It feels weird to write a blog post introducing myself.
I wish I could somehow curtsy. I feel like that would be a good start.
Hello.
[insert that curtsy here]
My name is Annie Downs and one dark and stormy night, I wrote a book called From Head To Foot.
[That “dark and stormy night” part is a lie, but I feel like that’s how people expect authors to speak and I’d hate to ruin your expectations.]
Here’s the truth. I wrote a book for myself. I mean, I didn’t write a book for Adult Annie, I wrote a book for Teenage Annie.
I didn’t like her very much, Teenage Annie that is. In fact, I hated her. I hated the way she looked, the clothes she wore, and I hated that of all the bodies in the world I had this one.
The only thing I hated more than my own self was talking about how much I hated myself. So I didn’t. My parents are awesome and loving, I had small group leaders at church that were committed to us, and I was surrounded by godly friends. But I never shared how deep the pain was. How real the hurt. How ugly the thoughts that radiated in my mind.
I went off to college, plugged into an amazing campus ministry, and started seeing a counselor. [That is a major simplification of the plot line, but trust me- it’s for your own good. The details would take us a while. We’ve got all week to unpack that stuff.] And slowly but surely, the Lord started showing me TRUTH where LIES had reigned supreme. I began to replace those lies, like exchanging fruit for waffle fries at Chick-fil-A.
And I started to see myself the way Jesus sees me.
So I wrote a book about that process. I wrote a book to pay homage to poor Teenage Annie- she never knew a different life and I wish she had. My hope and prayer now is that my testimony will rescue someone else- another teen girl who can’t stand to look in the mirror. Or, dare I say, a grown woman who still treats her body like it is the enemy. I think if one girl changes her thinking and changes her point of view because of my stories, then living them was worth it.
I hope that when teens read this book, they decide to share their pain.
I hope when moms read this book, they remember how it felt and they step into their daughter’s healing.
I hope when high school girls read this book, they begin replacing the lies with truth.
I hope when college girls read this book, they embrace God’s heart for them.
And I hope that every person who reads this books finds moments of humor and moments of real tears.
That’s why I wrote From Head To Foot– because Teenage Annie deserves some much-belated love, because today’s young women have it harder than Teenage Annie ever did, and because we all deserve places where laughter and tears meet.
Tomorrow…. an interview about all things Annie… writing, blogging, Nashville, and the best colors of nail polish.
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Southern Gal says
A great introduction, Annie. Your hopes for this book show me how to pray specifically. Thanks for sharing it all.
AnnieBlogs says
Thanks, friend. π
kris says
Nice to *meet* you!! Looking forward to hearing your story!
AnnieBlogs says
Thanks, Kris. Nice to meet you too.
~VA~ says
Just writing to say that this post was super fun to read π
AnnieBlogs says
Yay! So glad you liked it, VA.
Diane says
I love the beginning. It makes me long to hear more. I was also that teenager and I’m still that 50 year old. This is an area that really needs exploration and I look forward to following your post.
AnnieBlogs says
I’m still that girl somedays too, Diane. Always on a journey….
Sharon@HikingTowardHome says
Hmmm… sounds like a book I wish I could have read as a teenager. Seems like a book I need to read and maybe pass on to my tweenager. Thanks for sharing about your book. Now I know I need to get it!
AnnieBlogs says
Can’t wait to hear your thoughts, Sharon!
Teri @ StumblingAroundInTheLight says
I look forward to getting ahold of this devotional! I lived in that prison too…loathing the girl I saw in the mirror for 20+ years. Treating my body in repulsive ways in an attempt to beat it into submission. Believing the lie that the flesh-image in the mirror was my identity.
Years of prayer & counseling & the lovingkindness of Jesus’ mercy bought me freedom. Still, the enemy tries to woo me back to that seductive false identity. Ever fighting. Ever trusting in my Rescuer.
Thanks for your vulnerability and courage!
Teri
AnnieBlogs says
Ever fighting. Ever trusting.
That’s right, sister.
Katie says
Hi Annie! I look forward to hearing more of your journey! I have been that girl and sometimes I am still that girl. Other days I see myself through the eyes of God. It is a daily struggle! Thank you for being real and vulnerable and writing a book that others can see they are not alone.
AnnieBlogs says
Thanks for your kind words, Katie. π
Amy says
Annie, I could use your book, even as a 31-year-old mom! I’ve been on a journey of healing through an invitation God has given me to explore the craving for writing that He placed in me oh so long ago. I’m *seeing* more about His Grace and Love for me and learning how to live more freely-me, and I think there are some big messages He wants to speak – truth that isn’t new – to many others through words He wants me to share specifically. You took a risk and exercised courage, and He’s blessed YOU – not just others, but YOU! It’s amazing to *see* how when we say “yes!” (even timidly), He does the rest…He loves on us through our fears, and He moves in the most amazing ways. Your book inspires me and I’m thrilled to see how He truly makes “beauty from ashes” – truly!
Rich blessings…
AnnieBlogs says
Can’t wait to read YOUR words, Amy. π
Kristen@Chasing Blue Skies says
Oh my, Annie…this sounds like what teenage Kristen needed, too.
I have a 7 year old daughter, and heaven knows I could benefit from this book as her Mama, too. I am wholeheartedly staying tuned!
AnnieBlogs says
Thanks, Kristen. π
stephanie says
i LOVE you annie.
God does great things through you.
AnnieBlogs says
You are too sweet, Steph. Your words are my hope and prayer. π
Donna says
Nice to meet you Annie…. loved the intro and can’t wait to read your interview! You have a wonderful sense of humor that shines through your writing. Thanks for not only sharing your story, but writing a book that will help other girls understand that they are not alone. I have a granddaughter that I know would really love your book…. can’t wait to share it with her.
God’s Peace…
AnnieBlogs says
Thank you, Donna! My dad will be so glad to hear that you think my writing is funny- I inherited his sense of humor for sure. π
Rachel Durban says
Oh Annie, I love this book so much.
You are spot on throughout it all and I love the constant use of scripture. It’s so solid.
I know my value is in Christ Jesus alone, but sometimes, it’s great to be reminded of that. I ordered one of the last Christmas packages, and loved that you took the time to write a hand-written note to all of us, and of course all of the little goodies. You my friend, are a blessing.
-Rachel
Hillary @ The Other Mama says
Luuurrrrvvvve you. Curtsy back. Can’t wait to lead this with a small group of our teens at church. Not that I have it planned, but just by writing this I’m making myself do it.
There. Done.
Can’t wait! Will you curtsy down to Huntsvegas for a session, perhaps? xoxo