Conner almost always come home from school with rocks in his pockets. His teachers have actually started getting on to him about this. Haha. He always tells them,
“I have to get some for my mommy. ”
Why he feels the need to bring me rocks every day? I don’t know..but I think it’s sweet. I could probably fill up a giant pickle jar with the little rocks he has brought me if I kept them all. I asked him one day why he chose the certain rocks that he did and he said,
“I just did.”
Sometimes he says they are shiny or cool…and sometimes they are ugly and dirty…but he presents them in a way as if they are so beautiful. Like I am going to be so enthralled at the beauty of these rocks. Besides the fact that they are from Conner–there is nothing particularly special about them. But Conner thinks so.
I found myself the other day asking God what He could be showing me through Conner giving me these rocks every day. Its pretty neat how God can speak to us through simple things as this.
My answer was this: You are beautiful. I chose you. My grace is sufficient.
I have been reading a book called Made To Crave and its about satisfying our cravings with God instead of other things. So far it’s a pretty good book and ventures through other things that people use like drugs, food, and other addictions. I’ve struggled with the way I view myself–in probably every way–spiritually, physically, etc. Letting myself believe that I’m not good enough..I don’t do enough of something…and on and on with these negative tapes in my head…letting others steal the joys of my talents and passions. And making myself believe things that are not true. Lets just say –Satan knows exactly what to do to get me down. But in reading the book this passage has stuck out to me the most–
“I’ve found my beautiful. And I like my beautiful. I don’t have to hold my beautiful up to others with a critical eye of judgment. Like Ralph Waldo Emerson once said, “Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not.”
God chose me. He loves me. I wasn’t a perfect and smooth rock when he found me–I was broken and cracked..yet he still thought I was beautiful.
Today at church there was a man that was baptized. He did not go to our church–he was trying to catch a bus across the street and the station happened to be closed. So, he decided to come in and attend the service. Through the service he accepted Christ and got Baptized—forget the bus ride-he found Jesus! 🙂 He wants that man to find his beautiful and experience Love too. He wants us to find our beautiful.
He wants me to stop and look at my “beautiful” and embrace it instead of trying to find it in other things. He even tries to show me through simple things like Conner bringing me rocks. So now, every time Conner brings me rocks from play time or when I hear the clanging in the dryer from escaped rocks out of his pockets.. I am reminded..
You are beautiful. I chose you. My grace is sufficient.
My prayer is that you will see and hear God’s beauty in simple things and remember these words too.
Be brave.
By: Amanda Ledford
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Charity says
Amanda this is just what I needed to hear this morning. I feel as if I am always struggling to find my beautiful. Through what you wrote God really spoke to my heart. Thanks again!
Amanda Ledford says
Thank you, Charity. I am so glad that God spoke to your heart as that is my only purpose in sharing my thoughts is for God to use my words in some way. God Bless!
PurpleJ says
Hi, Amanda! Welcome! I read a previous article and I found my “Beautiful” in what I call “scars” on my limbs but they’re really not as it goes away, if I don’t have the flare or episodes.
I have this mysterious illness (yes, doctors admitted and in history that Panniculitis is not treatable, it just goes away). I am still on a non-traditional medical trial treatments by my kind treating physician to suppress the manifestation of my skin inflammation – the debilitating rashes (achy, red, bumpy & swelling). Well, not so much on the illness now. I found God during and still ongoing disability period. I was confused, depressed, worried, anxious and angry, too, when I was starting disability. God revealed so many Beautiful Things as I medically journey with time and now excited to see, feel and taste what’s more in the offing with God. Lost count on my blessings but I need to reflect to count them to stay grateful, content, peaceful and cheerful. Take care!
Amanda Ledford says
Wow, Purple. you have definitely dealt with a lot of difficult things. I hope that you continue to give all your worries and negative feelings to our Savoir. He is amazing in what He does for us! I am confident that he will give your strength in all this if you continue to ask Him. My prayers are with you!
Mindy Bowman says
This is so sweet! I love that you are “reminded” when you hear the rocks pinging in the dryer. That is an awesome reminder. Why is it as kids we just accept things and as adults we build walls between us and acceptance? Craziness!
Amanda Ledford says
Thank you!! God is always using my kids and my clients to speak to me!!
Jenny L Cortez says
Amanda, this is such a wonderful reminder for us all. Thank you for sharing this! 😀
Amanda Ledford says
thank you for taking the time to read this Jenny! Hope you are doing well!!!
Liz says
A ‘keeper’, thank you (and Purple is amazing!).
Amanda Ledford says
She is, Liz! Thank you for taking the time to read this!!
Lisa says
What a lovely analogy. And, I think it would be a great idea to put those lovely, gift given rocks in a jar. You know, just to remember.
Amanda Ledford says
I am definitely doing that lisa!! Thinking of using it as a table centerpiece or something. …a wonderful reminder for me. thank you!
Christine says
Oh those rocks in the dryer…if I had a dime…
You have changed the way I see them. Thank you for sharing that.
Amanda Ledford says
thank you for reading, Christine! Its interesting really…on days that are especially tough..God makes sure I get one of those rocks from my little one. 🙂
kat says
I have often thought that you can tell a woman’s a mother, if she reaches in her pocket to get change and finds a rock. My boys were giving me rocks all the time. right now it’s dandelions. They beauty for me is in their giving, not really in the gift itself. Thank you for giving me another perspective and a reason to enjoy the sound of rocks in the dryer.
Amanda Ledford says
thank you for taking the time to read it!! And yes you are right….i find all kinds of things in my pockets and purse…some of the popular things are ligtning mcqueens and superheroes. lol. But rocks seem to be my favorite! 🙂
Leigh Kay says
Way to go Amanda!! I am so thrilled for you for so many reasons. What joy it brings me to see your words here. I know the effect they must have on you…or at least I can imagine. That feeling, is God using your passions to further His Kingdom, and also to increase your joy by folds and folds! It is exhilarating, and I am so happy to see that in your life. I’m honored to have shared a season of life with you sister. Keep at this. Keep at your amazing photography. And most of all, keep finding your beauty and worth at the open tomb’s door, at the feet of a Risen King. 🙂
Amanda Ledford says
Thank you so much, Leigh! You are such a sweet and Godly woman! I hope you continue to find your beauty and worth as well! I know we are far from each other…but keep in touch so we can pray for each other!!
kelley lawrence says
love you my friend! beautiful devo!
amanda says
love you back! thank you for reading it! 🙂
Beth Williams says
Amanda,
This paragraph–fits me to a tee!! “I’ve struggled with the way I view myself–in probably every way–spiritually, physically, etc. Letting myself believe that I’m not good enough..I don’t do enough of something…and on and on with these negative tapes in my head…letting others steal the joys of my talents and passions.” I’ve struggled with feelings of inadequacy for a long time. It only takes one sentence–not even spoken to me or a bad day at work & there is the Evil One shouting loudly in my ears–stupid, dumb, ugly, not good enough–why even try!
Thank you for the reminder that I am a beloved Child of Most High King and He sees me a beautiful masterpiece!
Amanda Ledford says
He sure does, Beth! We all need reminders of this! The devil knows how to get to us…I am like you..if I am having a bad day …that might make it easier for these negative tapes to get louder and louder…we always have to be on our guard! “put on the full armour of God…” Thank you for reading! 🙂
Christan says
“Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not.” Fabulous words.
Thank you for writing and for your perspective. I love how our little children are fulfilling God’s purpose for their lives EVEN NOW to bless not only their mommies but entire online communities. Thank you.
Amanda Ledford says
Thank you for taking the time to read this! I too…LOVED that quote and want to frame it as a constant reminder. oh and yes… Aren’t kids awesome?! 🙂