When we pulled out of the driveway, heading toward seminary, part of me wondered if we were crazy. But we had prayed about this change for months and invited our family, friends, and church leaders into the discernment process. We felt sure of our trajectory, sure of where we were headed. The thing we were most unsure about? Money. My husband quit his job to become a seminary student; I quit mine to move. We knew we wouldn’t have much money coming in for a while. But what we did have in front of us was a choice. Would we worry? Or would we choose thankfulness?
We had experienced lean times before and I had spent years worrying about paying the bills. This time, however, I made the intentional decision to say no to worry and yes to peace. To say no to fear and yes to thankfulness. It wasn’t easy. I tend to be fearful rather than fearless. But I had walked the path of fear and worry before, and I didn’t want to choose that path again. So I chose to be thankful for what we already had — our health, extra time together as a family, food on the table, the opportunity to learn to trust God afresh. And I found that choosing gratitude sustained my spirit over months of uncertainty. Focusing on God’s provision for us, even in the smallest things, turned my mind to thankfulness and praise.
When I received a $50 check in the mail for some freelance work I had done several months prior, I found myself in awe of God’s kindness — and timing. Choosing thankfulness has changed me. It’s made me appreciate the ways, both big and small, that the Lord has cared for our family. And it also led me to peace in Christ’s provision — one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever received.
Let the peace of Christ, to which you were also called in one body,
rule your hearts. And be thankful.
Colossians 3:15 (CSB)
This message was written by Ann Swindell and appears in A Moment to Breathe, a 365-day devotional from the (in)courage community.
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