Sometimes, it feels like evil wins. We labor in faith, striving to do justice, love mercy, and walk humbly with our God, but we do not always see the fruit. I’d be lying if I said there haven’t been moments when the world feels heavy on my shoulders, and my heart can barely take the pain pressing in from every side as I wonder where God is in the mess of it all.
Throughout Scripture, God calls us to care for the suffering, the downcast, the poor. We’re called to speak up for the marginalized and care for the hurting.
A group of women from across the country invited me to their group to lead an online prayer session. They were faithful advocates, working to create change for some of the most vulnerable in our communities. They believed in bipartisan solutions and had tirelessly pursued conversations to bring hope and practical action. But before our scheduled time of prayer, they experienced significant setbacks. What had looked like promising conversations quickly turned into closed doors. The effort had been met with resistance, and they were left discouraged, questioning whether their work mattered, wondering what would happen to those who would remain hurting and unhelped.
I was discouraged, too, carrying my own doubts and frustrations. But I showed up anyway.
Some of us wiped away silent tears, and others sat with our hands folded tightly in our laps. We had come together to pray, listen, and lament — but honestly, I didn’t want to be there. I didn’t want to pray. I didn’t want to sit in silence, waiting for God to show up.
God felt distant.
And I felt alone.
Looking back, I can see that prayer was exactly what we needed. On that digital call, something began to shift as we slowly turned to spiritual practices. We practiced Lectio Divina, a way of reading Scripture prayerfully, allowing the words to speak into our weary hearts. We engaged in the Examen, reflecting on where we had seen God at work, even in our discouragement. We wrote small liturgies — simple prayers to name our sorrows before God. Little by little, the tightness in my chest eased.
Our time together did not change circumstances, but by the grace of God — the Loving Parent who holds us even when we struggle to hold on — it changed me.
As I look around, it’s easy to feel like sorrow and struggle are unique to our times. But after spending time in the Psalms, I’m reminded that humanity’s ache is nothing new. This push-pull of who we are and who we could be has always been history — but the mercy of God has always been our hope, too.
Lament is part of walking with God. The psalmists cried out. Jesus Himself wept. When we let ourselves feel the pain of our weary world and the ache in our hearts, we step into sacred sorrow, something Jesus knew intimately.
Just because we cannot always see the tree growing and bearing fruit does not mean the work we did to plant the seeds was in vain.
So much of our modern lives are focused on avoidance. We scroll, we busy ourselves, we try to distract ourselves from the ache — anything to keep us from feeling too deeply. But the way of Jesus is not avoidance. It is incarnation — presence, embodiment, and action.
As we read in James, faith without works is dead. But the inverse is also true: action without God will falter. On my own, my work will flounder. It will taper off in the face of adversity. It will burn out in exhaustion or despair. If left to me, I will give up.
Only the Spirit of the Living God keeps me going.
I wrestle with the silent doubts I don’t want to name. The ones that creep in during the waiting. The ones that whisper: What if this is all for nothing? What if I misheard God?
I find comfort in knowing that God is not afraid of my doubts, my silence, or my noise. God absorbs my screams as readily as my refusal to pray at all. There are moments when I do not want to invite God into my pain. I want to wallow, to rage, to sit in the dust and despair. I want to let my hot takes and anger fester. I don’t want to enter into prayer.
But in the presence of those women, as we sought hope together, I was reminded that though darkness lingers and injustice remains, hate does not have the final say. Communal prayer invites us into active participation in our world, propelled by the nourishing comfort and righteous power of the One who gives us breath.
By the power of the Spirit, we can take the next step. We can listen for the still, small voice of God. We can draw near to those who suffer, grieve with the grieving, speak truth in power, and embody love in action.
If you find yourself in a place of lament today, know this: You don’t have to do it alone. And you don’t have to hide your pain, frustration, anger, or discouragement from God. You do not have to pray beautifully scripted prayers, and you do not have to have all the answers.
You are held.
You are not alone.
May this simple prayer carry you:
God of Gentleness, You care for me.