Photo by Dawn at My Home Sweet Home
My kids take the cheap swim lessons.
You know, the forty dollars for two weeks of 25 minute group sessions taught by college students at the community pool. I used to pay for the teach-the-kid-how-to-swim-in-a-week luxury lessons back when I thought I was rich and I pampered my first child like the princess she was.
But now, we all settle for the cheap ones.
A regular part of the community pool lessons is the go-off-the-diving-board day. And note that it is GO off the diving board day, not DIVE off the diving board day or JUMP off the diving board day. Every child just has to get off the end no matter which method they choose. Most of the older kids jump or dive. But some of them, including my three-year-old, have to be dropped off.
Maybe you think this is cruel: dropping a sniffling, goose-pimpled, three-foot-high child of the edge of a bouncing board into the dark blue water of the deep end. But I don’t think it is. I think it’s necessary.
My seven-year-old, in all of her risk taking glory, nearly runs to the end and catapults herself into the brilliant turquoise of the pool. She swims to the edge, climbs out and begs to go again.
My three-year-old, however, doesn’t have the same type of reckless personality that her sister has. She isn’t timid, but recognizes her personal limits far more than her sister did at the same age. When it comes to her turn, she’s been standing in the shade for 5 minutes and has already begun to shiver. Aided by an instructor, she walks to the end of the board confidently before she realizes what it is she’s about to do.
Her smile quickly morphs into terror and she begins to scream. She tries to claw her way back to the diving board ladder to dry ground but the instructor won’t let her.
Her trusted, smiling teacher is treading water for her directly under the edge of the diving board but she still won’t jump. He calls her name, begs her to jump, but now her screams are reaching eardrum-piercing levels.
The instructor standing with her on the board gently picks her up under her arms and drops her arched, squealing body the all of 24 inches into the waiting hands of her teacher calmly treading water in the pool. A brief second and she emerges from the surface of the water, still looking horrified.
Until everyone claps and cheers for her bravery. And she grins.
He swims her to the side of the pool, I wrap her in a towel and tell her how proud I am of her. That she’s done well. That she’s so brave.
But she really isn’t brave. She’s been forcibly dropped in the pool and then swum by a capable adult to the side. She really didn’t do anything.
Or maybe not.
Because courage might not be about bravery or doing something worthy of valor. Courage, sometimes, might just be being present. She didn’t ask to go off the diving board and certainly didn’t ask to be dropped in with arched back and screaming mouth. But she was there. And with assistance, she accomplished the goal.
My own courage, in its mini surges and meager portions, has usually come from just being there. It’s courage for the moment and not a bit more than that.
Allowing God to restore my marriage 6 years ago took courage. But mostly it was just making the appointment, sitting on the couch and asking God and our marriage counselor, “What do I do next?”
Sending my oldest from the safety of my mini-van into the world of school takes that same kind of passive, being-there courage. Trusting her little heart with all the whims of the other girls in second grade requires a Mama-courage that I never knew I had. I just have to open the side door and let her go.
Courage is waking up in the morning and resolving to try to clean my house and not yell at my girls when they destroy their made beds and organized bookshelves.
Lacing up my running shoes and taking the first step out of the door to jog when I’m exhausted and really don’t feel like it is courageous in its own way. Ninety percent of the jog is just showing up.
Courage is sometimes just walking right up to a new situation and simply being there. Courage just might be walking to the end of the diving board and allowing someone else to drop me into the deep end.
Because I know Someone’s treading water below me and He never gets tired. He won’t let me drown.
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Amy says
“Courage is sometimes just walking right up to a new situation and simply being there”… YES!!! This is real-life for me right now and was so (in)couraging! Loving this site…
Sandra says
Feel like I jump off that board everyday. Sometimes, I am still swinging from the edge of the board, holding on with one hand, hollering ‘nasties’ at everyone within earshot and someone needs to go stand on my white knuckled fingers to get me in the water.
So why are people confused when folks see my dazed look when they declare that I’m some kind of hero for mothering ten children. Like you said …. I just show up.
But each day, my faith in my swimming coach [that be God] grows.
Dawn says
i wil have to remember that 90% tip… just being there. sometimes it is hard to even do that. but i will think of the One treading water…waiting for me. thank you!
Christy says
I couldn’t agree more.
PS~Erin says
“just showing up” and “mama-courage”… I like how you include that in having courage. And that someone is waiting for us, treading water for us. Wow. Thanks for this early morning inspiration.
Christi {Jealous Hands} says
You’re so right – sometimes you just have to be there, and ask “what next”. This is what we’re dealing with right now.
Lovely post!
Jemma says
Sarah-This was so beautifully written! I have been dealing a lot with fears and anxiety and this piece just spoke straight to my heart. Thank you!
Teri Lynne {Pleasing to You} says
Beautiful post! I have never thought of courage this way but how true this is! Thank you.
Sarah W says
Wow, this post was beautiful! What I loved is that I was your daughter too…. …6 years old and standing on the edge of the diving board. 🙂 It just made me smile knowing that I wasn’t the only one! 🙂
Thanks for giving a dose of encouragement Sarah!
Sarah Mae says
Wow. Super awesome post! So so good…
Candy @ SoBella Creations says
What a great post!
My girls had the one on one lessons. And needless to say they neither one can swim and don’t want to know how to swim. 🙁
Love the site!
Amber@theRunaMuck says
Glory be, Sarah. With tears in my eyes, I tell you, I needed this today. Thank you, new friend. Beautiful.
denise says
hmmm, beautiful.
tugs at my heart, as i have been pushed off the diving board in these past few days, called to be courageous, called into waters i don’t know that i can swim, but my Father is there treading water, and He can and will carry me.
Angela says
Courage is waking up in the morning and resolving to try to clean my house and not yell at my girls when they destroy their made beds and organized bookshelves.
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Substitute “girls” for “boys” and THIS IS MY LIFE!
Thanks for the inspiration. 🙂
Mary @ Passionate Perseverance says
Thank you Sarah for this lovely reminder. I could not agree with you more. Sometimes courage is just showing up. By simply being there for our husbands and children, for our co-workers or our church community, to listen to encourage, to be the face of Christ to them on a particular day is what Our Creator asks of us. He will not forsake or abandon us on this journey. He will not let us drown. Ever.
Tabitha@ichoosebliss says
I recently pushed myself off of the diving board to accomplish a new project. Your words made me feel like I did the right thing.
Liz says
Oh you have no idea how desperately I needed to read this. Especially the line “Allowing God to restore my marriage…took courage”.
I’m definitely in the ‘kicking and screaming, arching my back, panic on my face’ mode.
Thank you so much for (in)couraging.me!
erin says
This post completely blessed my heart. Thank you.
melissa @ the inspired room says
I feel like I’ve teetered on the edge of that diving board many many times in life … thank you for putting into words how it feels and how courageous it really is to even be standing on the diving board with screams of terror — so rarely am I the one bravely jumping off!
blessings!
Melissa
Dawn @ My Home Sweet Home says
I can so totally relate. This brought back memories of when my now 18-year-old son took swimming lessons and would scream when I made him get in and do it. The final day he played and had a ball. The other mothers told me how mean they thought I was all week, but they saw in the end that he was just playing me. 😉
Tammy says
I would have to substitute boys in this scenario and your post was just beautiful. Just what I needed to hear on a day when my heart was a bit discouraged. Thank you.
deb @talk at the table says
It was so refreshing to hear words from a mamma like me, who would stand aside and let her children be thrown into the waters of the world sometimes. I still do. It isn’t always the popular thing it seems . But I see their growth, their sense of empowerment, and their faith in themselves and in the mystery of letting Will be done.
I am learning it too, getting pushed out of comfort zones and holding my breath. Thank you.
Stacey @ The Blessed Nest says
Such an (in)couragement to me! Just being there, just going for it, is the step I need to take in my latest little venture! Thanks for this :).
Blessings,
Stacey
Judy Mikalonis says
way to show up and rock, Sarah Markley!
beautifully and artfully said.
arching and screaming is something I relate to, LOL. I like her style!
punkinmama says
Thank you for this post. It contains such a great message.
Though, I also have to ask, will your daughter now jump off the board willingly? 🙂
Carol says
I have been thinking about this post all morning, wondering if I should kick in my two cents. I have decided that I must, even if my comment never actually shows up. Courage develops best in an atmosphere of trust and safety, with a timing that can vary. I do not believe that the end justifies the means here. My heart aches for this child, little more than a baby, who was shown that she is not in charge of developing her own courage, in her own timing and in her own way. I understand that this little girl was never in physical danger. But to sacrifice my child’s spirit is a danger I cannot even fathom.
Diane says
Carol, I’m reading this over a year later and thank you for having the courage to write your comments. How inappropriate to force a three year old child off a diving board. She will never forget and not in a positve light. The results of this inhuman exercise will not be a couragous child or adult. So many comments from adults praising the post – geez people you are adults…this was a three year old child. I see this as abusive and self-serving. Perhaps you should rethink your motivation behind this act. Wasn’t this more about you?
Hillary @ The Other Mama says
This is beautifully written and so TRUE! I am finding out about more and more of God the more I time I have to raise my children and this is a perfect example. Sometimes He says- Jump- and we just don’t want to do it or are scared. And all He is asking us to do is show up.
Love it!! Thanks so much!
Andrea says
I needed that reminder about courage being sending my children off to school – my baby starts in a few weeks, and I’m scared silly. It’s not as if I haven’t been through this before with my two girls, but for some reason it just feels different this time. Maybe because this is the last first day of school. Whatever it is, I just need to remember to just be present, whether I want to or not!
Monica @ The Writer Chic says
Wow.
Holley says
Sarah, I love the way your beautiful words make us feel like we are with you…because that’s totally where I’m wishing I could be right now, friend!
Kristen says
I am loving this place. Very well done. Thank y’all and Thank God for women like y’all!
Alyssa Rose says
I really needed to hear this! I have a hard time jumping off the board into the water of the unknown. It is a scary thing to do; even if there is someone waiting for me. But like you said, someone is there, he is waiting for me to take that leap of faith and jump in with both feet to follow him. 🙂
Thank You!
Debra says
Isn’t that so true about courage. I have been there more times than I want to count. In fact, we are there in a different way right now. And, He is there, treading water and waiting to swim us to the side. Thank you for sharing.
lisa leonard says
beautiful sarah!!
Mary @ Giving Up on Perfect says
So, so true! Sometimes, all God is asking for us is to stand. Stand in the storm. Stand on our shaky legs. Just stand. Love this diving board analogy!!
linda says
Beautifully written and ringing with truth. I loved it!
Amanda @ Serenity Now says
What a great post! My 3 year old got dropped off during swimming lessons too (we also take the cheapies). Good lesson here. 🙂
R Jennings says
Well written, Sarah. Today it feels like I’ve been thrown in the deep end. It’s interesting how sometimes we are so focused on “falling” that we don’t acknowledge the Arms we fall into. Thank you.
Jerriann says
I love this post, I love your message and you put your thoughts and feelings together so beautifully.
One of my favorite quotes is “Courage is fear standing still” and now I can relate to, “courage is sometimes just showing up.”
paige says
absolutely loved this story. it came across my phone in the night and i couldn’t sleep so took time to read. brought back memories of childhood so vividly as well as familiar feelings of fear, anticipation, God’s assurance that he is there to catch us. “being present” is truly courageous and so uncommon these days. so many ways to try and escape what we fear. i ran across this quote yesterday and it spoke to me too:
“courage does not always roar.
sometimes courage is the quiet voice
at the end of the day saying,
“I will try again tomorrow.”
Mary Anne Radmache
Tracey says
We took the cheap swim lessons this year too! I wish we had a go off the diving board day.
I jump off every day when I wake up and was blessed by your word picture of our Jesus treading water and never getting tired.
Jenny says
Lovely writing, great message. Thanks for such a bright spot in the day!
Sarah Markley says
Thank you all for your amazing comments! I’m floored, truly.
Carol, if you would like to send me your email address, I’d love to respond to you personally.
sarah at markleytech dot com
Angela Nazworth says
Wow! So very true, sometimes it is courageous to just show up and to trust. Beautiful writing as always.
We are THAT family says
I loved this. I was right there with you at the edge of the water. Thank you!
gitz says
miss sarah, i’m SO proud of you… i have yet to read something you write that i don’t leave being glad i took the time.
Traci says
Such a great post! I remember those days— I can see myself shivering on the side of pool… the smell of the chlorine, the rough, scratchy floor against my feet, my shivering, goose-bump arms wrapped tightly in a fresh cotton towel.
I too had to to be pushed…
but don’t we all sometimes?
I am taking on leading a ladies bible study at my church next month…
Nothing terrifies me more than standing in front of a crowd, speaking.
But I will listen, and I will obey… the voice of Him who is calling me to do this very thing.
I know that he will be there, waiting for me, treading water below me….
and HE won’t let me drown!
Thanks for the reminder!
Love your sister in Christ,
Traci
mourninglory says
Wow. Just what I needed! Courage might be just being there. Kicking, screaming, but being there.
Julie Hinkle says
I feel like I’m standing on that diving board just trying to conquer my fears and take that first big leap! With God holding my hand, I can do it…
Thanks for such a meaningful message today!