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Kaitlyn is a Virtual Assistant, book launch manager, and storyteller who writes about discovering God's goodness in the ordinary and faithfulness in the difficult. She loves good books, deep conversations, and iced vanilla lattes. Kaitlyn is the author of Even If Not: Living, Loving, and Learning in the in Between.

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  1. I truly needed this message today. I have felt like my story has ended and in a very dark place. I lost my mother, my father passed 6 weeks later and 4 weeks after that my husband left while I was out getting dinner without a word spoken now for 3 months. I continue to lean into God, but this reminder that even when it is quiet and there are no answers He is still working was meant for me this morning. Thank you

    • So sorry dear One.. can’t imagine your pain . Keep your eyes on Jesus.. He is the only one we can count on in this life.. He is The Waymaker, Promise Keeper… your Light in the Darkness..He is more than sufficient and I pray will give you strength and wisdom and peace to move on in the days ahead. May His fullness of JY fill you and May He walk every moment with you holding you in His care. Hugs and

    • Erica,
      I am so very sorry. How sad your heart must be with the weights of pain &loss. I’m praying for you to be able to wait ,trust & rest in God. He is with you where you are.

  2. Kaitlyn, this is such a beautiful blog. Thank you for the reminder that oftentimes, what we see isn’t the end, it’s somewhere in the middle of our story. Remembering that God is with us in those darkest moments, often unseen but always working, brings such comfort. I needed this today.

  3. This is so timely for me this morning,
    I’m waiting on results from a skin biopsy that hasn’t gone away with just freezing. The doctor said words like wanting to rule out melanoma. My heart dropped and I’ve been teetering on leaning into God and His faithless and all-out fear. Thank you for your beautiful message.

    • Oh, I know this storyline… at least in a somewhat similar way. Chapter 2 of my book is titled “sickness & health” and walks through part of me learning I had a brain tumor and then surgery/what I learned through it. Little did I know when writing, I would have 3 more surgeries (with another planned, as of today, for later this month). It’s a hard road to walk but what I can say without a doubt, and what I hope you discover as well, is how GOOD He is regardless of WHAT healing looks like. xo

  4. Thank you for sharing your words. I am in a period of waiting, be patient and re-learning trusting God is good. I am going to read Lazarus’s story again–to both be the hoping and to be with Jesus. God is good all the time–it’s just hard to see sometimes. This Lent has been powerful and God has used (in)courage several times.

  5. Thank you Kaitlyn for you’re beautiful words. Thank you for reminding me it’s okay to be in the middle because God is their and He is working even though it feels like we are stuck. I’m so grateful to pass along this message to my daughter and son-in-law. Please pray for them. They are “stuck” in a tough season of their marriage right now.
    Thank you

  6. Kaitlynn, yes, I’ve prayed for years for some requests. This post spoke so clearly to me today and I hear every word you said. It is so true. I’ve also sat and spoke to God with the tears flowing. My flower isn’t an Amaryllis, but 2 Christmas Cactus. My song on repeat now is “Here Again”. The lyrics are so apt now. Blessings, Joanne

  7. I have already read through this post more than once this morning and have shared it as well. It was very meaningful to me to read this during this seemingly long, heartbreakingly hard waiting for reconciliation with prodigal family member.

  8. I love the words you have written. Not because they are well written, because they are. Not because you have expressed what I so often have experienced, yet you have. But because they have served to remind me of what I vowed so very long ago as I lay awake contemplating a difficult situation for which I had no solution. I asked God if he was real and if so, then he could have the mess of my life to do with as he would. At that precise moment His voice, inaudible yet very loud and clear with a gentleness only He can express, I heard “Everything will be OK.” A warmth started at the very top of my head and flowed over me to the tips of my toes and filled me with the peace and joy that only He can give. I decided then that if He never answered another prayer or did anything to help me I had everything because His son willingly died and took my place so that I might have eternal life.
    An old hymn says “it will be worth it all when we see Jesus. Life’s trials will seem so small when we see Christ. One glimpse of his dear face all sorrow will erase so bravely run the race, til we see Christ. “
    We were promised a difficult life as believers. We have been told that because Christ is hated by Satan that we too will be hated. My answer to all who question and are experiencing some life’s hardest times, gather at the feet of the throne of Grace and let the Father and the Son do the heavy lifting while we, as His children play safely.
    Gods blessing to all of you. Keep going toward the one who bled and died and rose again to reign triumphant.

  9. Thank you. I am waiting, not sure for what. I only know He is glorious & works for my good. So I’m awaiting, & crying, sometimes depressed so that I say “it doesn’t matter”, but if I speak the truth to myself, it does matter to Jesus. So I’m waiting. Looking to find your book.

  10. Soooo good- Beautiful things can grow in dark spaces. Even when there’s “nothing to show for it” yet, God is at work.

  11. A family we know is going through a season of brokenness right now; your words offer sweet comfort and encouragement. Just this morning as I prayed for them, a vision of a broken vase came to mind–a heap of shattered pottery beyond hope of repair. BUT GOD! He not only repairs, he restores. He can take shards and create a flawless showpiece. That’s what He did for Mary, Martha, and Lazarus, making their family whole again; He can do that for this family. Just as you said, resurrection might be on the way, right this very minute! Thank you, Kaitlyn, for this fresh breeze of affirmation.

  12. This message had my name on it. I read Lazarus’ story this morning. I had a major disappointment that I put aside. After reading this devotional, I was able to cry and really search my heart. Thank you for writing this brilliant and beautiful post. God knew it was needed. God bless you.

  13. Kaitlyn,

    God is still the God of miracles. He is in control of everything & His timing is perfect. What may seem like a wilderness to us is actually a growth period where He is working on us. Then suddenly like your amaryllis it will bloom & you will see fruit. Lisa Jo Baker wrote a book called “The Middle Matters”. She talks about the middle of life & everything. It all matters to God. He is using it to prune us & make us more into a likeness of Himself. Your story isn’t over till God says it is. Keep praying, hoping & waiting. Soon there will be blooms & blossoms. Spring is coming.

    Blessings 🙂

    • LJ was my boss for several years 😉 and is a good friend. I read The Middle Matters and though it’s almost entirely about parenting/mid-life years, she is such a wonderful storyteller that I (a single woman in her 20s) still gleaned words of wisdom from what she shared!

  14. Thank you for your encouraging words! The reminder of beautiful things can grow in the dark even when there is nothing to show for it YET. During this time of silence God is at work. The compassion you have for others is heartfelt. Then to end it with Jesus comes and He is enough! Beautiful!!!

  15. I am thankful for this message. I am reminded to keep my hope in God alone. He is the author of life, and you are right, He can place a comma, a period or pause our stories. The part we play is to pray, trust and obey.

    As a child, I was certainly taught the love of Christ. Thank the Lord for His offer of Salvation to me.
    I did not get lessons on the answer “no”, “maybe”, “wait” or “silence” and this is very important to learn to accept because what God has already planned is far greater than our plan or our request. Be prepared to gain patience and to strengthen your faith. Life is a beautiful gift and a journey that is not predictable. It’s winding and can be topsy turvy without a reason. Doubt tries to visit and will stay as long as you will allow it to stay. Choose to focus on past prayers answered and experiences of God’s surprises that brought you much joy. My children bring me much joy.

    God is a good God and He knows the plans He has for us. I truly believe His plans for my life are great.

    God bless you all.

  16. This was awsome, thank you for writing this giving me hope for family members I had so much worry about. I will probably buy your book. You are a very good writer and very insightful.

  17. “But it will be worth the wait, worth the planting and stretching and dying, because it’s a miracle — a right-on-time, abundantly-more miracle.”
    Wow. Love this! This was such an encouraging piece. Thank you for sharing hope and God’s Love.