There are days that simply don’t go as planned. Like the day I went through my entire morning routine, left for work, and didn’t realize until I arrived for a meeting that I never put a stitch of make-up on my face.
Or the days when I set my alarm to wake early, to commit to reading the Word before my family rises, to find quiet time with God and ….my toddler decides it’s a great night to need mommy. all. night.
As I’ve walked through this season of God Sized Dreams, praying that God would place on my heart a desire to do exactly what He created me to do, I’ve realized something. My plans don’t matter. Sure, it would be great for all of my days to go exactly as I imagine, never forgetting to pack lunch or … you know…hypothetically forget deodorant. Ahem.
But when it comes down to it? When I really pray about the plans God has for me, it’s His agenda that I desire. My plans might look great on paper. I’m Type-A enough to actually have plans ON paper. I sit and imagine “if this happens, then I could do this, and then maybe they would offer me that and it could all work perfectly!” Those plans of mine are exhausting to create and would likely be even more tiresome to carry out to completion. God doesn’t want worn out worship. He doesn’t desire for His children, His daughters, to carry burdens of plans and agendas until our arms are so heavy we can no longer reach them to Him. He wants us to rest in Him, giving Him back the desires of our hearts so that He can plan, pave the way, and guide us.
We can come as we are to the foot of the cross with the deepest, wildest dreams of our hearts and know that we serve a God big enough, strong enough, wise enough to take them and make them beautiful in His time. He will take the parts of us that we don’t think are good enough, the ones we forgot to put make-up on, the ones that might be less than perfect, and He will refine them until there is beauty from the ashes.
My plans will never be perfect. But I can rest in the arms of the One who knows exactly what to do with the dreams He’s given me, trusting that His ways are best.