it is to put yourself out there with your whole heart. Hugs and blessings! What a gem you are.

  60. I love how honestly raw you are. and you really do incourage me. Makes me feel like I’m not quite so off, wandering my dry spots as I am. THANKYOU.

  61. Angie – God bless you for going to the hard places! I so relate to your journey. I had to do the exact some thing a few years ago. I felt like I was a “bad Christian” because I wasn’t happy all the time. There were deep, dark things in my mind that didn’t seem to fit all the smiling faces I saw at church. Everyone was always “fine” and I was a hot mess inside. It took years for me to realize that everyone is a hot mess inside. Some people just hide under masks or are still living in denial. It’s OK to be messy! It’s OK to search out truths from God’s Word and let Him speak deeply into the hurt areas. Thank you for writing on a topic that I am so passionate about! I can’t wait to ready your book. 🙂 I just read your bio for the first time today and wanted to share with you that my birthday is also April 7th. (((hugs)))

  62. Angie,

    Thank your for your transparency – and having the guts to take each step (even when you didn’t want to). Can’t wait to dive in!


  63. So much of what you write echoes in my heart as if they were my very own thoughts on paper. Thank you for being brave enough to share them with all of us.

  64. Looking forward to reading this and your transparency in your quest of more Jesus! We don’t need another book by someone who “has it all together” since none of us really do!! Love your honesty!
    Blessings to you and your family!!

  65. I would love to read your book with my 13 year old son, Denim. You have so much courage to admit you have doubted God. I think he needs to hear that from someone besides his mom.

  66. Isn’t God amazing! May He be glorified through your transparency and honesty! Thanks so much for the opportunity to win the book 🙂

  67. Such a concept that we all need in our lives, to chase after God more. Thank you for writing this book and offering it as a giveaway!

  68. I’ve just recently discovered you (how you’ve flown under my radar, I have no idea) but I’m excited to devour all your books and word of inspiration!

  69. Ever since I stumbled across your blog while I sat in the sweltering heat and humidity of the Philippines I have loved to read your words. I fell in love with your heart as I sat and read your blog from the beginning for 4 days straight. all day long. My kids would see me sobbing and walk over and mumble, “oh, your reading THAT again.”
    I can’t wait to read this book.
    Hugs to you Angie. and congratulations on your new hardcover book.
    (Need help with any book signings? LOL!)

  70. I’ve dubbed 2014 as my year to fearlessly follow God, so a book about chasing God? Seems perfect! 😉 Can’t wait to dig into this book!

  71. Thank you for your transparency. I too feel like I’m burrowing. You see, I’m in a whole new season. Yet, it’s a season of WAIT. I feel all alone in this season. My kids are grown & we’re starting Empty nest. Looking for a new house. Looking for a new church. Looking for a new direction. And God is quiet. It’s tough. I KNOW that He is good and I KNOW that He is there but sometimes, I feel all alone.

    I am grateful for your email and transparency today. We need each other in this journey.

    • Kelley, your words echoed my own thoughts as I cried out to the Lord during my quiet time this morning. I also have an ’empty nest’ with both children married. While my husband and I would like to downsize, our home sits unsold in a stagnant real estate market. As I care for parents whose health is declining, I often wrestle with feeling SO alone.

      Yes, God is momentarily quiet, but I know He is there. Sometimes I think He sends kindred spirits, like you, to comfort our troubled souls during these times of waiting. I am thankful for your words of encouragement. Blessings …

  72. “More than anything else, I learned to stop filling the gaps of my faith with religion.”


    Your words really spoke to me this morning….I tend to shut myself off from the world in the midst of my struggles as well….and THANK GOD, I have those people in my life who will persue me until I have allowed them in to minister to me.
    I look forward to reading your book. And I pray God will calm your spirit and encourage you as you continue to use your gifts to minister to others.

  73. I love that when we chase God, He actually lets us catch Him. Can’t wait to read your book!

  74. A freebie would be so fabulous.
    I would love to read your book! Thanks for the opportunity.

  75. Thank you for this post, and for the courage to write this book. It sounds like exactly what I need for this part of my life and I can’t wait to read this book.

  76. Angie –
    thanks for being so open and vulnerable! can’t wait to get home today and order your book on my kindle! looking forward to exploring your journey!

  77. Sounds like a book I need to read right now!! Thanks for being brave enough to write it and share it with us.

  78. Wow! I read about your book and watched the video on and had to purchase the book. Can’t wait to dive into it. Would love to receive a copy to give a friend.

    The concept of Chasing God instead of Following God…I had never thought about it but I think deep down most of us can relate.

    Thank you for being a willing servant.

  79. “More than anything else, I learned to stop filling the gaps of my faith with religion.”

    I LOVE that sentence. And I loved this post. Thank you for you honesty and for vulnerability. And for being brave enough to be authentic in your journey.

  80. I think it’s courageous to write about something as close to your heart as the doubts you’ve had. Jennifer Rees Larcombe wrote about that in her book “Journey Into God’s Heart” and I enjoyed reading about God’s response to it – the dream she had, and the letter left for her by her dad.

  81. I like to burrow, but my burrowing is in the form of staying away from home. I am a single mom and I am very fortunate in that my son has grandparents that is always getting him for weekends and holidays so I get time to myself. My grandmother passed away in Dec and it hit me hard. My son and I live right next door to them and he always went over and visited and put puzzles together wit her. I was raised up with them right down the road. It has really hit me hard, so instead of staying around I left. My son was with grandparents since Christmas Day so I went and stayed with a friend. I avoided anything that reminded me of my Grandmother. I want/need to visit my Grandaddy, but it is so hard to be there and she no be there. I just avoid it all together. I had to come back on weekends as I work the nursery at Church, but I become a hermit and just stay at home, I don’t get out. I am praying and asking for His help to get me through this difficult time. Avoidance. I need to face the issue and stop avoiding it.

  82. In the midst of your rawness, you encourage, thank you. May the Lord be gracious and shine his face upon you…always.

  83. This resonates with me so much – and with my One Word for 2014 – “Return.” I love that distinction between running after and trying to catch up to God and following where He leads. I’m looking forward to hearing more of your insights in, what looks to be, another wonderful book for my (in)courage shelf.

  84. I love the way you write and your honesty and openness. I will take real over perfect any day. 🙂 I am sure this book is a good read!

  85. Thank you for being so real and honest! I often “put on” my face as I struggle with depression and anxiety! I look forward to reading you book:)

  86. Oh this book speaks to my heart, I hope I win it seems like I never win anything & then I remember I’ve already won I have Jesus in my life whether I’m feeling it or not. Thanks for your openness & may God Bless you abundantly for sharing your real self with us!!

  87. Thank you so much for the opportunity to win a copy! it sounds like a great book and I had never thought of the difference between chasing God and following God. thank you for sharing!

  88. I think you summed up why (in)courage is ministering to so many women. It truly is a safe place for women’s hearts. Looking forward to reading your book.

  89. I’ve been anticipating your next book since my ballet friends introduced me to you at WOF last year. You’re a gifted writer and I can’t wait to read your thoughts in this book!

  90. Looking forward to discussions and praying I will be lucky and recieve a book. I have been blessed with free ones for others so I guess this sounds greedy. But being on SS fixed income does limit one. But know that i will still listen wether I have a book or not. My son enables me to have internet 🙂 ( he loves his momma) I am sorry that you were so stressed out but pray that all is well now.

    God Bless

  91. This sounds like a book I need to read this year. May God bless you for your honesty and give you the strength to continue sharing what is on your heart.

  92. I very much appreciate your honesty. We need more people willing to admit they have struggles, as I think most of us do. I’d love to read your book and look forward to it.



  94. Wow. Filling in the gaps of faith with religion…when I read that just now it hit me as so profound and it resonated. Cannot wait to read this book! Bless you for your raw honesty and laying it all out there. That is not easy, but I think we all need to see it, do it.

  95. Your comments only made me want to read your book more. “Mended” ministered to me in a place of great brokenness. Anyway, my copy of “Chasing God” is in transit but delayed because of the storm here in Maine. Thank you Angie for sharing your heart and your imperfections and struggles. God’s Spirit flows through these. Saying a prayer for you today.

  96. This book sounds like exactly what I need right now. Thanks for the chance to win a copy, and thank you for your bravery in writing and releasing this.

  97. Time to start looking at Him.
    Not just for Him.
    Thank you for saying that out loud…to me, who eagerly attempts to fill the gaps on a minute by minute basis, with the the things and people and busyness and everything but what matters

  98. Chasing God is an interesting way to put it, as if He were elusive & not already seeking us – but that’s probably the way I treat Him. Thanks for this opportunity.

  99. I look forward to reading your book. Christians should be real. And human. Paul was… and so should we. Christ’s own lineage was from real people like us. I look forward to seeing how your experiences and realities and the truth of God’s word will encourage and admonish and lead others to leave what’s behind and press on toward the prize that God has in store for each of us. Thank you for writing!

  100. I’m a burrow-er. some days I’m alive and unstoppable, magnetic and just plain wild….then, I get broken and weak and burrow away hoping no one will miss me. Can’t wait to read this!

  101. Angie…I always am blessed by your words..thank you for your transparency…we need to be real-loving one another!! thank you sister-in-Jesus

  102. Ah. Yes. I so needed to hear the struggles I have heard “you are not alone!” Thank you dear sister for your raw honesty. I needed this book!

  103. I would love to read this book! Thank you for your transparency in your posts and writing! Such an encouragement!

  104. Thank you for being brave and honest! I have felt the very same way recently, can’t wait to read the book!

  105. I’m having a hard time getting back to even reading the bible, let alone CHASE God! Prayers appreciated…and winning the book would be awesome!

  106. Oh, Angie, I’m so glad you had the courage to write this book! It sounds like it’s exactly what I’ve been needing. I don’t want to just ‘do’ church and Christianity and constantly feel as if I’m coming up short. The truth is, I will always come up short. This is why I need Jesus. He makes up for my lack! Can’t wait to read it!

  107. Looking forward to being blessed by your honesty. Thank you for your willingness to share so openly.

  108. Looking forward to reading this! Sounds like a great way to start the new year~ Blessings to you on this lifelong journey.

  109. Thank you for being real and for sharing your heart. I am really looking forward to reading this book!

  110. I can’t wait to read this book! I think it is totally your vulnerability and being willing to get real with us all is why I love you so much! 🙂

  111. I appreciate the honesty of Christian women like you, so thank you for sharing your heart with your readers (admirers!). This is most definitely on my “to read” list.

  112. Oh this sounds like a book I would love to read. I am learning to walk my live ‘real’ and to hear on others story. Awesome

  113. Love the idea of “Chasing God” . . .taking an active approach to a relationship with Our Heavenly Father instead of passively following.

  114. God has recently revealed to me that I, too, have been chasing Him. I’ve been after him to provide me the opportunity to serve him in the way I feel called to do and make a living doing it. It has drained me, left me questioning my faith, and wondering if God really has a plan. I look forward to reading your book as I too have had to learn to stop “Chasing God” and let his love, grace and mercy flow into my life. I hope your insights and your bravery in sharing your story will help me get back on track in my faith journey. God bless you!

  115. Chasing and running, yes, the bulk of my Jesus-loving days. I think you just put words to what I have never quite been able to put my finger on. Thank you.

  116. I am super-intrigued to read more about the whole chasing God thing.
    And your words here are real, raw, brave.
    Thank you.

  117. Would love to read your book & thanks for sharing your heart! We relate more than you ever know!

  118. I’m so looking forward to reading this. It sounds like just what I need to read at his point in my life with the challenges ahead of me. Chasing God sounds sounds like what I’ve been doing in desperation. I’d love to win a copy. Blessings.

  119. Through two years of very hard circumstances, I’ve found my relationship with God growing so much deeper. I’m focusing on not listening to those negative voices in my head that the enemy wants to use to defeat me. The title of your book says so much.

  120. I can’t wait to get my hands on your new book! I prayed for you as I read your words today… I, too, have felt this way for some time. Thank you for sharing yourself with us & encouraging us through your own journey. Amazing…it’s been raining for 2 days and the sun just came out…

  121. Really making this a year of new beginnings. Know this book will help me in my walk with God, where I find a life and emotion that is real and not safe and superficial!

  122. As an “I’m fine,I’m fine Girl” to another, this reasonates with my spirit so very much. How we need to be real and oh how scary this is too. We don’t like to feel vulnerable,but, we must as we allow God to do His work within us. Thank you reaching past your fears and writing this book. I am excited to soak it up and let it seep into my soul.

  123. Wow – what a lot of comments. God is using you already!! How He uses us for His glory – through the good and the hard times when we live – and try to live for him. May His grace fill you today. It sounds like a thought provoking book to read.

  124. Thank you for these heartfelt words, Angie. Why is it we always touch more people’s hearts and lives the minute we surrender and share the things we think make us ugly or unknowable…
    Hearing your words about your book help me see more the ‘real you’ – the authentic Angie, and I so appreciate that. I can’t wait to read your book – thank you for giving so much of yourself in your words to us! Blessings to you! 🙂

  125. Hmmm, I am hooked; I identify with your insights and perspectives, and would love to read your book! I love that we can have such a shared experience in God:)


  126. I love this post! Thank you for being so real and so honest- I, for one, appreciate it, and I know many others here do too. I cannot wait to read your book, because you sound a lot like me. If I don’t win one, I’m buying one!

  127. Angie: What a beautiful way of expressing the season you are in. I, too, feel as if I am chasing God. I pray daily for the faith to follow in his footsteps. Looking forward to reading your book.

  128. I’m looking forward to reading it! My hubs has struggled for four+ years with wondering if God truly is real. I believe He’s real, but it’s just impossible for me to see Him right now.

  129. FREEDOM is one of our words for 2014. I’m looking forward to reading your words describing your freedom journey! Thank you for opening up yourself and being vulnerable so that we can grow together and encourage one another. 🙂

  130. You’ve got this. I’ve been reading your blog for years now and this book is just like a long blog entry that I can not wait to read. Congrats on your accomplishment. I will be sure to leave a review when I finish it. 🙂

  131. I “burrow” too, as if I can burrow anywhere deep enough that God won’t find me! It’s like pulling the covers up over your head….morning still comes! And then I realize (or one of my “Jess'” point the way) that it’s all about Grace… He already knows the mess I created & is in the middle of it with me, regardless of whether I try to hide out or not! I think we all need the reminder that we are all in “that place” sometimes, that none of us get it “right” all the time! Can’t wait to read your book!

  132. Beautifully expressed. And you’re not alone, Sister! Looking forward to reading your words – sacrificially given!

  133. I’ve been struggling with how to begin this year – all new, clean, unmarked, and loaded with possibilities waiting for me to find the “perfect” way to begin it. Which devotional? Which Bible reading plan? Which Wed. night class at church? When I read your statement “I started looking at Him more than I was looking for Him…” something clicked inside me. Is that what I’ve been doing, looking FOR Him in all these very worthy efforts? Am I missing Him while looking for Him? Would love to read your book and find what you discovered and learned, that I may, too.

  134. REAL! Just what we need to see, b/c we struggle with the same things and it makes us feel ‘not alone’. Thank you for being real!

  135. Thank you for your honesty. I look forward to reading this as some of what you said really hit home.

  136. Thank you for always being so open and vulnerable with us. I can’t even begin to explain how much I relate with you and your doubts and struggles. I am in a place where I look at other people and wonder how
    In the world I can have what they have with Jesus. I’ve been a Christian most of my life, but I have never understood how to see, and trust, and rely on God well enough to make it my life. I don’t know if that makes sense. But anyways, I can’t wait to read your new book. I loved “what women fear” (which I got at women of faith in Philly this past September where I got to meet you-totally awesome!) thank you for showing us your heart ❤️

  137. Wow, amazing how many more comments you get when you give something away. Your book and journey sound like just what I need. When I try to share that same feeling with others, I can tell they just don’t get it, or they haven’t sat long enough to be honest with themselves… Most times I feel like in our hearts we are all chasing God. I don’t know too many who reflect God enough to prove they are following Him. May your book and your story bless many. Looking forward to reading and sharing it. Bless you.

  138. You are not out of the norm…for me anyway. I identify. The group of ladies here has also been a safe place for me to virtually come for prayer warriors as well.

  139. Thanks so much for your transparency, Angie. What an exceptional friend you have in Jess!

    The trailer about your book at your site really moved me. I’d love to read it!

  140. I look forward to reading this. I’ve read two of your other books and enjoyed them so much! Thanks for listening and writing what God wants many of us to hear!

  141. This book sounds great! And it might be exactly what I need to figure out what exactly is “wrong” in my relationship with God. I know it’s me, but I can’t figure out what I’m doing wrong…

  142. I am so thankful for those who are willing to be honest. Life is hard.
    God is good and He has been here. He loves us and He is truly enough.
    Thank you for sharing your story (even/especially your struggles).

  143. Wow. You took the words right out of my mouth. It’s as if you’ve been living my life. Can’t wait to read your book!

  144. I understand the burrowing. That is what I do when I am overwhelmed. You are fortunate to have a friend that understands that and comes to you to help you unburden yourself in a safe place.

  145. Thanks for sharing your heart Angie! It is hard and uncomfortable and often times ugly….but it is for all of us, you’re not alone. Excited to read the book!

  146. I can so relate…although it has been a long time since I have had a friend like Jess in my life. You are blessed. Thank you for sharing your heart and life with us.

  147. Thanks for being willing to be raw and open when the rest of us tend to hide things. What an encouragement you are to me. Looking forward to the book.

  148. It is something I was just praying over and discussing with one of my grown kids who was saying “everyone else seems to have these great God experiences and I don’t know what that means”- maybe your book will shed some light-

  149. Angie……I am thrilled about your book!! I read Mended 3 times and still pick it up to reflect. I was recently wondering when we were going to get another book out of you!! Excited!!

  150. I am in a similar place, although I am certain you are farther along than I am. (and I admit that readily). My journey has been SLOW and almost painful to say the least. My biggest problem is not that I am filling the gaps of my faith with religion as you stated, but that I am letting others who are not walking with Jesus, but whom I love, fill the gaps for me. I let them dictate right and wrong and justify my walk by their standards instead of His standards and His Will for my life. It’s leaving me lost, weary, and confused and feeling completely defeated. And yes, I too, feel as though I am “chasing” and not following Jesus. So, I look forward to reading your book and am praying that, together, we can look “at Him” more than “for Him.” Thank you for considering me as a book recipient. I am a single-mom and at this time of year (right after Christmas) it is just not feasible for me to “purchase” anything. God Bless.

  151. I can’t wait for the new book club! This book sounds awesome. I identified with your statements about how other people seem to have better prayer lives than me and I am ready to look at Him instead of for Him! Incourage is such a blessing…I’ve been waiting for this new seesion since the last one finished!!!

  152. Love the term “burrowing”…..I think I am in my safe place, but as you so kindly shared, being by yourself isn’t nurturing!! God Bless the kindness and love of our friends to dig us out of our caves!! God Bless You, Karen

  153. Love your honesty of the vomit. There are times when vomit is involved! Looking forward to reading your newest book!

  154. I have felt the same many times over. Burrowing inside myself and chasing Him seems to be something I’ve done more times than I’d like to admit to as an adoptive mom of a lovable 3 year old and a teacher to some lovable and not so lovable high schoolers. (((HUGS)))) Randilyn

  155. I, too, am burrowing from the crushing blows of life and lost hope and disappointment. I look forward to reading your book.

  156. Your statement of no longer filling the gaps of your faith with religion has give me pause- It has touched me in a very reflective, prayerful way. I will move forward in prayer to see how I might embrace this and then give it away to someone else-Thank you!! Elena

  157. This is echoing some things God has been telling me through multiple channels. I would love a copy of your book. Love this….”I was looking at Him more than I was looking for Him”……yes that is it!!

  158. It’s always about being real ~ genuine ~ authentic, isn’t it, Angie! THAT’s the HARD PART ~ when we get on our knees and confess that we’re really not all that well put together after all! I celebrate YOU ~ warts and all! You surely have gone thru a journey that our Loving Creator God calls us all to take.

    As one who has lived this, I am sure that your book will become a guiding light to others along the way. Thank you for your transparency. We need more in His Body!

    I look forward to reading your heart as it has been scribed. Blessings, dear Sister in Christ. [And I hope to win one of your give-aways! Thanks for the offering!]

  159. I love when a woman can really dig down to the heart of a matter and that other women can respond with heartfelt “dittos”. God Bless you for your transparency especially in a public forum.

  160. Thank you for sharing and trusting us to be on this journey with you. It is such an amazing gift for all of us.

  161. WHAT WOMEN FEAR was written by a very courageous woman. So I can see why you are shaking in your boots, because you dared to go deeper. God entrusted you and enabled you to go deeper. For us. You did this for us. For all of us who are scared. We are all fragile and vulnerable. With God we become strong and valiant. Our choice. So do not fear, Angie dear. You chose the better part, and it cannot be taken away from you. Thank you for writing a book that I need to read. It will be well received. No worries.

  162. Wow! Angie! I’m looking forward to reading your book, as many others have said. This topic you share is exactly where I am challenged too.

  163. I’ve been struggling with my faith and your posts give me hope. Perhaps I need to focus less on chasing God and more on resting in Him. Thank you for being transparent and encouraging.

  164. I really want to read your book. Thanks for always being vulerable for us…I’m a “vomiter” too. Lol. Life is hard but having sisters to share these moments with are the best. Thanks friend.

  165. I am a weary chaser in a challenging season but God is in the journey even in the shadows. Trust proverbs ch 3 v5&6

  166. Thank you for bearing your heart and telling your story for the benefit of all of us. I love the distinction between chasing God and following God. I can’t wait to read this book!

  167. I look forward to reading your book, whether I win, or buy it on my own, it sounds like JUST what I need to start the New Year out with! Thanks for your honestly! Makes a reader feel an instant connection!

  168. This book sounds like exactly what I need… exactly the place I am in right now. Can’t wait to read it!


  169. That sounds like such a perfect book! It sounds like my life! I am looking forward to reading it!

  170. I would be so blessed to be able to win this book – such an amazing journey you’ve been on and I can’t wait to read it – whether I win or not 🙂 Thank you for sharing your life with us – you are a blessing – to many!!

  171. I recently read a blog post from a young woman on the World Race, it was forwarded to me by a friend-another racers mom- who knows me like I don’t really even know myself sometimes. It into a million fluttery pieces and I still haven’t been able to put them all back together. I’d love to hand her a copy of your book, from what you’ve said I’m sure it would speak healing into her life as well. If I win, that’s where your book would go. Thanks so much for writing, in blessings and grace.

  172. I can’t say much, other than what you explained you were feeling seemed to be taken right out of my head. I completely understand the pain of hidden struggles and our own stubbornness, and how discouraging it can be. I loved what you said about resting in the mysteries you had once seen as a barrier to true faith. That is exactly what I long for when things get muddled and my brain gets tired. I’d love to read this. Thanks for having the giveaway!

  173. I am so frustrated with God right now! It’s like, the only reason I call out to Him is because what other option do I have? I was crying my heart out to Him last night, silently screaming actually. Yesterday was a rough day because it was my deceased husband’s birthday and one of my daughters cried throughout most of it because she misses him so much! My daughters are 14 and their daddy died 3 years ago. Yesterday as we were grocery shopping, my daughter wanted to just follow any guy that resembled her daddy and wanted to hug them just so she could maybe hurt less in doing so. It is so hard to see her go through this and it’s not getting better for her. I don’t know how to help her anymore and I cry out to Jesus to be her daddy and comfort her and it just. doesn’t. happen! And this just makes me ANGRY! What else do my kids have to go through? Why can’t He just comfort them? Argghh!!! We are chasing God and He is not slowing down or stopping so that we can catch Him! Sorry for the negativity spewing from my mouth.

  174. I am really looking forward to reading this book! I’ve loved your other ones and have been waiting for this one to come out so I could read it too. 🙂

  175. I’m so looking forward to reading this book! Thanks Angie for being vulnerable and real with the rest of us ladies that are struggling in our very real lives!

  176. Intrigued to read this… And there really is so much beauty when we just open ourselves up… I’ve experienced some freedom for myself in this. Thanks

  177. Oh, I have experienced almost all of what you describe (except the book writing and being published). Thank you for sharing. Means so much to know others “burrow.”

  178. wow — I look forward to reading your. I think we all have those hard places that we just need to face — so, here’s to your new book and facing our fears of chasing God!!

  179. I’ve been a believer since 2003 and I’ve had many struggles along with the many more joys of being a Child of the King! Your book seems like one that I would definitely benefit from reading. Thank you for offering it to five of your blessed readers!

  180. Angie,

    Thank you for writing this post and this book. I haven’t even read it yet but what you just wrote about in this post is exactly where I am in life right now. After an unexpected death of my mom two years ago this friday my faith was ransacked. I have been struggling to find my way back to God and believing that he is really there. Even if I don’t win a copy I will be buying one for sure since I think this may be just the thing to help me back to where I hope to be in my faith and my life.


  181. Thank you so much for your transparency. One of the greatest comforts is to hear “me too” when we are struggling! I would love to read your book!

  182. Oh, yes, I feel like “running away” > Challenges abound. Because of age, the snow, ailments,,, will I need to wait until spring to be able to get out to church, library, and grocery shopping?

  183. Thank you for the opportunity Angie. The person that is meant to receive this book will certainly win it, and I do hope that someone is me. I am struggling with feeling a relationship with Him, how to pray and feel like He’s there….confused, lonely….difficult to understand relationship when I can’t “hear” Him…..I’m babbling…..thank you again.

  184. Wowzers! Look at all these comments you’ve received! i would say your words have hit a nerve in many! I know they did for me! i am not as articulate as you or many of the ladies above but may I just say i love your thoughts on the following/chasing idea. Much to mull over! thanks for the new way of thinking! Looking very forward to this new read! Jan H

  185. What an amazing friend you have. Your book sounds like struggles I deal with in my life. Maybe we all do in one way or another. I will definitely plan to read your book, one way or another.

  186. I find God stretching me in many ways already this year. Since I thought I was the “Queen” of hiding behind “everything is fine”, I’d love to hear what God has to say to me through your journey.

  187. I’d love to win a copy of your book. I’m excited to read your thoughts. I love reading your blog, and am so blessed by your love for The Lord and your openness to share your struggles and victories. Seeing how many comments you’ve received, I doubt I’ll win, but I’d sure love to! 🙂 lots of love and may God bless you abundantly!

  188. To Phyllis….I am praying hard for you right now. My husband was given a deadly diagnosis at the end of 2011. We hang on every day to God’s promises of strength and relief. Keep calling out to Him. He does hear you. Gifts come in some unexpected packages. Look for them and keep on keeping on. One day at a time, one step at a time, one breath at a time. A year ago a friend lost her husband to cancer. She said cards in the mail were her saving grace, especially when they were funny. Since I can’t send you one, this post and prayer will have to do. God is blessing your family…..keep looking for those gifts and I will keep praying for you and your family. SJG for Peace in Hard Times.

  189. Oh, by the way, I only wrote the comment starting “I’d love to win a copy of your book. I’m excited to read….”, not the other “Emily” comment. How funny two emilies were commenting at the same time! Anyways…

  190. Phyllis, I just want to let you know I’m praying for your daughters and you today. Lifting you up dear sister!!!

  191. I look forward to reading this book. You aren’t alone in those feelings and questions. Thank you for being brave enough to put yourself out there.

  192. Thank you for your courage to speak what’s on your heart. Not only am I chasing Him, but I feel like I’m chasing down joy.

  193. Thank you for making yourself vulnerable Angie. I’ve asked myself the same question about God sometimes but would never dare utter it from my lips. How can I proclaim to be a Christian and then have doubt? Would love to read your book. Blessings.

  194. Angie, thank you *SO* much for following His prompting and sharing this part of your journey. As soon as you announced it on your blog I went “Oh dear… I think I need this” and the more I learn about it, the more I want to read it and very possibly beg my husband to read it. It’s amazing how much you’ve captured in just two words “Chasing God”, just contemplating those words almost brings me to tears.
    All that to say, heartfelt thank you.

  195. This sounds like a great book. I read your first book and loved it. Thank you for sharing your heart again.

  196. Stop chasing God…this year waiting on God…focus…consider but i must listen …my lesson this year…sounds like my path of stopping and grace giving…thank you for sharing your journey…

  197. I admire and honor your honesty! There’s a burrow available next to mine if you’d like a change of scenery. Can’t wait to read this book, I have greatly enjoyed your others!!

  198. I am so very blessed by your vulnerability. Thank you for letting yourself be used of God and having the courage to write the intimate words that make your book…even if it means vomit. 🙂 You are brave…and I’m so thankful!

  199. Thank you for your transparency, Angie. I cannot tell you how many times I’ve put to the side the idea of writing a book because I can’t imagine wrapping it all up and putting it on shelves. Promoting it?! Ugh…
    When God calls us out of our comfort zone, we simply rest in His love and grace. Looking forward to reading your journey. Praying strength over your life as God’s message is spread with this book.

  200. If everyone were as real and forthright as you, a lot of Christians would quit chasing religion.

  201. Real isn’t how you are made. It’s a thing that happens to you. Sometimes it hurts, but when you are real you don’t mind being hurt. It doesn’t happen all at once. You become. It takes a long time…Generally, by the time you are real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out, and you get all loose in the joints and very shabby.

    But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are real, you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand. Once you are real, you can’t become unreal again. It lasts for always. –The Velveteen Rabbit

    Angie, this is what has happened to you in the last 7-8 years. It has just culminated in this book. Your anxiety is a lie from the enemy that you are not real and that you have poured out as an offering will not be accepted. You are not ugly, and you will never be unreal again. What a gift from our loving Lord! I rejoice with you–as I know you are doing even through your vomit–in the work He has accomplished in you. I can’t wait to read about it, because I think your journey will stir many hearts to a different kind of faith walk. Thank you for being willing to pursue the process for yourself and for us.

  202. Sounds like a wonderful book! You’ve definitely piqued my interest. I’m sure I will relate to you!

  203. Your honest and transparency is going to be a gift to many who are afraid to say out loud the very questions that so many of us sometimes struggle with… even us pastor’s wives!

    May God use this book to bring Himself glory as your words guide your readers to more closely walk with their heavenly Father!

  204. Angie, if this is a fleshing out of one of your teachings at the WOF conference in Milwaukee, WI, more than half of the women were identifying with you when you asked us to raise our hands asking if we doubted. You happen to be the brave one who is articulating what we are thinking and experiencing. I would like to read your book because this is an important book. It almost reminds me of what some of the fathers and mothers of faith talked about when they talked about the dark night.




  205. Love your honesty – especially when you talk about even doubting God’s existence… been there too! And yes, most of my life also feels like chasing after God, not following…

  206. Boy can I identify. Thanks so much for sharing this painful journey. I have had a similar experience in my life. I went through a bad time in my life many years ago and I was in counseling and in and out of the hospital with depression. And when the counselors asked me “where is your safe place?” I laughed and cried at the same time. I told them there was no safe place for me. My life was a mess and I had given up hope. But slowly and surely God put the brokenness in my life back together like pieces of a puzzle. And one piece at a time God put Humpty Dumpty together again and made my life while. He rescued me. I am looking forward to reading your book. I love reading stories about How God showed Himself mighty in someone’s life.

  207. I have felt that way like I’m chasing him too! Feeling like I will never reach that level of intimacy and closeness I soooo desire! It seems like the more I seek Him to some degree the more I feel like I’m chasing Him! Thank you for giving that insight maybe this will be a beginning for me:-) I sure hope so I Love Jesus sooooo very much!

  208. Hi Angie, your honesty is refreshing. I am at a place where I feel a disconnect from God (my own doing, of course) and after I read your post, I’ve found myself not feeling so alone. There are other women out there with doubts and replacing relationship with religion too. Go figure lol. I’m looking forward to reading your book and again thanks for your honesty.

  209. Wow, this sounds like a book I need to read … Actually I read everything that is Christian and promises me greater freedom, because who can ever have enough of it?! But I love the sound of your book because of the fact that it sounds real and a struggle and I’m only just starting to appreciate the raw, struggling places for the grace that they are.

  210. Perfect book for me this year as my verse is He must increase and I must decrease, oh to be chasing God!

  211. Just like in a marriage… if someone says they never doubt or question or feel lost or alone… most likely they have a very shallow relationship or they are lying.

    To keep it real… like life… there are times when you get kicked in the face and are left reeling and wondering.

    I can’t wait to read this book.

    Bonnie Jean

  212. Well, wow. Just. WOW. I cannot tell you how long I have felt exactly they way you expressed: Is He there, ya know; real? And then that frying pan moment where I know He is but then feel guilt for even thinking that crazy question. Chasing God sounds like a must read for me in 2014! Thank you for expressing yourself and sharing so deeply with those of us who don’t even know where to start.
    With Grace and Appreciation,
    Bluebonnet B

  213. I purchased my book on Saturday – plan on starting reading it this week!
    I hope you will be using this as a bloom book club study!

  214. I love your honestly and I look forward to reading your book. You are so blessed you have Jess! I love friends like that.

  215. I’m encouraged and eager to read your book, as I’m in the midst of a very trying time in my life right now.

  216. I can definitely relate to the “burrow” concept. I have a very blessed life but also very trying. I live in small town America where everybody knows everybody. I am actually seen by others as a pillar where my faith is concerned. I do have a strong faith but it doesn’t mean that I don’t struggle with spiritual issues every day. Sometimes I am overwhelmed with feeling like I have to “perform”. I desperately need to have someone that I can confide in. I am very lonely for a trusted friend!

  217. You are so brave. So strong. Such an inspiration. You are doing good for the masses and we appreciate it. Thank you.

  218. Angie,

    I can SO relate. I believe in God and have faith in God, but it’s like I am constantly trying to find Him and see what His plans are for me. I just want to understand what it is He wants from me and wants me to do or not do. I look forward to reading your book.

    Thank you for “going there” for the rest of us! God bless you!


  219. I love to give my problems, fears and pain up to the Lord to care for and resolve for me…Faith. But, I am weak and want it all changed in my time, not his and take my offerings back from him too often.

    I need to pray for strength to give it all up to him and leave at his feet, never to harbor in my heart again.

    Thank you, for offering this book to all of us. Happy New Year and God Bless You.

  220. *hugs* Thank you for sharing your heart with us, Angie. Know that you are prayed for. 🙂 Looking forward to reading your book.

  221. Your honesty and vulnerability are challenging my hidden places, this book is a must-read forme!!!

  222. As Madeleine L’Engle said, “We are often closer to God in our doubts than in our certainties.” Thank you for voicing what all of us experience.

  223. I always get excited when you write a new book because you’re so real. I know you feel vulnerable, but please know that your honesty and transparency are a gift to me. I can’t wait to get my hands on this one.

  224. It’s a hard place to be, and reading how you have handled it is helpful for those of us who are in the same place! I look forward to reading your book!

  225. I love this line: “I learned to stop filling the gaps of my faith with religion.”

    We do this. And I love that you admitted it and called it out so we can all do the same. I so look forward to reading your book!!! Thank you, Angie!!!

  226. Thank you Angie. I have followed your story for years now and would love to read this book. Many Blessings to you and yours.

  227. angie, your vulnerability and transparency are continuously encouraging to me…I can’t wait to read this book and hopefully share with friends and family who desperately need to read your words bc they are so spirit and truth filled. I have raved about Mended and What Women Fear and can’t wait to rave about this one as well. blessings to you!

  228. Seeking – I think that’s what God wants from me, us, and I’m sure He doesn’t intend it to be mellow. He wants it to be life changing. I want to be that kind of seeker who chases after Him – who will follow some unfamiliar star just like the wise men. However, life so often gets in the way so to seek Him even with the kids clamoring for attention and my heart telling me I really do need to give it to them as well is hard. Your book sounds like it will provide much needed encouragement and real-life lessons. Thanks for the chance!

  229. Thank you for your honesty! I am looking forward to reading this…I have often covered my lack with religiousity! (Is that a word?)

  230. I am so excited about this book! I can’t wait to get my hands onto it & my heart into it! Just being real!

  231. Although I haven’t written your book, I could’ve written much of what you posted above. God is so gracious to send me messages from the least expected places! Thank you for being His vessel today.

  232. I hear your heart and feel the freedom of the message even before I read the book….I have been a quiet follower of your words/Twitter etc for a while, but I wanted to add my bit of encouragement to the voices here! Vulnerability and openness and transparency can be costly, but that is because they are priceless jewels! I am asking for safety and grace and joy for you and I am excited to read your words in this new book!

  233. Just read the description on I am intrigued and excited to read it. Thanks for putting yourself out there for our benefit and the glory of God!

  234. Thanks so much for being so honest and real! I can’t wait to read your book! God Bless your continued journey as Gods precious child, a faithful mom, wife, and beautiful writer! You have touched so many with your journey, thanks for keeping so ReAl! 🙂

  235. We each have our own journey’s with the Lord to embark upon. They are all so different but yet so similar. Looking forward to reading yours.

  236. Sometimes it takes some peaceful introspection and observations to see God’s been with us all along. I look forward to reading your book!

  237. Like many others, I am GLAD that you don’t pretend to have all the answers. We’ve all had enough of pablum and enough of people pretending to know everything. What we often need more of is people who are willing to wrestle out loud as it were. Thanks.

  238. Thanks for the chance to win a copy!
    I really enjoy your writing! You have been given a gift.

  239. Um, burrowing…I get it. That was me last year. Broken. Been there, too. On the other side of it, I am completely humbled by His grace…that was the only reason I can say I am on the other side. We all have a story and a journey. I look forward to reading more of yours.

  240. So, I guess I’m not alone. Following or chasing Jesus…..looking forward to what you have to share.

  241. Although I have adored all of your books and your blog posts, I am most excited about this one because it speaks to my heart! 🙂 Thank you SO much for being transparent and raw! My heart thanks you!! I already purchased the Kindle edition, but would love the chance to win a couple for my mentor!

  242. Would love to read your book . When people act like they have it all together, I can’t believe they are being totally honest with themselves or others. Appreciate you being real. Thank you!

  243. I would love to read your book. Love your honesty and willingness to be so forthright. I aspire to do that someday as well.

  244. WOW Thank you you for sharing your heart with us. And I am looking forward to reading this book. God Bless

  245. I totally relate to “burrowing” it’s something I do well and far to often. It’s great to have a friend who can pull you out!

    Can’t wait to read your book!

  246. If it’s at all written in the same “tone” as the note you wrote about it, I can’t wait to read it!!
    Thank you,

  247. I feel like I just read my heart in this post. Thanks for writing it. I want to read your book so much!

  248. I love your title! I teach writing and love all the directions this title could go. Can’t wait to read the book!

  249. The extreme boldness of honesty almost caused an envy in me. You said out loud some of the feeling I have boxed away and only under certain circumstance, in the safest of places do I share these feelings.. as if God didn’t already know… I look forward to reading about your journey… Thank you for allowing yourself to be real, exposed and honest.

  250. Angie, I would love to read your book. You basically just spelled out for me how I have been feeling in a mixed up emotional mess….I am chasing God. I want so much to please Him, to be like Jesus, love like Jesus, show His compassion to others,and myself. To be IN His word so that I may apply it to my life….
    Thanks so much.

  251. I have to admit, the title makes me even more anxious to read it than I would have been just knowing you wrote it!

  252. I know God is working behind the scenes in the spiritual realm. Like Paul, it seems like chaos and too much hardship, but I know He will bring me through all of it. Now, to go and rest in Him.

  253. This sounds sooo good! I would love to open it, and let the truth God has shown you touch my heart too… We all need the raw and honest more than we care to admit.

  254. He has me on a journey of insight I don’t like at all but I know that I will be the better. Tears have not come yet just a person here in body but my mind feels like I don’t belong in anything I knew even though life has not changed. He is changing me. I thank you for your honesty.

  255. I, too, often feel that I am chasing God. Life circumstances have had me floundering. I retired. My husband found out his secretary was embezzling and not paying the IRS properly; therefore, we had to close our business and lost most of what we had built up . My older daughter, who lives with us, has serious health issues. My husband has developed a heart condition. My granddaughter is being bullied at school. So I often find myself asking God, “Where are You?” But I know that much of what you’ve endured was so extremely hard, that it helps give me courage to keep seeking God. I keep reminding myself that Job lost it all and was also asking God, “Where are You?”

    Thank you for your sharing and writing.

  256. The book sounds great. I can see God using your life experiences to be an encouragement to all.

  257. I could really use a bit of perspective right now and the knowing that we are not alone in this path toward God.

  258. I would love to hear what you have to say. Thank you for being honest and writing this post and book about your journey.


  259. Angie,

    In(Courage) is my safe place also. I vent here and let people read how I feel. It is safe, people here are loving and honest. Loved the paragraph : “But I came to a point in my walk with the Lord where I realized that it didn’t look at all like I was a girl following Him. It looked like I was a girl chasing Him.” I have been there also. It seems so many other people “have it all together” and you are just muddling through your Christianity.

    Congratulations on your book being published. Would love to read it. God has truly gifted you as a writer. Thank you so much for you open, honesty and transparency.

    God Bless! 🙂

  260. Angie,
    Thanks for being so honest! I loved What Women Fear, even though I was convinced I wouldn’t be able to relate to it, and after reading your description of this new book, I’m convinced I’m going to love it, too. My husband is a pastor, and sometimes I feel like I’m sort of pretending to have it all together while I wait to find that magic bullet for being the always godly, patient, prayerful, sweet pastor’s wife I think I should be.
    Thank you so much for being willing to write this book. I can’t wait to read it.

  261. Wow!! Reading your journey with this book and your faith resonates so strongly with me right now!!! I feel like everyone else has it so together with their walk and faith, consistent in their devotions and prayers when I am feeling so far away. Crazy thing is that over the last year and a half my faith in God and my trust in Him has grown stronger than ever after losing my husband in August of 2012. But now I want to get everything else lined up right…I want to be a girl who is in His presence and His will rather than feeling like I am never finding it. Thank you for this opportunity to get your book!! I can’t wait to read it 🙂

  262. I had to scroll down a loooong time just to comment! Lots of women want to read your book, and I’m one of them! Thank you for your bravery and transparency.

  263. Thanks for sharing and being so real. Makes me want to read your book even more.

  264. Phyllis, if you are checking back, this is Susan (SJG) again. If you like, head on over to ” For This is the” a blog site by Esther Aspling and read the post “A light in Our Loss” her post for today (Jan. 6). Hope your day is going well. God bless.

  265. Thank you for your diligence to bring the raw truth. We all live messy, beautiful lives. Thankful for encouragement.

  266. Oh Angie, you are a precious and brave woman and you bless so many around you when you allow yourself to be vulnerable. I have been following your blog and books for several years. I am thankful for your willingness to be God’s vessel. You shine! I can’t wait to read your book!

  267. It’s difficult, sometimes we get so wrapped up in ministry we forget WHO we are ministering for. It’s good to be able to take a step back and gain perspective. Can’t wait to read the book

  268. “More than anything else, I learned to stop filling the gaps of my faith with religion.”

    Yes. This.
    This is exactly what I need. Very much looking forward to this book!

  269. Oh, how often I have been that little girl chasing God… while calling out his name, waving my arms, sobbing big ugly snuffles, and often tripping over my own rubber boots as I splash through the puddles after Him.

    In short, can’t wait to read the book. Heart Hugs, Shelly <3

  270. So glad you have Jess. I have a friend like that, and can’t imagine my life without her. Looking forward to reading your book.

  271. I just heard about this book from another source this morning and added it to my Amazon wish list. Thank you for the chance to win

  272. God led me to this book just 2 days a go….who knew?? Clearly it’s a sign! Super excited to get started AFTER I finish the Highly Sensitive Person by Elaine Aron

  273. Well, it sounds like you’ve written my story because for the past year that’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. I’m responsible for my church’s nursing home ministry and the sermon that came to me for yesterday’s service was very much in line with your book. Sounds like something I need to read. Thanks!

  274. Thank you for the giveaway. I’d love to be put in the hat for your book. I look forward to reading it.

  275. Ah, yes. I’m sure we can all relate to seasons where we took on more than we could handle, perhaps out of necessity, perhaps out of self-sufficiency and pride. But, thankfully, the Lord is there to pick us up and put us back together in those tough times. I look forward to reading your book, either through this giveaway or another means. Thank you for reaching out and being willing to TRULY share what’s on your heart.


  276. Wow, Angie! I cannot wait to read your book. It sounds like something so many of us can relate to whether we admit it or not. Thank you for your vulnerability.

  277. We all have a journey to travel. Thank you for sharing yours & may it be a safe place for someone on the same path as yourself. God Bless! Thank you for being transparent for others!

  278. Ahh Angie how very hard we women are on ourselves and so much pressure we put on ourselves and expect to live up to some idealistic idea of what a good little Christian girl we think looks like. The good news is we are “accepted in the beloved.” Out of pain comes beauty and I am confident that your book reflects that. Thanks for your raw vulnerability! We see so much illusory photo shopped images in our world that your transparency is real and refreshing. You deserve a well-deserved rest now.

  279. As a woman who is horrified to share most of the time to share with anyone what I’m “really” thinking and struggling with, I’m thankful that you admit to us what you struggle and are thinking about (does God really exist?)–though that is super hard! And I feel like I just found a burrowing kindred spirit! Thanks so much for sharing Angie!

  280. Angie, this sounds like a wonderful book, one that needed to be shared and I look forward to reading it. I read your biography and was very moved. Thank you for sharing your story. Blessings, Karen

  281. I love who you are. I love that you are raw and real. Don’t ever apologize for your honesty, you are braver than you think and all of us broken vessels desperately need to hear from you.

  282. LOL… only 5 copies?
    As one who loves writing and knows the heart and soul and sweat and tears and, yes, vomit, with which meaningful strings of words are honed out and thoughtfully placed together, I would love to read your book and share the journey!
    Praise God for your work, your passion, your journey!

  283. Well it ain’t all “footprints in the sand” poems and kumbaya is it?nope, it is much more messy and beautiful than that.

  284. I started reading your book this weekend. Thank you for voicing so many of my thoughts and questions about God. It’s nice to hear I’m not the only one who has doubts and fears. The first few chapters have lead me to reread parts of the Bible I’ve read many times before, but now I see and hear His words differently, so I thank you for that. I would love to win a copy to gift to my dear friend and sister, who I think would be just as touched as I’ve been by your words.

  285. Angie,

    I had received an e-mail from someone that has started reading your book and i halfway through. She could not put it down. I am so looking forward to reading the book. It is so true that we do chase God without even realizing we are doing so. Thank you for sharing with us.

    Blessings, Laura

  286. “Looking at instead of looking FOR Him?” Perfectly said. I can’t imagine the treasures I might find within your pages. How easy it is to be ABOUT God, yet not WITH Him. To gather knowledge, without relationship. I look forward to joining the journey.
    Terri A.

  287. Chasing God sure does give one lots to think about. Sounds like a good read & would really like to win it:)

  288. I am excited to read your book. What a blessing to know other people go through this messy stuff too!

  289. There has been so much on my plate lately and frankly the thought of having a book added to the list seemed like something to make the plate break into shattered pieces. However your book intrigues me and seems to call me. Maybe just maybe it spur me on and will help me from running after and instead follow Him.

  290. Your new book sounds incredible and I would love to win a copy. As a pastor’s wife, I am always sharing books with women for personal growth and/or Christian Living. Thank you for your candid remarks. I look forward to reading your book soon.

    Blessings on you.

  291. Angie, I have just added your book to my ‘to-read’ list. Your honesty here is speaking to me… reminding me that sometimes our journey takes us through some really uncomfortable places so we can learn what we need to learn…

    Thank you for being brave.

  292. Thanks for sharing your heart, being vulnerable, and keeping it real. I pray some day I’ll have the courage to follow God and write about my journey.
    I pray this book encourages all of us to CHASE GOD more!

  293. Congratulations Angie! Good for you for having the courage to be real about your walk with God. That is what speaks to people the most I believe.

    I want to thank you for the above sentence “I started looking at Him more than I was looking for Him” because that really hit home for me today! I need a bit of re-focus and that hit it dead on.

    That Devil is tricky and will use anything and everything to trip us up, very often religion and all of the “being good enough” traps. Thanks for pointing that out again.


  294. This book sounds like something I must read. I have the same thoughts and comparison with others and believe that this will help with my walk and open my eyes to what I may not be seeing right now. I enjoy reading your books and want to thank you for being a faithful servant:)

  295. oh, how I long to Chase God again…not just follow blindly, but actively seeking Him…look forward to reading this…thank you…

  296. Thank you for sharing your heart, openly & honestly. We all need to be at least that with our Lord & Savior if we want to be whole in Him. He is faithful! ♡

  297. Dear Angie….I am confident that your book will touch many hearts and encourage readers in their lives in Christ. God knows the impact He wanted on people’s lives before you even began writing. And God wastes nothing 🙂 I started teaching nursing in the late 60’s and discovered what I needed to learn. As I embraced my career I realized a bonus of teaching…speaking….writing were the changes it was making in my life. So when we embrace God and our lives in Christ you can imagine how much more awesome and important the changes are. Your book and the book I am starting to work on [and I get very nervous about this] go beyond my teaching career. Your book will have an eternal impact….and that is what God wants in our lives…and if it is His will that we write under His guidance then He will see that there is success. Trust that God has everything under control. I know He does. He looks after all the details of our lives and He sustains us ! With the growth He took you through while you wrote the book how can it not make a difference in readers lives. And if you come across a person who doesn’t like something in your book that doesn’t make you any less a beautiful child of God… God Bless You….I pray I can get through the process that you have come through so beautifully Angie….you are an inspiration……edna 🙂

  298. Sounds like a brutally honest book–much needed in this broken world–where we all tend to wear our Christian masks. Would love to read it. Adding it to my Amazon wish list, so I don’t forget about it!

  299. Thank you for being transparent and sharing your journey with us…I’m sure God has plans to use it for His glory!

  300. I can’t wait to read this book! God bless you Angie for your courage….you r an over comer!!

  301. Following or chasing.. what a great idea to think about. Thank you for sharing your struggles here with us. I am always moved so much when I read about how everyone else struggles just as much as I do. It helps me feel that I am a little less alone.

  302. I cannot wait to read this book.What a wonderful friend you have.
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  303. Oh, Angie…..I know what you are going through. When my first book (The Bride Wore Boots, published by Barbour Publishing in 1997, an inspirational Romance) I was so excited about it….and yet, fearful, extremely fearful. Who would ever want to read what I wrote? By late 2008, my 35th book had been sales had been amazing, and I felt I was at my peak of writing, and I had won numerous awards. Then I lost my husband of 57 years and the writing lost its glamour and I quit writing, at least for a while. Then God brought a wonderful man into my life….my pastor, who had lost his spouse of 57 years and we were married 5 years ago. As a pastor’s wife, my life is full and overflowing! I am ridiculously happy! Will I ever write again? Only the Lord knows! Do I miss it? Sometimes, but only for a few minutes. Praise the Almighty God! Joyce Livingston…now Joyce Lewis. God bless you as you write and speak!

  304. That “chasing” is exhausting…particularly when you feel you’ve found nothing at the end of it. Felt like I have done that a lot…and ‘filled in the gaps with religion’; this is right in my wheelhouse. Very intrigued by what you have to say.

  305. Sounds like a book I need to read. Authors that are real, down to earth are the books I pick out to read and recommend a lot. By the looks of all the comments, others feel the same way. Thank you for having the courage, the passion, and allowing GOD to lead you to write a book like this. God Bless you.

  306. Very anxious to read your new book, Angie! You’re always so candid in your writings, and this one seems like a “must read” for me. Thanks for another honest gift 🙂

  307. Angie, your book sounds like it would a great read! I struggle too with feeling like He is an “elusive objective” and look forward to learning to simply follow rather than continue chasing. Thanks for sharing!

  308. I’ve always wanted to know what it was like to Chase God – I can’t wait to see how to do it.

  309. Sometimes you have to go through the struggle before the journey you are on takes you to the place you need to go. Thanks so much for sharing.

  310. Angie,

    Thank you for your transparency. So many of us have felt like we were train wrecks, too. I am a walking, talking train wreck some days. xoxo

  311. Thanks for your honesty and I can’t wait to jump into this book. You are awesome!

  312. This is so me. For outsiders, I look like I have it all together. But me? I feel like a baby Christian that can sing the books of the Bible in order, but doesn’t have the contents really in her heart. Thanks for putting this out there.

  313. Thank you for sharing, Angie. Your “truth-words” aren’t a promotional hurricane because many of us (if not all of us) relate to your words and stories. Except that not all of us have been blessed with the skill/talent to compose those words together that make sense (sometimes even for ourselves to read!) so it refreshing to read your experiences to know that we’re not alone in this life journey.

  314. Angie,

    I’m so excited for your new book. I have read your books and they are great. I love how the Lord comes through you and on to paper. You are an awesome speaker as I was lucky enough to attend a Women of Faith event this past September. Thank you for your heart felt honesty. I look forward to more of your writing.

  315. As soon as I saw this it was put on my wish list. I am scared, nervous, and excited to read it as I know I will find me. The real me that I tend to hide from.

  316. I can identify with the idea of Chasing God. I have felt my need to rest in Him and give up striving to “do” my Christianity. Look forward to the read!

  317. Oh Angie! I had to stop and re-read that part where you said you doubt God exists. I thought, No way! You mean I’m not some unbelieving heathen??? Other people who have been strong in their faith have felt this way too? Chasing God sums it up perfectly as that is how I have felt! I’m saying, Where are you God? You’re not going to abandon me too are you? And then I feel guilty for doubting and questioning. I’ve nearly finished reading Beth Moore’s When Godly People Do Ungodly Things these past few days and have learned MUCH! I think reading your book next will be a perfect fit! Weird as it may sound, I love you for being soo real and raw. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

  318. Hi and good day Ms Angie!

    Really admire your courage and appreciative of your open sharings, your heart for God and His people!
    Glory to our Lord Jesus! (:

    I can identify with your ‘doubts and all’ in Him as I am still experiencing it at times in my difficult struggles with survival everyday mostly on my own, with very little aid, support and all …

    I strongly believe that your new book will bring much insights to your readers and comfort cum hope to the hurting individuals …

    Am proud of you and cheering for you with blessings from our DaddyGod too! 🙂

  319. I would definitely pay it forward and bless someone with my free copy as i’m headed over to amazon right now to purchase mine!!

  320. Chasing God Sounds like a book that i would love to read. My birthday comes shortly after the new year begins and i just wrote in my journal that one of my goals for the year is to grow even closer to my savior, who yes, i often feel like i am chasing rather then walking along side.

  321. Oh yes, praise God too for blessing you a true, loving and sensitive pal! Blessings to her as well! 🙂

  322. This book sounds incredible-I would love to read it. I think so many of us can relate to questioning God’s very existence- and living like He doesn’t exist. Thank you for your vulnerability.

  323. everything I have read about your book seems as if you were reading my heart and mind. i can’t wait to read this.

  324. I’d love to read. It’s comforting to know that a sister in Christ struggles as I do sometimes.

  325. I would love to join you in the tropics… and definitely going to read your book at some point. Thank you so much and Lord bless you richly.

  326. I would love to read your book; I admire you for being brave enough and honest enough to share your struggles. I’m a pastor’s wife and I totally understand how it is not *cool* to tell people that you sometimes question God’s existence, but I struggle with that too. I’m so thankful that His existence does not depend on our feelings!

  327. Your book is so very needed in our search for a true understanding of God and our relationship with him. What a blessing your writings are.

  328. When I stop chasing Him, I find He is actually the very Air in my lungs and I breathe His Life in and let me out!

  329. Dear Angie,

    I have been eagerly awaiting the release of your book since the last book. You are an inspiration to me, and I often think of things I have read in one of your books, or heard you say at WOF events in my daily life. Reading your post here about your journey with God while writing the book, literally placed a longing in me to read it. I so appreciate your raw emotion and honesty in your writing and speaking; and have wished on many occasions that I could have you as my best friend~ somebody that I feel I can relate to on many levels, and wish that I could just sit down and talk to you for hours. Your books, and speaking have provided me with some life changing guidance on my own journey with God. I recently purchased a 2nd copy of “What Women Fear” for my 18 year old daughter, who is dealing with debilitating fear right now; and each night when she reads, she cries just as I did~ assuring me that they are good tears, and she feels like you are talking directly to her; just as I do with every book of yours. I am so excited to read “Chasing God”, and share it with my daughter as well. Angie, you are truly a blessing to my daughter and me (as well as countless others), and have been truly monumental in my faith journey. Love Always In Christ, Edna P.S. Praying for success with your book release, and peace for your very nervous tummy.

  330. Being a PK, this is a breath of fresh air to me because lately, I’ve really been struggling myself. Due to a divorce, I currently live with my dad (my pastor) and mom and sometimes I find myself doubting as well. I am way over the cliches. That’s for sure. Especially having gone through the divorce, I have seen the Lord in a new way, but still sometimes have questions in the back of my mind. This sounds like a helpful read.

  331. I find it so hard to be honest and share when depressed and so want to be an encourager rather than being needy. Sounds like your book would be helpful and facing up and really being honest.

  332. I’ve been hearing a lot about this book. Seems everywhere I turn someone’s tweeting about it. 🙂 You have great friends! I finally read more about the book on Jessica Turner’s blog and wow. I get ya girl. I’m a chaser myself. I never really thought about it, till you mentioned it, but it fits. God too often seems just out of reach. Cannot wait to read! Thank you for your honesty & vulnerability.

  333. Thank you for admitting that you are human with human frailties. I would love to win one of your books and read it. Thanks for the chance to win.

  334. Finding myself both “terrified” and “can’t wait to get my hands on” your book! I am pleased to see by the number of comments that I have alot of company! I’m sure I will read it one way or another…and praying that it helps me become a better follower, so I, too, can stop chasing!

  335. Wow, this looks like an incredible book…and journey. Thank you for being brave enough to share it!

  336. This is sounding like something I need to read. I never thought that maybe I’m chasing God. But maybe I am. Maybe that’s why my walk feels so dang hard. I’d love to win. Either way, I’ll be looking into reading this book. 🙂

  337. I love your honesty and humor and thank The Lord for putting this book in my hands on January 2! He knew I needed it and made sure to put it in the hands of the cashier at the same time as I walked up to pay from the same man who moments earlier told me I could special order it! It literally brought him to tears as he handed me the book. I’m almost done with it and can’t wait to share!

  338. There are so many times that we say that we have given things to God but when it comes right down to it we haven’t. We keep taking it back and then we find that we are chasing God after we have really messed things up good. My daughter pointed this book out to me and said, Mom this is me! I do feel like I am chasing God instead of walking in His footsteps. I can’t wait to read this book!!!

  339. I chase — and then I follow. And then before I know it I’m chasing again — and then after that following once again.. This has been the repeated pattern all my life. I believe it’s God’s way of showing His humility to me while at the same time never, ever letting me feel that there isn’t another new task that He has in mind for me. Only one day will we truly know that our chase is be over and our eternity will be thanksgiving and adoration forever. Thank you, Angie, for sharing your heart and your beautiful books with us.

  340. I applaud you for your honesty & vulnerability. I think that we can really help others & reach them when we are willing to open up and honestly discuss our struggles. I look forward to reading the book.

  341. Angie, I love your writing style. I have enjoyed reading your story in “I Will Carry You” and I also love “Audrey Bunny”…my daughter is getting it for Easter. I follow you on Facebook and so many of the “Chasing God” quotes resonate with me deeply. I would love to read the book. Thank you for the giveway. God bless your ministry.

  342. After I read Mended, I’ve been wanting to get another one of your books…and I certainly can relate with your post! I could have written it myself.
    Thanks for just being real.
    Love you Angie

  343. “I didn’t feel like I was living out Christianity the right way, and I wondered why everyone else seemed to have great prayer lives and understanding of Him when I just felt like He was an elusive objective.” 🙂

  344. Bless you Angie for opening your heart and sharing your pain. I can’t wait to read your book as I have been feeling exactly as you described in your post. Take care and please keep writing.

  345. I hope i”m not too late to leave a comment and maybe win a copy because YES, everything you said!

  346. I am waiting for my order to get here! “Chasing God” when I came across the book I believe The Lord directed me to it. Your words resonated in my heart, as if the words were taken right from my mind. I’m sure this isn’t the first time you’ve heard this. Thank you for writing this and I’m so excited to start reading it. Blessings to you and your family.

  347. Oh, how this post made me smile… because one thing is certain: Confessing the vomiting didn’t really hit the ‘YESsss, let’s buy the book’ spot for me. BUT I do fully agree with everything you wrote because I too LOVE writing, I’m probably the last person on earth who adores writing snail mail (and the ‘mountain’ of Christmas & New Year cards I got proves the point somewhat) and YES, it’s hard work, one has to look inside oneself and admitting ‘not everything is what you wish to see in yourself’. Today, I can admit that I’m far less perfect, good or/and ‘the person I’d like to be – interestingly I don’t think it made anybody love me less… but maybe I’ve become (even) more accessible?!
    I also cited often during a (too) long time of my life that I smile so much because otherwise I would have to cry. Now, I smile because I feel like it and it’s so refreshing.

    Dear friend, I wish you a GREAT TAKE-OFF of your book. Should you choose me as a recipient of a free copy, I’d love to give it to somebody else as I live in France and couldn’t get it for myself. Have a great vomiting-free and richly blessed New Year
    Hugs, Kiki

  348. We are all on our own Pilgrim’s Progress. Thank you for publishing a portion of your journey.

  349. This book sounds so raw…and often times, that’s exactly what our Christian lives are…I’m excited to pick it up.

  350. Your blog post just spoke to me in a huge way. I’ve had the same kind of year. Utterly broken. God is putting me back together and I’m healing. I want to read the book!

  351. To do life with a friend like Jess is a gift and it’s rare. You are blessed to have her. A friend makes all the difference in living the inside-out; friends are grace that make now and then safe to be us. Thankful for your life, to be small, a regular girl. Good stuff! Go God!

  352. My greatest desire is to really know God not just know about him and stop chasing the One that is always by my side. I look forward to reading your new book. You are a gifted writer and you will never know the impact I Will Carry You had on my life, 36 years after losing my son, stillborn at 26 weeks, I can say I finally grieved and have now started a local group in Alabama for mothers who suffered the loss of a baby. We are MOMS (mothers of miscarriage,stillbirth and infant loss). Thank you Angie Smith for your honesty, you have touched the lives of many.

  353. Oh my! You have just described me to a “T” (except for the writing part- I am a church accountant, can’t even proof read the bulletin!) But, I love to read, definately want your book. I am so in awe of those who can put themselves out there, oh to have that kind of courage. Blessings to you & I wish you the best with your book. Can’t wait ti read my copy.

  354. I’m right there with you Angie. We have to know God, really know who He is before we can possibly know who we are in Him. Sounds like a good book for me.

  355. I appreciate when you write, “You know how sometimes you go through something rough and you just keep telling everyone you’re fine while secretly avoiding the 2-3 people whose voices would make you break into inconsolable sobbing?” That is so accurate! It reminds me of what Bonnie Gray wrote yesterday, “The beauty of the faith journey isn’t measured by far you’ve walked on the journey of life; it lies in who you’ve been walking with.” Love it!

  356. I think there were many times this year that I was running from Him. Too ashamed of what my life had become to turn and face Him. I’ve turned around now … on my knees … knowing that the truth of it all is that I wouldn’t be here today if it wasn’t for Him.

  357. Dear Angie,
    So glad you have taken the time to write a book that more people than you know will want to read. It is always so wonderful to have someone say the exact words that you have been hiding in your own heart. I pray that God blesses the book and the ones that read it AND the one that wrote it.

  358. You have beautifully put into words what we have all felt at times. Everyone’s safe place is different and I am enjoying incourage and the thoughts that are put here daily. Thank you for writing this book, I can’t wait to read it.

  359. As a newly married woman facing some unexpected challenges, my relationship with God has been lacking lately, and I’d like to become more disciplined with that, not out of obligation, but because I need Him so desperately. I’d love to have this book!

  360. There is nothing as freeing as letting go & just being real with ourselves and being real with God! In doing so we free ourselves to just be so honest with God & know that He loves us anyway and He is still there!!!

  361. You are not alone…I consider myself a train wreck also, I love to read about real people, figuring out their place, the place God wants us to find. I can’t wait to read your book!!

  362. Thank you, Angie, for being honest and open, and for letting God use you! To God be the glory : )
    I would love to continue journeying with you by reading this book! Love and prayers!!

  363. It’s so freeing to hear that one big struggle you have isn’t just your own – others struggle too. I’d love to win a copy of the book!

  364. Thank you for your vulnerability and the call to honesty as we seek to walk with the Lord! Looking forward to the read!

  365. “I rested in the mysteries that I had once seen as barriers to true faith.” As I move through the years of my life, I’m realizing this, too. And that there is beauty in the mysteries. It’s a paradox, this resting in the mystery. Thanks for being honest about your faith, Angie. It’s encouraging. Looking forward to reading Chasing God.


  367. Thanks for being honest and real. Sometimes when I read books I wonder if the author has ever really felt the things they write about. I’m glad and comforted that I’m not alone. I loved your book and I can’t wait to have this one too!!

  368. Your life story has been and will continue to be an encouragement. Thanks for sharing your insight and perspective. I’m eager to read the new book!

  369. I can’t wait to read this book. I can so relate to your story. I think as woman we want to do things right the first time and unfortunately the road to our spirituality and relationship with God is unique. Just like each one of us so is our relationship with The Lord. I have looked at other woman thinking to myself how do they do it all and seem so peaceful because when I try to do it all for my job, family and church I look anything but peaceful. I actually hate to admit I am a raging lunatic ;). Everyday I am trying to make God the center of my life and I already can tell from your post that you are human a woman but unlike most if us you are BRAVE to admit what all if us are feelings and to let your journey be shared so we can learn from it. I wish you much success with your book. I will be sharing with my woman’s cornerstone group and other Moms I know who feel this challenge!! Take care and many many blessings to your family and your readers.

  370. Much of what you said rings true in my own life also. May God bless you for sharing with others through this book. I’m sure God will use the message He has given you.

  371. Hi Angie!
    It sounds like you described me when you described yourself. I thank God that he chose us, as broken and imperfect as we are, because we would almost certainly not have chosen Him. I love that we can give Him the broken pieces of our lives and he can make it into a beautiful quilt and return it to us. I also have to remind myself it’s about the journey, not the destination. If I were perfect, i would have no need of a savior. looking forward to reading your book.

    In His Love,


  372. I am little scared to read this book, but I have a feeling that it may be exactly what I need. I too look at others and wonder why my “Christian walk” is not like theirs. Thank you for bearing your soul in such an open forum – God will get the glory!

  373. I think we all have those moments when we wonder. I think it is because sometimes there are voices that are louder then God’s that drowned Him out. Those are the moments when we have to stop what we are doing and sit really quiet; just wait for the His whisper to get louder to drowned out the other voices. He is there, He is always there even when we can’t hear Him, He is always there.

    I am new to following, not even sure how I found this blessed blog. But thank you to the creators!! This is right where I need to be!!

    Can’t wait to read the new book!!

  374. Bless your heart for being transparent…and inspiring! A real, authentic faith in God is the baton that I want to pass on to the runner behind me!

  375. Just this am I berated myself for the doubt and distrust I feel at times as to whether God even exists or cares..I quote all the appropriate scripture and then fail to apply it to me…I tell it to everyone else that HE can and will provide for them…but for me….??? …

  376. I can NOT wait to dig into this one! If I can’t wait to see if I win before I just buy it and crack it open, then I would give my won copy to a friend that I also know would love to read along with me! 🙂 Blessings to you, Angie, as you see the fruits of your intensive labor be celebrated, and impact lives in the days ahead!!

  377. From on train wreck to another, AMEN! I can’t wait to read you new book. It has been my experience that when God give me “words” to share, that they are not only for others, but mostly for me.

  378. Amen – I have been waiting for this to come out… I know I’ll be recommending it to a few friends!

  379. Oh, Angie. Sometimes I feel like I know you when I read what you’ve written. And sometimes, I feel like I am you, and you’ve written what was in my heart. Can’t wait to read this book! Thank you for writing it!

  380. I would love to read your new book! You can put into words what I feel, but cannot so eloquently express!

  381. This blog brought tears to my eyes. I’m burrowing too, right now. Falling down the same rabbit hole of fat, broke, lonely, feeling like I’m never making any progress. (Isn’t that the definition of insanity?) The ONLY thing that has kept me going some days is simply chasing God…

  382. Vomit, really?!!?! I haven’t ever published a book, so I can’t imagine! But it is kind of you to live thru all that for others…

  383. I’m excited to read your new book! I don’t seem to be alone in that either. And you don’t seem to be alone about finding God elusive at times..I think that is very familiar to me as well.

  384. Yes, Jesus just wants us to spend time knowing Him! Thank you for your encouragement!

  385. Thank you for being vulnerable. Thank you for sharing some of the cracks so the rest of us can know that we’re not supposed to be able to hold it all together all the time. Thank you for showing someone like me – who has a hard time allowing anyone to see the struggles – to let other people be my friend and see the good, bad and ugly and trust they will still love me. Can’t wait to read your new book!!

  386. Thank you for letting yourself go and being honest that we aren’t always the way we seem. I have a personality of someone who looks like I have it all together also and sometimes I struggle wondering why no one offers to help me with anything. I realize I need to put myself out there and let people know that I do not always have it all together and without God I would never have anything together. I don’t have much money to spend but if there comes a time where I can I would love to read your book and hope to get out of it what you and God have put in it. congrats on your book.

  387. I just moved this book to the top of my must read list!!!! Over the last couple of years my dearest friend and I have been through a season. She lost her son and husband, I my mother. I had a career ending injury. For the last couple of years on New Years Eve we have parted with the words “this year is going to be better”. This year as we were say this phrase I said to her it might not, but it’s going to be different. No matter what life throws at me I am determined to learn to stand not just in faith but in victory. I know to do this I must get really real with God about any doubts I have and this is scary, but oh so thrilling at the same time. Can’t wait to read the book, , I know it will be amazing, because nothing born honesty can be anything less.

  388. I hear ya! We women have softer hearts and stronger shells. It is easier to burrow than to be open! I tend to do the same! Praise God you were faithful to be open and honest with the world. It is difficult, but richly rewarding for faithfulness! Thank you for sharing your testimony and truths!
    May you be abundantly blessed!

  389. It was refreshing to hear you share. I have many expectations on myself, I sometimes get spread too thin and don’t fully realize it until I am shaking my fist at God. Looking forward to reading your book and your most importantly your journey.

  390. Thanks for being so open about your struggles, it takes a very courageous person to open her heart like that!! Your struggle sounds somewhat like mine, and I would love an opportunity to win a copy of what sounds like an amazing book!!

  391. Always so blessed to read your words, and have this precious book on my list of books I really, really want to read this year. Blessings.

  392. WOW! If your book is anything like this post I just know it’s going to be used by God to do mighty things in people’s lives 🙂 I’m adding it to my Shelfari list to read. Thanks for the opportunity to win a copy!

  393. Angie, I love the way you write, and I appreciate the prayer and “self” that goes into your writing. It seems like you are writing just to me when I read your words – always. I too have been avoiding phone calls and texts for fear when I open the door a crack, the dam will break and I’ll wash away. I especially identify with the idea of wanting to look at God, not for him. But I don’t know how. I am hoping your book will show me the way to sit peacefully in God’s arms and listen to his will for me instead of running breathlessly after him trying to catch a wisp of who he is. I know he is with you when you write, and I know he blesses you when you share yourself and bless us, your readers. Thank you for the tears…and even the vomit. Wanda

  394. Angie, thank you for being so honest and transparent! I can definitely relate to what you said on many levels! I have been very broken for a long time, wrestle with doubt and unbelief, and am struggling physically, spiritually, and emotionally, and I wrestle with guilt and have felt like a complete failure as a Christian for most of my life. So, you aren’t alone dear sister. I want to thank you greatly for your obedience to God, courage, hard work and your dedication and faithfulness to write this book despite God taking you on a very difficult journey, all the emotions it stirred up in you, feeling very vulnerable, as well as any other difficulties or obstacles you encountered while writing this. Because of your obedience and faithfulness to God, your courage, and persevering through incredible hardships, so many others get to reap the benefits and be blessed by reading your book. You are truly so sweet and selfless to put our interests above your own by releasing a book that you feel leaves you pretty vulnerable and exposed just so we could gain freedom as well as gain from your experience and insight about relationship with God and the Christian life. I definitely need and would really love to read your book. I so so so want to experience that same freedom and healing you did and finally experience real growth in my relationship with God again! I’m so grateful you’re doing this wonderful giveaway! May God bless you and I’m praying for you sweet Angie!

  395. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with all. Look forward to reading your book and not feeling alone in my struggles.

  396. Thank you Angie, for the work and time and desperation you went through to write the book. I’ve spent a year of pain, wondering if God really does have a plan for me or am I just stumbling around in the dark. I thought that by the time I made it to 77 years that surely I would have it all figured out, but I think I am questioning more now than ever before. My husband was a pastor for twenty-five years and I have always been involved in leadership of one kind or another in the churches we have lead and those in which we only attended. But none of that seems to have prepared me for this last two years, I wait with anticipation, to see where God wants me and how He wants me to get out of this mess and get to that place He intends. God bless you as you share in this safe place!

  397. Your book is already in my Amazon cart! I am really looking forward to reading it soon! Thanks for sharing yourself and your faith.

  398. I love your honesty, the good and the bad. I think it’s awesome that you have such a wonderful friend in Jess. I know you would be there for her too! Your book sounds wonderful… I hope I win!

  399. If I was blessed with the ability to write, I could have wrote this book!
    I will look forward to reading it 🙂

  400. “More than anything else, I learned to stop filling the gaps of my faith with religion.” What a wonderful statement to express the pain of a dark night of the soul that it seems sometimes will never lighten …. then suddenly it is dawn

  401. Thank you for pouring out your heart and treading through the hard stuff to share an honest confession of faith. I have been searching for someone, something, in that last six months to assure me that the questions and confusion I have been facing aren’t in vain; that other people have gone through something similar and this seems like an answer to prayer.

    I look forward to picking up a copy and finding how God speaks to me. May you have peace and joy this week of your book release. 🙂

  402. Chasing God….that’s a good description of my life the last few years. Would love to read your thoughts and learn about your journey.

  403. Angie, I just want to hug you after reading what you shared in the safety of this wonderful community! You are Angie The Brave, though you may vomit if you may, but you faced yourself, your fears, you friends, you potential readers and all who are here with courage found in the process that God has led you. Yes, LED YOU even as you thought you were chasing aimlessly about in a frenzy. Thank you for sharing and trusting and letting all of us see how you’ve grown. You have encouraged me…and I am very much looking forward to reading this book of yours. Whether I win one of the giveaway copies or have to find one to purchase, I want to read it!

    Peace to you, and Joy for the next journey!

  404. Dear Angie,

    as I lie here at my gynecologists, listening to my unborn girl’s heartbeat (due in 3 weeks), I read this post and could cry. Partially because of all the hormons, but mostly because of you being so honest! That gives me so much courage to be the way I am and to doubt sometimes. Because that seems to be how we are, isn’t it? You have agreat impact on the way my faith grew in the past years. Thanks for that. And of course in my handbag there’s your new book waiting to be read. It arrived yesterday evening. Thanks to our globalisation even here in Germany. 🙂 God bless you Angie! You’re an inspiration to so many. I pray for you to be a bit more selfconfident. But just a bit, cause I love the way you are. 😉

  405. There’s over 650 comments here…. Mine is but a drop in the bucket. But I have to say I want this book. I crave it. I watched the book trailer (loved it!) and I was reduced to tears. I wanted to scream out (in my quiet little house as all the ones I love are sleeping peacefully) “this is me!! This is my story!!” How truly wonderfully it is to know I am not the only one. Not only that, but that ANGIE is just like me!! I am only a drop in a bucket filled with hundreds of comments… But I *will* have this book and read my story whether it’s given to me or purchased! Thank you, Angie!!

  406. Thank you for letting your walls down and being raw …. sounds like just the book I need to read!!! Thank you for opening your heart!

  407. Angie,
    Your insights of what lead to your book give me hope. It would be nice to win a copy so I can join in the future discussions with the actual text. I joined the last offering without the text with great effort to glean anything in the tundra I have been too long a nomad in. I am a sheep still needing to be closer to my Shepherd and the rest of HIs flock.

  408. Dear Angie, Your honesty strikes a chord in my life, thank you so much. For sure your blog inspires to want more of Jesus that you’ve graciously shared in the book. Thank you for your obedience to God in letting others learn from the revelation so precious shared by God to you, so generous. Blessings, Amy

  409. The book sounds interesting. I would like to be able to look at God instead of looking for God.

  410. Wow. I am very anxious to read your book. But I just wanted to thank you …ahead of time for allowing us to see this side of you …a person that so many of us can relate to. That makes a Huge difference…knowing we are not the only one that feels this way or has felt that way. OOH!!! I am excited! Hope I win 😉 But I will buy if I don’t!! haha

  411. I think I might just have to read this book next. If I don’t win I will define be buying this book

  412. I can’t wait to read this book. I love God so much but have felt so stagnant. I need a time of refreshing.

  413. Would love to read this book. I really enjoy your blog (& instagram pics 🙂 ) You have a beautiful family!

  414. Oh, thank you for being so transparent! I feel this way sometimes, like I am not doing it “right”! I can’t wait to get my hands on this and would love even more to win it!
    Thank you = Ellie

  415. I know I have chased God – life gets so busy with trying to work a full time job and care for two elderly parents who need me to do their running for them and tasks around their home now. I feel overwhelmed and do feel I am chasing so many things in my life and forget I need to stop and be still with Him – to have time in prayer and listening to His guidance and receive His peace! Thank you for writing a book like this Angie and for the giveaway – would enjoy reading your book! Blessings to you for being transparent and sharing about this subject!

  416. Thanks so much for your vulnerability! I find it so hard to be honest about my life when it feels like a mess…when I feel like a mess! Looking forward to reading your book!

  417. It takes a lot of courage to share with the world your vunerability……I am very interested in reading this book as think it will encourage and help me on my christian journey. Thank you for allowing yourself to be used in “kingdom building”.

  418. thanks for the chance to win, and also for talking about a topic that so many folks shy away from, because they don’t want to appear to not have it all together when it comes to their relationship with God!

  419. Angie, I believe there are no coincidence in God’s kingdom. Although I’ve never read any of your works before, I believe finding the link to your new book was a divine appointment. It is the reason I sat here and quietly read 671 comments before writing this. It gave me the opportunity to realize that other sisters-in-Christ also wrestle with many of the same struggles I face. Loneliness, fear, insecurity, rejection … it is perhaps that melting pot of emotions that make us feel the need to burrow or “hide” our feelings when we experience seasons of doubt … lest someone think we don’t have it all together.

    Thank you for your transparency and honesty. It is a joy to know that I am not alone. Blessings …

  420. Thank you for sharing your heart. Vulnerability is often too difficult to share, but when it is, the cost is worth it to so many people!
    Your book sounds about like my life! I’m excited to read it.

  421. I cried when I read your comments because I identified so closely with your words. Thank you!

  422. Would love to win and would share with my daughter. We have talked about this very thing and have shed many tears together. Thanks for this awesome giveaway and God bless!

  423. I’ve been trying to chase him for 28 years or more. I’m tired. This year the word freedom has been placed on my heart. I can’t wait to read this book. Thanks for being real and putting it all out there.

  424. This is the third time in 2 days that this book has crossed my path…someone is telling me something I think! Thanks for always being here

  425. I love what you said about not looking for Him, but looking at Him. I really want to read this book! Thank you for sharing your struggles with us… I know I feel this way more than I’d like to admit!

  426. Can’t wait to read it, Angie. I’m excited every time my email tells me you’ve posted something on your blog, because your words speak truth, and always bring laughter or tears — sometimes both! A new book is good news, indeed!

  427. I agree that Incourage/Dayspring is a safe place. Thanks for sharing your heart.
    I have fumbled with studying the Bible and with what a prayer life looks like. All U really desire is a true, genuine relationship with God. I want to follow God, not chase Him. I want to see His face, not the back of His head.

  428. Thanks for sharing and for being open and honest. It seems that many struggle with this. Will definately add your book to my have to read list.

  429. Thanks for posting the book trailer! What a novel idea! I soooo need this book in my faith journey, if not in the giveaway I’m ordering it. A lightbulb God moment awaits.

  430. Thank you for your trust. We do not take it lightly.

    May you be blessed for helping others find the way to really chase after God… it’s all in the being still rather than in the running.

  431. dear Angie,
    What I love about you is your honesty. Many times I read books and long to be like the authors who always seem to know just what to say. Your book sounds like something I should read because you share your heart.

  432. Thank you for bearing your tender soul numerous times over. Thank you for being ‘willing’ to write your story. Thank you, Jess, for being a true friend to those of us who would rather burrow……in order to help the greater clan of burrowers-at-large. (Anyone want to create a button or a t-shirt?) Looking forward to this genuine spiritual autobiography ~ God bless you, sister ~

  433. I want to understand the difference between following the Lord and chasing Him through your book and share with lots of people. Especially Korean who can’t understand English well.

  434. I have always felt that He is “out there” watching and waiting. Watching to see how I act (or react), how I speak, how I pray, etc. Waiting to see if this time I will be patient, say the “right” thing, do the “right ” thing, etc., all the time knowing that I will mess up yet again. It can be an exhausting. I just want to “be” with Him….

  435. Thank you for your honesty. So often I feel like everyone else has it altogether, so what’s wrong with me? Can’t wait to read your new book!

  436. I am looking forward to reading this one. Reading this post was a bit uncomfortable for me…that’s how I know I need to read this book for sure!!

  437. Being vulnerable is the beginning of is where He can enter in..I am looking forward to reading your book. So often I get ahead of Him…not even chasing but going ahead. I want to walk alongside. Not chase, not fill void areas, but hold His hand and be with Him the whole way pouring out the oil of my life over His head in honor and love. I am reminded of the woman in Luke who is vulnerable, enters in to a gift offering to the Lord, and is counted blessed throughout time for her vulnerability. Well done Angie.