The three of us gather in chairs right there in my dining room. We go heart-deep and my dear friend Jennifer says words like these, “I’ve struggled with believing the lie that I’m not smart enough.” It’s a stunning confession to those of us listening because, as Suzie replies, “You’re one of the smartest people I know!”
Later Suzie admits she’s struggled with believing she’s not good enough. And we are again shocked because she’s a woman of faithfulness and excellence in our eyes. I add my own lie, that I have strived to earn my worth because I sometimes don’t believe who I am is adequate. Yet I’m the girl God has used to write books about embracing who we are and becoming all God created us to be.
A light bulb comes on as I realize suddenly that the enemy is lying to us in the area of our giftings.
I imagine he does the same with you too. Because I think the purpose of the lies is to hold us back from who we’re created to be and what we’re called to do. I will never forget Priscilla Shirer making a powerful statement that basically came down to, “The attacks on our lives are more about who the enemy believes we can become than who we are right now.”
These attacks are startling, but we need to acknowledge they’re a normal part of life as a believer — as a soldier and fighter. And they will be until we’re in heaven. We may have times when it feels like the lies have been fully defeated. But then they come back, and if we don’t understand the reality of what’s happening, we can feel a lot of shame and guilt. We can wonder, “What is wrong with me?”
I was praying about that one day and I felt like the Lord showed me all it means when we hear those lies again is that we are still in a battle because we are still living in a fallen world. If we’re soldiers on a battlefield and someone is shooting arrows at us is that a reason to be ashamed? Is that a reason to feel guilty? No!
That is reason to say, “You know what? I am a warrior! And I have fought hard and I’m going to keep fighting hard. I’m doing what my Commanding Officer has called me to do, which is to stand my ground and never stop fighting.”
So if you are in a battle today, if you are hearing lies, do not let the enemy shame you, do not let him make you feel guilty.
We can block those arrows and say, “No, in Jesus’ name, I am a warrior and I’m going to resist until the day I go home.”
There are going to be times when we need our sisters to lock shields with us too and say, “I’m going to take those arrows for awhile. I’m going to stand in the gap for you.” There is no shame in that either. In the Kingdom of God, there is no such thing as an army of one.
We are always stronger, better, and braver together.
So here’s my little challenge for us. When we hear lies this week, when we feel shame and guilt, let’s say, “This does not mean I’m a wimp. This means I am a warrior!” We are going to keep battling those lies together. We are never going to be defeated. We are going to stand firm on the side of truth. And we’re going to remember this: The truth always wins in the end.