If you feel unprepared for what God is asking of you, I can relate. I’ve been struggling with the same feelings. What God whispered to my heart might help you take the next step forward in your adventure with Jesus, too.
Recently, God showed me a new calling through reading His Word and years of waiting. I was thrilled He would choose to use me, but honestly, I was a little nervous at the scope of His assignment for me.
He had been teaching me how each of us has a specific dwelling place with Him — a promised land — so it made sense when God asked me to help others by writing, speaking, and doing a podcast on empowering others as they go on their Jesus-led adventure. But I kept thinking to myself, Why would anyone listen to me? I don’t really have the credentials to speak and write on this topic. I need more education so others can be confident in me and listen.
I was reminded of Moses and his response to God’s call in Exodus 4:10-12:
But Moses replied to the Lord, “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent—either in the past or recently or since you have been speaking to your servant—because my mouth and my tongue are sluggish.”
The Lord said to him, “Who placed a mouth on humans? Who makes a person mute or deaf, seeing or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go! I will help you speak and I will teach you what to say.”
I had quickly turned from a vision only God could orchestrate to focusing on my lack of abilities to fulfill His calling in my life. Instead of trusting God’s character and watching Him do this awesome work through me, I shifted my mind to where I doubted myself and eventually Him. I listened to the enemy and began to believe it was on me to figure out the plan.
I had forgotten that God is not only the promise maker but the promise keeper. He calls us to join Him in His work and then equips us to do what He asks.
God not only calls us on a journey with Him, but He leads the way, fights the battles, and does the work through us by the power of the Holy Spirit.
But often what happens to us is we start to allow the enemy to keep saying one thing. It may play out in different ways in our minds, but the nagging root question boils down to this: Who do you think you are?
That’s what I had allowed to keep swirling in my head and heart. And I answered that question with a phone call to the admissions office of a renowned seminary. I kept this idea of attending seminary a secret for a while. I asked a lot of questions, and they mailed me a course catalog. I researched the cost of time and money. I wrestled both with how to accomplish my calling and whether to attend seminary to become more educated to fulfill this calling.
I kept allowing that question, Who do you think you are?, to roam around my mind when I should have been answering back, “I am His, and He is able.”
God is always so gracious to give us little nudges of direction, whisper His love to our hearts, and clear up our foggy minds when we feel overwhelmed and get off course.
I sought guidance in the Word when God spoke one word to me: Peter. I quickly skimmed through 1 and 2 Peter, then the Gospels, and then I found my answer in Acts 4.
Acts 4:13 particularly stood out to me:
The members of the council were amazed when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, for they could see that they were ordinary men who had no special training. They also recognized them as men who had been with Jesus.
No special training. Ordinary people. Who had been with Jesus. That’s how the Lord loves to work through us.
He wants to set up our situations so anyone who could hear or watch us would know it must be the Lord.
The Holy Spirit turns those of us lacking knowledge wise. He makes the fearful courageous. He replaces lies with the truth. The Holy Spirit uses our weaknesses because He is strong. He answers the question, Who do you think you are? with the reminder that we are His.
What I really wanted was a sure thing. I wanted to know that what God was going to do through me would be well received and accepted. I wanted to feel secure with letters behind my name. I wanted to succeed in my calling, but His plan was that I simply walk in it.
Now, I rely day by day upon the Holy Spirit’s teaching as I spend time with Jesus. I ask for motivation to continue to take each new step. I do things I think are hard or might take too long, so God can teach me how to dwell with Him as I guide others to do the same. I know and need His help and look to receive it.
God is glorified when we obey Him. We can be a part of His mighty wonders and miracles with others exclaiming, “Only God!” when we trust how He wants to work through us.
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God calls us to join Him in His work and then equips us to do what He asks. -Stephanie Bryant: Click To Tweet