Bianca Olthoff
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Bianca Olthoff is an (in)courage alumni who spends most of her time working as Chief Storyteller for The A21 Campaign, a global anti-human trafficking organization. By day she's a freedom writer who advocates for justice, but at night she's a step-mom who loves to have dance parties with Parker, Ryen, and Ricci [a.k.a. The...

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  1. What a perfect post for me to read right now! I feel that I’ve been fighting and fighting in life for awhile now, never really getting anywhere. Just the other day, I whole-heartedly told God I just couldn’t do it anymore. There was absolutely nothing I could do in my own human strength to change my situation. In that moment, I felt like God whispered to me…”finally.”
    Thanks for sharing!

  2. Hahahahahahaha! This was great!
    I got sucked into the story and before I knew it I was the one who was drowning. Thank you for sharing your (hilarious) story.
    Jesus saves.

  3. Oh Bianca – wonderfully, beautifully put. What a powerful word picture that will stay with me today. Thank you for painting it so vividly, so profoundly for one who is often grasping at the One who would save her.

  4. Hello Bianca,
    I must confess I silently follow your bloggy! I read it to get (incouraged) Thanks for your honesty and testimony! This story is wonderfully written!I was cupped under His hand 6 years ago this past month and yes indeed I have actually LIVED LIFE these past 6 years! But yes I have to admit it is a struggle. It’s good to hear that others struggle as well and in this battle we do not fight the good fight alone!

  5. Wow – a gutsy instructor.
    This is something we really don’t consider much, simply letting go, recognizing our need for rescue, letting Him rescue us. Really vivid illustration.

  6. I agree withe Deidra…that should be a bumper sticker!
    I just shared on my blog how my relationship with husband is a battle against the enemy…and now I think I need to reflect on the ultimate tactic, surrender…surrendering to His will….wow. I can’t wait to share this with my husband tonight.
    You are a blessing and I think I love you! 😀

  7. THANK YOU for this post. This is my prayer for my sister. She is young, and struggles constantly with acknowledging her self-worth in God, depression, poor body image, etc. Despite accepting Jesus’ grace a couple years ago, she is dragged away, time and time again, into the temptation of filling her emptiness with alcohol and the affection of men. I want to help her, pull her out myself, but I can’t. Sometimes, all I can do is pray, and now I know what to pray for her.

  8. I so needed to read this! Our small groups at church are all embarking on the same study this term: Life’s Healing Choices out of Saddleback Church. I think this perfectly describes how we get to the point of letting go of our hurts, hang-ups, and habits that have been secretly drowning us. Thank you!

  9. I’m glad you guys enjoyed the visual.
    I, on the other hand, still have nightmares of Emily’s eyes staring up at me while drowning.
    Thanks for the love 🙂

  10. Great Post!!! Surrender is key. I am still learning how to swim in the pool of this world. Now taking swimming classes Daily with my Savior. 😉

  11. Awesome post B! I loved it because everyday we actually choose to fight God or surrender…and yes there are those day when you just want to be stubborn, but in the end God is the only one who will save us. I love the paradox: give up the fight win the battle…because it’s so true and we often think that the opposite is what works…thanks for the encouragement!

  12. Hahahahahahaha! That was great insight AND funny.
    Thank you for sharing your personal story and weaving a tale of redemption. It was real and moving at the same time! God bless :))

  13. I loved this and needed to hear it today. You know, one of those days when it feels like you’re drowning is a perfect time to remember our Savior is a lifeguard too 🙂

  14. Bianca , you have no idea how much this post has helped me,i was so angry at God and I was already giving up on him and on me too. when i read this post I was like he (The Lord) was telling me to surrender to him and to let him take the wheel of my life, Thanks