As I went through my day, it felt like I was walking through a minefield. At every turn, a mini bomb exploded. Initially, I thought the worst had to be over. I believed that the tense morning moments would be the worst the day had to offer. I was wrong. The more hours that passed, the larger the explosions. Finally, I decided to consult God.
“What are You trying to tell me?” I asked. “Why is all of this happening today?”
My most challenging students were displaying their most mischievous behavior. The principal assigned a monstrous task to me that had to be completed within two days. Fellow teachers were asking for professional consults (I am an instructional coach) one right after the other. I felt overwhelmed and underqualified.
I began my interrogation again. “Lord, how am I going to get all of this done?”
Walking swiftly down the hall so that I would not be tardy to my next appointment, I made mental lists of what tasks needed to be a priority and what tasks could wait. I felt myself becoming more and more anxious and feeling less and less capable of handling all the tasks at hand. Silently, I prayed…
“Lord, I cannot do this on my own. Help me to do what You want done, how You want it done, and when You want it done. I am here in this school so You can work through me for Your purposes, not mine.”
That simple prayer relieved so much stress and tension from my mind, body, and spirit. I was able to finish the day confident that all would be well because I wasn’t in control. He was.
As long as we believe that our lives are about us, they’ll never be as fulfilling as we think they ought to be or as fulfilling as God intended for them to be. Deep down there is a void that we instinctively know can be filled with light and peace. It seems to take us such a long time to realize that we cannot fill this void. We have to allow it to be filled by the Holy Spirit. And only then can we live our lives as God intended.
By Toiya Paige, Doing.Life.Differently