I’m sorry you are going through this, I have prayed for you this morning. It is easy to fall into despair when you are waiting on God to move. As we wait on God please make sure you are caring for yourself. Take walks, go out to eat with a friend, do things that give you life. God, your Father, wants you to live and find the happiness in the life He has given you even when parts of it are so very difficult. You are not alone.