Sarah Markley
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I'm the mother of two little girls, the wife of an amazing husband who'd rather play the guitar than anything else and I love to write. I spend my weekends watching my daughters ride horses and play soccer. I blog daily and my greatest wish is to see women healed...

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  1. Great post. I’ve often thought the same thing as I watch my 5-year-old playing at an indoor playground or eagerly approaching a new neighbor. I’ve struggled with shyness and worrying too much about other’s opinions for as long as I can remember. But this is my desire and day-by-day as God works through us…we live His love more and more clearly.

  2. I have formed lightening-fast friendships, but that has been a rare experience. For the most part, I can relate to watching, waiting, and wondering if this could be another friendship forming. Self-protection is at the root. And maybe insecurity is there beside it.

  3. I left this on your blog, Sarah:
    Honestly I believe some of the biggest hindrances to women making deeper relationships is SHAME. Shame blankets our lives in ways we have no clue, I’m discovering. When we feel shame for who we see ourselves to be we don’t want to let anyone else see either so

  4. Honestly, I struggle with relationships with other women. Not as much as I used to, but I struggle, still. And I like the thought of the church ‘running out into the open acres of the world.’ I like that. That’s what it’s about isn’t it?
    Great thoughts, my friend.

  5. No…I love cautiously. It takes me so long to recover from hurts. And yes Julie, shame enters in the equation more than we want to admit. So much is expected of mothers that we are afraid to let our vulnerable side show. I try very hard to be non-critical of the friends that I have. Being loving helps to build intimacy and trust. But other women seem sometimes to be more competitive than loving, so I back away. It would be lovely to throw all the cares to the wind and love unselfconsciously. For me, I believe that would take a miracle or two. 🙂

  6. My sister in law wrote this as her facebook status towards me…I a have not asked her to be my friend..but i would like to have some respect. This is why I have a hard time trusting and being friends with others..because at the end of the day..this is what some people think…if only you could read the harsh words she wrote because all I asked from her was to be involved in my nieces lives.
    “I believe there is a difference between holding grudges and standing up for what you believe in. I do not want to fill my life with people that I have to be careful or cautious around. I want friends that I know have my back no matter what , and don’t JUDGE PEOPLE! Some people need to sweep under their own feet before they lash out about someone else & spread lies…Let’s tell both sides of the story.”
    How sad is it that. We are suppose to be women of christ but yet we can not even love freely and have respect for others.

  7. I have given love very freely my whole life. It’s been very easy for me to open myself up and get attached to people. However, after a very close friend lied to me, used me, and walked all over me last year, I have become a different person. My ability to trust and open up is much more difficult to come by now. The recovery from that was pretty difficult and I’m uncertain whether I want to risk that again.

  8. Today Bonnie Gray is talking about “what if” on her blog. A few of us asked ourselves that question about situations in our lives…but this is a what if I’m scared to ask myself: “What if we jumped into one another’s lives and showed the kind of broad-stroked love that Jesus did?”
    Friendship scares me. Vulnerability terrifies me. Rejection paralyzes me. I’d rather be miserable alone because I chose it then miserable alone because someone doesn’t care if I exist.
    Your what if is a challenge to me. What if I tried again? What if I opened up? What if I trusted God with my heart?
    You’ve got me thinking, Sarah.

  9. I do love quickly, and this post has been educational for me. Like the kid on the playground who asks someone to play and is eyed up and then turned down, I sometime am confused by the logistics of female friendships. I AM one to bound up to a newcomer at church and spill out my thoughts and ask them about theirs, or strike up a conversation with the other mom on the bench at the park. I’ve been rebuffed, I’ve been pushed back, I’ve been snubbed and like a puppy dog I just keep jumping up. Silly. I guess I just don’t get it. I’m too open and I’ve had to learn to give space, to circle, to sniff, to invite and re-invite and re-invite until authenticity is established. Reading your post, and the comments I’m learning why. It’s not me, necessarily, it’s the history of hurt and the inability to trust that closes doors to quick and easy love and friendships. I’m still bounding though, with tongue hanging out and tail a-waggin’. As long as I don’t let hurt put a leash on me, there’s no harm in trying.

  10. Oh em, I could not have written it better, I have spent hours on my knees wondering why i can’t make friend easily, I am ready and open and offering, Sometime I guess people have been hurt so often before, that it is hard to believe that someone could be open. I get my feelings hurt but I need to stop making it aabout me and pray for them and their needs we still may not be bff’s but at least I will like I shared love with them.
    Cha Cha

  11. Hi Sarah, truly enjoyed the post. Making friends has been easy for me, as I will talk in the grocery line too.
    At this present time I have a few women friends, none I see regularly though. I have been retired for 3 years, am 63, travel across the country to visit and stay for 2 to 4 months with daughter’s family and grandkids. Hubby and I have a good talking, fun time together. I miss having that close, talk on the phone for hours woman friend, who would laugh, cry and sit at Starbuck’s for hours with me. I don’t have a best friend, but have had many best friends at the same time. I have had friends come in and out of my life though, some for that season, others we just faded…… thank you for your insight…nana C

  12. I may be weird but I tend to jump right in feet first. I make friends quickly and usually easily. I LOVE my friends, they support, love, encourage and fulfill me. I try to give that back. Maybe I am still a child at heart??? At the ripe old age of 62!!!!!!!!!!!!