I thought I was on the mend after lots of physical therapy. My back and the pain down my leg was finally getting better. And then it wasn’t. Suddenly it was way worse and the doctor said it was time for an MRI. I was not looking forward to this one bit. The loud, crazy noise that sounds like the machine is breaking. Squeezing into a big tube. Having to lay perfectly still while being in a lot of pain.
I had no idea how I was going to get through this. I was stressing out and worried. The best thing I could do was push aside my anxieties and find my peace in Him and trust that He would meet me in the moment.
And meet me He did.
We were able to find a place that has an open MRI. I didn’t even know those existed. At least I wasn’t going to have to be in a big tube.
The staff was kind and settled me into the machine as comfortable as I could be. Her gentle voice told me to keep my head turned to look out a window, which helped so much with the feeling of being trapped in the thing.
They gave me headphones and asked what kind of music I would like. Sure enough, they had a Christian station I could listen to.
So there I was for an hour. . . pain free enough to lay still, looking out at the blue sky and tree tops, listening to uplifting music . . . feeling Him right there with me. The noise went away, the claustrophobia went away, the pain went away, the worry went away.
There was peace found in a less than peaceful situation.
If I would have let my anxieties get the best of me, I would have missed how He was meeting me in that moment. I would have missed the grace He granted me for this moment.
When you are present in the moment, you will feel His Presence. And with that comes extraordinary peace.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7)
I know how easy it can be to fall into the trap of worrying about future things. Our minds seem to jump right to all the difficult, scary, bad things. Our peace is then lost.
In truth, we have no idea. We don’t know how things are really going to go. Big things, little things. We get anxious instead of living in the moment with Him at our side. By His grace, in peace, trusting His loving providence.
We are seen. We are heard. We are loved. We are not alone.
He will meet us in the moment and His peace will fill our hearts.
May we open our eyes to His great grace and love in the beauty and goodness He surrounds us with. In little daily moments and big life moments, I pray we recognize His presence. In a beautiful blue sky, in an encouraging word, in the solution to a difficult situation, in the prayers of our friends.
The MRI did show a ruptured disc involving the nerves. But instead of getting anxious about what is ahead, I am leaning on His presence. I have some options and whatever happens, He will meet me there.
Always remember, whatever you may be going through, He will meet you there. Keep your eyes and heart open to encounter His presence.
Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in every way. The Lord be with you all. (2 Thessalonians 3:16)