“We serve a God who does way past your way past.” Priscilla Shirer
She sobs a puddle in my arms, and I find my own tears mixing in with hers.
“Mama, sometimes I just want to be able to do the one thing I can’t do.”
Haven’t we all felt this way?
It’s been 8 months since Faith’s surgery correcting her broken neck, and we rejoice the surgery was a complete success. She is able to participate in miles more than we were told would be possible. But as far as those miles take her, she can never resume her first love: gymnastics.
Most days, she plays contentedly with pretty cartwheels and whatnot. But from time to time the itch to push the limits of what is physically wise surfaces, so I furrow my brows and break out the dreaded no. Her two closest friends are knee-deep in gymnastics, therefore reminders and conversation surrounding the sport lean close. And while Faith generally doesn’t mind this and has made leaping strides in accepting she can’t further participate in gymnastics herself, she misses it.
She pulls away from my arms, watery doe eyes looking straight at me. She shakes her head and sighs,
“Nothin’ is as fun as gymnastics.”
I tell her it’s okay to feel that way. Because there ain’t nothin’ fun about dreams dying or loves leaving.
She genuinely gives thanks for so much. She knows when God closes one door He opens another. She believes in faith that something better is coming tomorrow, even if she can’t see it today.
Today it hurts, and the pain of today makes the promises of tomorrow feel far away.
I read words from Ephesians, where Paul writes of our God who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all we ask or think. God’s dreams for us are way past anything we can fathom. But even if we know that we know this is true, today it hurts.
In the Faithful Abundant True Bible study, Priscilla Shirer explains it this way:
“His way past is so beyond our wildest imagination that it doesn’t necessarily mean it’s a matter of making us happy right here and now. His kingdom purposes are so beyond. They are so grand and are being worked out in such a way that they might be beyond our mental capacity to comprehend.”
He uses everything – especially our unhappy todays – to prepare us for His promise of better tomorrows.
My eyes move further back in Ephesians, and I see Paul mentions “the unsearchable riches of Christ.” A bit more research and I am amazed by the translation comparisons for these unsearchable riches, or rather His extraordinary plans:
Inexhaustible riches and generosity of Christ.
When our hearts ache over lost loves or dying dreams, we latch onto healing and hope through faith that God has a game plan in store for us that will blow our ever-loving minds. Because God’s ‘way past’ dreams for us make our own look like the dollar store variety.
It isn’t easy to believe His ‘no’ today is for a better ‘yes’ tomorrow. But God is good all the time. Everything is a grace from Him, even our unhappy todays.
How do you latch onto hope during difficult todays? How have you seen their purpose in creating better tomorrows?
Kristen Strong, Chasing Blue Skies