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Mallory is a wife, writer, and pastor. She loves telling stories because of the power they have to impact and connect people. Dry humor, clean inboxes, and sunny days are a few of her favorite things. She lives in Ohio with her husband and their sweet pup, Roger.

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  1. I thank you for your transparency and your truth. This word spoke so much volume and may you be encouraged knowing that your story will impacts others. May you find comfort knowing that God hears and we rest in his confidence for complete healing. I am believing God for your restored hearing.

  2. Mallory,
    Thank you for this personal and raw story that is real. It’t not a story that is tied up neatly with a bow and a happy ending – yet. We don’t understand the why’s and wherefore’s of life, yet God calls us to trust and to give Him praise. How difficult to do so when you can’t hear the world around you. I am praying for full restoration of your hearing and you inspire me to lift God up in praise knowing that that victory is ours this side of the grave, but perfection will wait for us in eternity with Him. It keeps us longing for our eternal home – a kind of homesickness if you will. May Jehovah Rophe – the ultimate Healer touch you and make you whole. Awe inspiring post…
    Blessings,
    Bev xx

  3. Mallory, I am completely speechless. Thank you for holding your grief up to the light of God’s power and seeing room for resurrection as Saturday stretches long and hard for you. I’m writing your name in my planner so that I will remember to pray for you in the coming days.

  4. What a testimony! Thank you for sharing your heart “in the midst” of the journey. I’m not in a painful situation, but I have been waiting, learning to rest and watch and listen. It’s hard. But there is Hope! And we are blessed in so many ways! Your words definitely put a renewed focus, especially in this season, on the One who brings healing, freedom, revelation, and fulfillment of dreams.

    • I love this, Alison. Thanks for sharing. There IS Hope! There’s so much of it, and sometimes we lose sight of that. I love how our own stories can help remind each other that hope is real and Sunday comes. Glory!

  5. God bless you! I can’t even imagine what you must be feeling, but am so happy to read the hope that you contain. God is good, ALL THE TIME, even when we might be going through something that seems overwhelming to us. I lost my sister to cancer last summer and am watching my daughter slowly fade with a blood disorder that doctors can’t seem to correct. I have to tell you that I have witnessed some pretty dark Saturdays lately and will be so glad when Sunday finally comes. I’m looking forward to it!

  6. So blessed by this! Thank you for these encouraging words to a mom of 5 who has been living Silent Saturday for years…..
    May the Lord bless and keep you and make His face shine upon you!!!!!
    Our Sunday is COMING!!!

  7. Mallory,
    Thank you for sharing with us. Your voice is so steady through this, with a certainty of faith and peace, that when I realized this was only a week ago, it was a surprise. I love the notion of the Saturday as the waiting space, and Levi Lusko uses Saturday as the middle place of loss in his book Through the Eyes of a Lion.

    Praying that Sunday comes quickly and the silence is temporary so that you can hear the sweet whisper of Jesus when he reminds you of his faithfulness.

    Erin

    • Thank you, Erin! It has been oh-so-messy with many tears and screams, but enough of me believes in Sunday and that keeps me steady. 🙂
      I love the idea of the middle space; I’ll check out that book! Thanks!

  8. Dear Mallory,

    I pray that God may restore your hearing permanently. And I thank Him for the blessings He has allowed you to share with the world. You are a light in the darkness. Keep shining!

    Love,

    Angela

  9. Cochlear Implants, Mallory? I’m so very sorry, after the joy and wonder of their success, you suffered so much pain. I pray that only one eardrum was ruptured, that the surgeons will be able to construct a replacement membrane, and that the left ear remains strong and healthy. I don’t think God sends us pain, but there again – what do I know of His reasoning.

    It appears the C I for your left ear has been disconnected meantime. From your determinedly upbeat column, I imagine you will ponder anew and in greater depth the great hope of Easter while you suffer the silence.

    May that silence be brief, your hearing restored, and you spared further pain. Balm in Gilead.
    Blessings on you, your husband, and sweet Roger.

    • Hi Elizabeth,
      Thanks so much for being here–for your kind words and blessings. Despite my hope in Sunday, this season has certainly brought me into the depth of reflection as I wait. Your comment is so encouraging. Thank you!

  10. Mallory- what a profound reminder of silence before God shows his plan in our lives. I can’t help but want to reach out to you. I am an ENT doctor, and wanted to help in any way I can. Feel free to message me.

  11. Oh, Kate. Your offer. You’re amazing. Thank you so much.
    (On a less serious note, do you have any pull in renaming some of these diagnoses and procedures? I still stumble through pronouncing those words!!)

  12. Bless you dear Mallory. I have already started praying for you. Your dear post resonated with me this morning. God is a healer. I believe He will do exactly as He said in His Word. Our God will take away all our pain and tears. His timing is perfect. May God’s sweet love and adoration for you, be with you as He tenderly cradles you in His loving arms. Keep believing and trusting in the One who sent His only begotten Son to reconcile us to Him and died for our sins and afflictions.

    I know your future will be beyond comparison to anything you have already experienced. You will have another post that will be filled with blessings and thanksgiving. You have sincerely blessed me.
    May your heart be merry!

  13. Mallory,
    I’m sorry for your suffering, yet in your silence you choose to inspire, thank-you.
    I pray all will be well for you come Sunday.

    Have a blessed day,

    Penny

  14. Dearest Mallory, the courage and transparency you I just read, has encouraged me in my struggles of a quiet Saturday.
    Your are an encouragement to many, to trust in the Lord with all our heart and mind, no matter the circumstances.
    I to cannot wait for that Sunday in your life, which will be soon in Jesus name, when we will read of the victorious testimony of your healing.
    God bless you and your husband and of course Roger

    • Amen, dear one! I’m so grateful to hear you’ve been encouraged, Letty. I feel the same way as I read all of these generous comments. You bless me (and my husband + sweet Rog!).

  15. Malloy, I was diagnosed with otosclerosis in my 20’s as well. I started missing the consonant sounds in conversations and for awhile could “fake it” for awhile by the context of the conversation. I was a Sunday school teacher and children’s choir leader at the time and struggled for understanding the “why?” of this hearing condition. My right ear was operated on in 1995; a stapedectomy was successful. For some strange reason pregnancy seemed to make my left ear worse and after my son was born in 1998, I put off the stapedetomy of the left ear until 2005. I still have a 30-40% loss in both ears but with hearing aids, most people wouldn’t know. I have gone through times of depression about having this condition and when my son still wasn’t talking at 3 years old, I immediately thought it was his ears and all my fault. Thank God his hearing was fine and we still don’t know why he had a speech delay and several years of speech therapy. He’s in college and excelling now, so all that worry wasn’t necessary. Well, I’m now 51 years old and with the new technology, I am wired for sound. Both protheses are still in place after all these years. Being grateful for the hearing I do have and for a very understanding husband and family. Be on guard for attacks from the enemy. He will attack your confidence and faith if he hasn’t already. Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid and do not be discouraged, God is with you every step of the way. I will agree in prayer for your healing, wisdom, and faith in the One who created your ears. Be blessed

    • Hi Paula,
      I haven’t met anyone else with otosclerosis! Thank you for sharing your story. I don’t have kids (yet), but have often wondered if/how pregnancy would impact my hearing (and if I would pass this down to my kiddos). So grateful to hear that both you and your son are doing well. You are a bearer of hope!

  16. My hearing took a huge dip in the early months after beginning chemotherapy drugs. I couldn’t hear the phone, radio, computer and was constantly asking people to repeat what had been said.

    Through the miracle of hearing aids I am in relationship with people. Recent illness took 3 antibiotics, 2 broad based, and prednisone. The tinnitus is back. I am waiting for tests about worms/parasites, likely more drugs, and then back to the audiologist.
    God loves us with his everlasting love. I believe he cries with us.
    You are not alone. Nor am I.

    • Amen, Jill. We’re not alone, and I believe sharing our stories of struggle is a powerful tool. Thank you for sharing your experience; it sounds like it has been rich with Fridays and Saturdays. May you continually be comforted by reminders of Sunday.
      With you,
      Mallory

  17. Mallory, your words have touched my heart. I am praying that all goes well with your surgeries and that your hearing is fully restored. Your faith is a beautiful thing and Jesus is always with you and will heal you! God bless you always ❤

  18. I too have otoscerosis. I wear a hearing aid in my left ear. Now, my hearing in my right ear is going. I’m going to have to get a hearing aid for my right ear. When the hearing aids stop working, I’m not sure what my options with be. I’m depending on the LORD to guide me. You will be in my prayers. May God bless you and guide you to His will regarding your hearing.

    • Oh, Barbara. It can be such a discouraging road. Thanks for sharing a bit of your journey with us. May we not see the day when hearing aids stop working for you. And even if we do, may peace be loud.
      Love to you.

  19. Mallory,

    Praying for healing & complete restoration. This post so resonated with me. I was born with two punctured ear drums. I couldn’t hear for years. Took speech classes to learn to speak properly. They did surgery on left ear with no luck, but the right ear took. They tried the left again and no again. Finally I got my self a hearing aid for that ear and it worked wonders. Years later that ear somehow repaired itself.

    God is in the healing business. I know that after silent Saturday will come the thrill of Easter Sunday. Thanks for making me think of life in this way.

    (((((Hugs)))))

  20. Wow!! I must chime in and thank you, Mallory for sharing your struggle. I’ve never “met” anyone else with Otosclerosis and I’ve suffered from it for fifteen years. I never felt at peace about having a Stapedectomy so I’m getting by with the use of hearing aides. Hopefully they will always work. I’m quite thankful for them, however they are extremely expensive and I’ve discovered they become obsolete within about five years. At that point they have to be replaced with new-and-improved-more-expensive-models. My prayers are for all of you that are on the same path, that God will give you grace and peace (the loud kind) with your personal hearing struggles. I am blessed to have you all to pray for as you face your own hearing challenge. It’s nice to know you. We should form a club!! Praise music is a must!! The louder the better 🙂

    • Lisa! This is amazing. I, too, hadn’t “met” others with Otosclerosis until reading these comments. It’s a powerful sort of comfort to know there are others who experience something similar to my own struggles. I think this could be one of the best and loudest kinds of clubs!! I love it!
      Thanks for sharing your experience. My dad has had a similar experience with obsolete hearing aids. That technology may be in my future–if it is, or if it isn’t, I will continue pursuing the loudest peace 🙂
      Sending all my love. So grateful to be “in it” with you.

  21. Dear mallory, As I read your story I couldn’t help but cry. I slowly have lost my hearing. It started as a child, got punished for not doing things, when I never heard someone tell me. Made fun of all thru childhood in school. And as i age silence is closing in on me. So sorry to hear of your story. Prayers will be with you.

    • Thank you for sharing, Jean. I’m so sorry to hear of your hearing problems. It’s scary and painful–AND, we are not beyond God’s healing power. I hope you feel God’s presence in the silence. Peace, friend.

  22. Please read where Jesus heals the deaf, He commands, ” Ephphatha “, in Mark 7:34. As a believer, He gives us authority, and I believe the ladies commenting are in agreement. He has already died for healing. I know it’s hard when we are in pain and fear wants to stop our miracles but He is listening, so I say to those with hearing problems today, ” Ephphatha “, be opened in Jesus name. ( Sounds like f – fath – a ) I hope you all are hearing the bird sing soon, believe and recieve, He loves you.

  23. I too have dealt with Otosclerosis. I am almost 58 years old. I was diagnosed at 18, had my first prosthesis. Getting my hearing back in my left ear was so strange, I had gotten used to very little sound on that side of my body. But for me, it was a miracle as I was also a singer. Years later, in my late thirty’s, I again had to have this surgery in my right ear. It took three surgeries to get that one right. While it restored some of my hearing, it was also frustrating as I had more ringing and the sound of the tires on the pavement in the car made it impossible to hear conversation. Gradually I became profoundly deaf and finally two years ago I consented to get my first hearing aids, a blessing for my husband as sometimes the television would have to be on 90 just to understand what was being said. I’m still a singer, and enjoy being an altogether in our church choir as well as years singing in a professional gospel quartet. I tell my husband every day how blessed he is to have such excellent hearing. I will never take for granted the hearing that I presently have, even though I know that eventually I will most likely need cochlear implants, but for now I’ll celebrate that God has gifted me with a technology miracle, and cross the other bridge to deafness when it is God’s will. Blessings to you, I will pray that your hearing can be restored. I’ve been in your shoes, and it’s not any fun. God bless.

    Dianna

    • Hi Dianna!
      Thanks for sharing your story. It sounds like you’ve been on quite the journey; I’m so glad to hear you have found something that works for you and allows you to hear and sing! The future may hold something different, but it is good to celebrate in what you have today! Thank you for the encouragement!

  24. Yes yes yes… just now reading this and it all feels so appropriate. You have such a delicate and beautiful way of connecting real, raw, day to day experiences with Spirit and meaning and Truth. Big love sister.