“Growth is the only evidence of life.” — John Henry Newman
It has come to my attention that I am growing.
Growing taller? Negative…I wish. An inch or two would suffice.
This week, as I walked through the food line in the staff canteen for lunch, I chose vegetable curry & rice over french fries & chicken. What the WHAT! Who am i?
I’m growing and becoming a new creation…and I’ll be honest.
It’s kinda freaking me out.
I don’t even recognize myself from the girl I was just a few years ago when I first got married…and let’s be serious…I’m different than when I first got here 2 months ago.
I mean, I would NEVER think that I would voluntarily go by myself to another island in a strange country to buy groceries. That seemed crazy when I first stepped foot into this country, and now, it’s an almost weekly activity. I would never think that when we get back from date night that I’d say “I’ll be right back. I’m going to grab some juice.” By myself. In the dark. I never thought I’d be “that girl” who followed her husband overseas into a scary, new place. But I am. And for that, I’m thankful…and humbled.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away;behold,the new has come. ((2 corinthians 5:17 ))
As I struggle through getting into the Word daily ((which i fail at way too often)), I can see how as I lay it all down, realizing I can’t do this on my own, He is growing me. As I seek His face, ((and even when I don’t)) He is making me new. He is refining me and sometimes it sucks. Sometimes I’m over it & I want to go back to my sinful self…it’s a lot easier that way. I want to be mad when an old lady gives me an elbow to the rib while getting on the ferry. I want to shoot a dirty look when a dude almost hits me with his motorcycle as he tries to squeeze in between me and the curb. I want to be mad when ZERO students show up for a class. But He reminds me to love…without limits. My heart is being changed towards the people here…to love them in a way I never knew was possible.
The old is gone and the new has come…
I’m semi-terrified and semi-excited to see how He will choose to grow me next…mostly terrified. I mean, come on…curry?
How is the Lord growing you these days?
By Kim, <a href=”http://www.yellowsongbird.blogspot.com”>Yellow Songbird</a>