I've thrown it right out there in public, confessions of some particularly ugly sins, those especially dealing with intimacy, a pregnancy out of wedlock, an abortion, the time I kissed a man who was not my husband, and though several have turned their heads and called me brave for the sharing, I am writing this with all the passion I can muster: the bravest, the most courageous, the gutsiest girls of all are the ones who have remained faithful.
After my abortion, I played the scenario over and over. What if I had chosen differently? What if I had carried the life inside and given a family the daughter they always wanted? What if I had been brave? And, yes, as a believer now, I relish the truth that my what-ifs are for naught. Everything points to grace. Everything in Christ Jesus is reconciled, all the enemy's work repurposed.
So, now, too, in my healing marriage with this amazing man, I consider the brave thing, the righteous day-in day-out of marriage and the way marriage reflects our relationship with the Lover of our souls. Many of you, like Ann Voskamp, know "The dramas in the long faithfulness, [that] aged love is the heroic."
In her post Brave Affairs, Ann writes,"His stubble rubs my shoulder. He makes me, shape and rib, and my head’s full of how we’ve known each other and how still he is mystery and how the want is all his. We sleep in matrimony and it is holy."
I'm talking to you, the gutsiest girls of all, to those of us who decide anew today to remain faithful to the Covenant, and I applaud your God, the Holy Spirit wooing us. Every day that we choose love for that same man and his mess, and every day that we choose LIFE and the redundancy of reconciliation, we choose the nature of the God who makes monotonous monogamy the bravest, most transforming, and most mysterious act of all.
"Hear, O Israel: the LORD our God, the LORD is One!" (Deuteronomy 6:4)