Hi Mom.
I can tell you’re a little surprised to see me here.
Perhaps that’s because, until now, you thought I could only do two things: eat and cry. Or perhaps you’re surprised I followed you here, since lately I seem interested in anything except what you say and do. Or perhaps you even thought I’d forgotten about you, all the way out there in “the real world”.
Well, no matter what you’re thinking, I want to share a few things with you.
First of all, I do hear you.
It may seem like I’m not listening, but I am picking up so much. It is true that there are times when your instructions run right through my ears, but I always hear you say, “I love you.” I always hear you say, “I’m proud of you.”
Oh, and I always hear you when you say, “I’m disappointed in you,” but I know that this doesn’t change your love for me.
I hear you sing the Winnie-The-Pooh theme song 468 times in the car just so I won’t cry and in the middle of the grocery store (even though everyone stares at you).
I hear you praying silently for me when I’m already up on stage, in costume and can’t remember a single line (even though you told me I should practice them).
I hear you calling to make sure everything’s lined up for play dates and dentist appointments and to see if I got there safely, because I forgot to call when I arrived…again.
I hear you sigh at the end of a long day and tell Dad that you sometimes wonder if you’re getting through at all.
Well, you are.
Secondly, I am watching you.
Though sometimes I act like I don’t care, I am watching you. I’m watching you work hard to take care of our family and when you read your Bible late at night after you think we’re all in bed. I’m watching when you run your fingers through your hair and look up to heaven, straight through the laundry room ceiling, as if to say, “All this and laundry too, Lord?”
I’m watching you check the rearview mirror a hundred times to make sure that yes, I’m still in the car, safely buckled in. I’m watching you check my temperature with a thermometer and, not satisfied; check it with the back of your hand.
I’m watching when you greet dad at the door and when you let him make the final decision (even though you’re right). I’m watching when you pay stacks of bills and check price tags and put off dreams.
I’m watching when you almost tell me that what I’m wearing is weird and my haircut does not make me look older, but I’m also watching when you smile and tell me that I am a beautiful no matter what.
I see it, Mom.
Third, I was God’s daughter first.
Even if I sometimes seem to be far from heavenly, remember that I am a child of God. The whole time I was kicking and flipping and growing inside of you, He was knitting me together.
When you held me for the first time and wondered if you were going to be a good mom, when you packed my backpack for Kindergarten and wondered if you’d been a good teacher, when you watched me speed off down the road and wondered how you were ever going to protect me now, God was in control.
You’re not alone, you’re not a failure and to me, you’re everything.
Thanks Mom.
Love,
Your Daughter
{Everly Pleasant of Clickety-Clack}
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Stacey says
I really needed this today =] Thanks so much for these reminders. Have A Blessed new week =]
Dawn says
Great post! Thanks for speaking your heart to this mom’s heart. 🙂
tonia says
Everly,
Having been your online friend for several years now… I can tell your mama must have been a very wise, gentle and loving example to you indeed. Your love and respect for her always come through. This is a beautiful piece and I’m so thrilled to see your writing expanding to new venues!
Sarah S. says
You have no idea…
Shelly Wildman says
Thank you, sweet Everly. You have touched the heart of every mom out there who has wondered if it’s all worth it. And you remind us that YOU (our daughters) are worth it too.
Olivia says
Everly, Shelly said it so well! You have no idea how timely this was to many of us moms!
Kristen says
{through tears} Thank you. This touched my heart in a special way today…
Natasha says
lovely, Everly.
Lydia R. says
Wow.
Ev, I’m speechless. What a gift you have…
lauren says
I don’t have a daughter, I have one very rambunctious son… but I needed this today. I’m wiping tears from my eyes as I type. Thank you for reminding me that it’s all going to be worth it.
sunny says
I am a mom to a teen….so needed this today, thanks
Jessica says
I’ve got a girl flipping and kicking and being knit together right now. I needed this. I needed to hear God whisper to my mama heart and your words were the conduit. Blessings.
Cindy says
My daughter’s birthday is tomorrow…she will be 22. She is coming home today to celebrate with us since she has to work on her birthday. I was sitting here looking at pictures of her growing up and wondering some of the things you’ve written here, remembering those thoughts and feelings….what wonderful timing, I read this and was unable to hold back the tears….thank you so much! God’s timing is Perfect!
Kelly says
Thank you …. a mom of grown children I am still wondering if “I am getting thru” …. thank you for the reminder to never give up saying it and praying it!
Lisa-Jo@thegypsymama says
This is one of the most pieces I’ve read in a long time. I kept coming back to it today and I can’t seem to let the words soak in enough. Thank you for the gift of this perspective. It’s just beautiful!
Chrissy @ Fireflies and Hummingbirds says
Wow.
I am the mom of an only child, a 21 year old boy who’s just recently left the nest. We’ve had some issues over the last couple of years, and I often wonder if I did anything right. Your post puts things in a whole new perspective. Thank you so much for sharing.
Theresa says
Truth…Spoken to a heart who wonders if they will ever truly know how precious their lives are to us.
Sue says
needed to hear this today …and quite possibly every day. Thanks.
Everly says
Thank you all so much—your comments mean the world to this little daughter!
And Tonia-you know that you’re my blog-mama. 😉
Much gratitude and few words,
Everly
Caroline says
Beautiful, beautiful post, Everly. It was lovely to meet you at She Speaks, as well.
Everly says
Sorry I never responded, Caroline! It WAS wonderful and I hope it happens again very soon!
p.s. love your name…heehee!
Nicole says
Just read this today – a day it was truly needed. Thank you so much.
Vicki says
Raising two teenagers isn’t easy, especially if one is a strong minded daughter. At times I feel so alienated from my her and that everything I am saying is falling on deaf ears. This gives me hope that she is listening.
Everly says
Thank you. 🙂
Blessings, blessings, blessings to you for not giving up on your strong-minded daughter. I’m one of those and I still need my mama.
Love, E.
Sue says
“God Bless You.” .. I so needed to hear this today and every day. I have 3 daughters (16,20,24) that I raised about 80%(or more) on my own while their father was busy “living his life.” Now I never hear from 2 of them, as they now will only see their father bc I’m such a failure. They’re intelligent, beautiful and very successful, I knew they would be. There are no words to describe how my heart aches. I raised them with God and I pray to God every day for their safety, happiness and that someday our family will be back together. Your words are amazing, inspiring and encouraging. Thank You for giving me Hope.
Everly says
Sue,
I am saying a prayer for you and your daughters. You must realize that, even in the middle of this horrifying situation, God is paying such attention to you and your family and waiting to bless you. Please lean on Him through all of this and don’t lose hope. You are precious to God and He will never forget or abandon you. May you and your daughters be reunited someday soon through the peace of Christ.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Love, Everly