There is new life fluttering around inside me as I type struggle to find the words to write this post. My brain is filled with all new questions, fears, and moments of unexpected joy – and a remarkably fewer number of eloquent words and inspiring blog posts. God is using this little one, no bigger than a carrot at this stage, to breathe new life into my heart and my marriage. And it is so good.
In my new struggle to focus, I’m trying to consolidate, slow down, and pinpoint priorities. I weed through emails every morning, deleting the usual junk, saving blog posts that I want to read later over a cup of coffee and responding to others. I’ve recently started receiving a new category of emails: the baby updates. Every week I receive an email called “Ages and Stages” from a baby website. It’s one of approximately five emails on baby related topics that come through my inbox every week, and to be honest – I don’t always read them. But the subject of this one, “Ages and Stages,” has been floating around in my brain for the last week.
God has revealed to me through recent circumstances that our baby is not the only one going through growth spurts, stages, and changes. God has me in a season of reflecting upon “Ages and Stages” right now. My needs now are different than they were last year, five years ago, and definitely ten years ago. The stage that I’m in at this time in my life requires different support systems, friendships, and encouragement than I needed even a few short months ago. My marriage has a new focus, new goals, and new struggles.
“Be strong and courageous. The Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
I’ve developed new friendships, strengthened them, and watched them fade. I’ve set goals, achieved them, and realized that God has other plans for me. I’ve struggled to find consistency in the middle of all of these changing “Ages and Stages.” And when the changes seem overwhelming, I’ve found that there is something – rather, someone – to hold on to. God. He never changes. He knows where I’ve come from, where I am right now, and where He wants to take me. He knows why I am where I am, at this age and stage in my life, and He knows what I need. When my “humanness” desires for everything to stay the same and slow down, just for a minute – He knows – like the best Father, what is really best for me, my marriage, and my relationship with Him. It’s not always easy to watch friendships fade and to struggle to find footing in a new stage of life, but God knows what I need.
And He knows what you need, too. Whether you’re in a new age, a new stage, or feel stuck in a place you would rather escape, trust God to provide. Trust Him to know what nourishment, support, and encouragement is best for where you are right now. He will not fail. And neither, my sweet friend, will you. Let Him breathe new life into your heart today.
By Crystal Stine, Shine